This week has been a rough patch for me. Monday, I attempted suicide. At this moment I am sitting in a hospital bed. It smells like rubber gloves and the bed isn’t comfortable. The refuse to let me on my tumblr which consists of “too many triggers”. It’s apparently not healthy for me to be on there so often. Fuck that. Second of all, along with my whole suicide attempt, my arm has been revealed to my mom. My relapses over the past months are being thrown into her face. The cuts and raised scars I’ve hidden for so long are out in the open and I don’t feel comfortable letting them breathe like that. They’re always under a long sleeve. I don’t want to miss school because everyone will start a new set of rumors about me. I’m scared and I need someone to talk to since my family sees me as a shame. These paper dixie cups and constant medication is really getting old. I want a distraction.
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I don’t think your a shame we can talk if you want.
Same here. I understand what it feels like to be shuned by family.
I’d love to talk. I could really use it right now.
Yeah, none of my family members understand what it’s like to be suicidal.
No one can under stand what it means to feel suicidal till they have felt it them selves. I understand your need to talk to someone too. I want to tell just ONE of my friends so bad but i can’t. Because if I do they will freak out and tell someone.
I cant talk about my problems or my parents will send me to a delequent camp.
I know! My best friend would freak if she knew all this about me. I’m not even sure of what she would say to me about me, she’s an awesome person but I feel scared of her reaction. I’m scared it will be the reaction I DON’T want.
My mom needs perfection, I’m obviously not perfection so she’s chosen to knock me out of her hope. I’m a torn up back in the wind she finds no use in chasing..
Yeah it is scary to think about. That just saying how we feel might cost us one of the few good things we have. At least we can all talk to each other as cliche as that sounds.
I understand.
ehh not too cliche but definitely true. She’s the one person who I know truly sticks around and I don’t want to lose that.
Well I’m glad someone understands
Email me sometime at tatedugan67@gmail.com
Yeah I am actually planing on telling someone this weekend. I am fairly confident that she won’t tell anyone because she has been suicidal in the past.
That’s awesome! I’m glad you found a good person to approach!
Thanks me too. I feel like just saying it all to someone will help even if it’s just for a bit.
Personally I think it would be AWESOME to be able to speak what’s going on rather than to just type it on here. I want to be able to hear my problems slide off my shoulders. As soon as I get the guts to tell someone, I won’t hesitate to do so.
Well I hope you can find someone in your life to tell.
Thanks. Me too, I hope everything goes okay with you telling whomever you’re talking to about it.
I will let ya know how it goes either way thx.
Alright, sounds like a deal