The unthinkable has happened, my worst fears have been realised and I can barley believe it . I have entered a deep pit of which there is no way out,  I guess I knew it was only a matter of time, but still I was unprepared for this. I have no idea how this happened to me, I used to be so happy, so full of hope, an A* student and athlete with the world at my feet, but my world has come crashing down. I know I will never smile again, never stop thinking about it, never have a brief moment of forgetting whats happening. Every waking moment […]
I cant believe you were not there today, you are my life, you are the only reason I get up in a morning, I dont give a shit about my self, I don’t care if i succeed or fail in life, I dont care about friends, or having a boyfriend, getting dressed up or having fun, I just want to see your face again, I have waited months for today, it was the only thing that has kept me going.  You are so so loved, and you will never know. You are the only person who can save me. I love you.
I know no one cares and no one wants to read this, but I want to tell the truth about myself.  I am a complete joke, I am desperately in love with someone, they mean the world to me, I would happily die for them, but I will never get to be with them, even if I only see a glimpse of their face, it has made my whole week, I would do anything just to say hello and for them to acknowledge me. Because I know I will never be with them, I have made it the sole purpose of my life to make extraordinary achievements,  so that maybe one day they […]