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my-emotional-massacre

I've been suffering with depression for a pretty long time now and I've attempted suicide 8 times. I'm a self harmer but I'm weeks clean. I'm fighting not to relapse because I've relapsed so many time in the past and I honestly don' t know whether I'm beginning to appreciate life or not.

A Letter

by my-emotional-massacre 5/29/2013

written by my-emotional-massacre

Dear Me,

I just don’t get it. . Why doesn’t anyone else have the voices too? Â How do you fake that smile so well when we both know you’re planning ending your life? Â Why is it that you can hate yourself so much when you didn’t do anything. Your scars scream louder for help than you ever could and that’s the sad truth. Your tears can’t be separated from the bathtub water they fall into. Â No matter how much blood you steal from yourself, you can’t be satisfied, so why do you even bother to still do it? Â You’ve written your suicide letter and […]

5/29/2013 1 comment

I Think..

by my-emotional-massacre 1/16/2013

written by my-emotional-massacre

I think everything about me went downhill when the person I was closest to decided to end their own life. Even though before this time I was still considering ending my pain, sometimes I stop and think when all of it got so extreme. I trace it all back to that phone call informing me of them being gone.

1/16/2013 2 comments

This Week

by my-emotional-massacre 1/16/2013

written by my-emotional-massacre

This week has been a rough patch for me. Monday, I attempted suicide. At this moment I am sitting in a hospital bed. It smells like rubber gloves and the bed isn’t comfortable. The refuse to let me on my tumblr which consists of “too many triggers”. It’s apparently not healthy for me to be on there so often. Fuck that. Second of all, along with my whole suicide attempt, my arm has been revealed to my mom. My relapses over the past months are being thrown into her face. The cuts and raised scars I’ve hidden for so long are out in the open […]

1/16/2013 21 comments