What is the point of life if your just gonna be lonely all the time and everything feels empty. If you try so hard to be happy but your just unable to do so. What’s the point of life if your just gonna be judged forever by people. If you can’t keep a friend because of something you done you regret doing. If true love is impossible to find. What’s the point of death if you die lonely, what’s the guarantee that death will bring us happiness and love. What’s the point of living if you have no talents, you can’t help people because you […]
Nihilism00
Blank stares within the rain, if only you endured my pain. You shall know how much i love you. Despite my feelings of blue.
The prison of mirrors… we can’t see,
Yet trapped we are… by its reflection,
It sees all fear and watches our downfall,
It will rip all lies and pride from the soul.
You are all… all that you hate,
Force fed memories, suffer humiliation,
Victim of darkness, of the inner hidden kind,
I am the eye within the gleam,
Shatter before a mirror that stares into (a shallow soul).
Poison yourself… revel in waste,
Poison yourself, in the name of evil… destroy yourself.
I will always be the reason to hate your self,
Mirrors… will oppress your mind,
And follow all… all that you hide,
Blind, step inside […]
Anna my friend i certanitly hope you are ok. Please do not go through what you said you were gonna do PLEASE i beg of you. Im worried about you,      Â
I cant help ur lonliness but im always availiable. if u dnt want to talk just give me a sign ur ok. Please. Im not sleepn til i get some sign your ok.
Brandon(Nihilism00)
Nothing is what i feel, Nothing is what i am. Lost in fear forever. Fear of the future, fear of aging, fear of even dieing. Lost in my conscience, which is an impenetrable prison. I have no suicidal thoughts now nor happy thoughts, just sadness, sometimes today i even broke into silent tears in school, i could not help myself. As i watch the terrible things that happen in the world i immediatly think “What if that me” What if i got murdered, what if i was a victim of an earthquake, What if i got an inccurable disease. Everything is just so strange, life […]
A cold apparition walks through dead trees.
Seeking a prevalent comfort in the freezing breeze.
Unable to answer how he got here, question his existence.
He recognizes the dreaded solitude through silence.
As he is free from the chains that bounded him through life.
But all the while, love is all he wanted.
And now as a lonely apparition, he will never experiance it.
Life?
This is my last post today. It really suck that i never know the right thing to say to anyone. Im fucking terrible at communicatition. I can never think what too say on the phone. Terrible at talking with friends. And what makes it worse is i have a fucking stupid voice, i want another.
A question of uttermost importance i ask to those who happen to stumble upon this post. How are we here, why this reality, is there another life after “death”. How do we feel love, why do we have emotions, why does betrayal hurt so much.
Another suckass day more than likely. I had a dream whre i could have died but my dumbass self escaped it, how ironic. Oh well, I dnt even care anymore, i wish i dint have have these cursed emotions. I guesse im made to suffer forever. Fuck Life. I hate the way i look, i hate the way my voice sounds, i hate judge mental people. Im going to start cutting again, the sight of my blood will cure me
i give up. No more playing game i cannot in.
im hear once again  to complain i guess        this life so cruel in its nature is slowly draining me of any will to go on.  All i want is happiness. All i want is to live my life to the fullest, to be me, to not have people constantly make me want to DIE. I WANT TO DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE. I cant even be around my friend and be happy. Dying is alwys on my mind,  whats the use of living if you always feel pain, emotional pain. Im about to just give up on everything.
Good bye to me living the fullest of life. I cnt live like this anymore.  I dont wanttttt tooo beeeee ME
i have came up a conclusion that i am nothing more than dirt to be thrown around. Why does everyone see me a joke, not one person tried to talk to me when i was feeling bad today and when i try to talk they fucking ignore me. And i even cried when i got home because i realize its going to get much worse after high scool. Damn if i could i would have my cut my self right in front of them, ha like they care anyways. Am i really that undesirable.
i look up towards the full moon
how so bright that it shines in the dark night
i really will miss you when i go away soon
you brought happiness to my soul without light
not realy good but an honest attempt at least
life is journey, you know not what to expect. Your cannot choose when or how you are born, you are just thrown in a big strange place, sometimes you can easily find happiness, other times you cannot. Crazy, isnt it. You just have to use the cards your dealt to get through it and find that obscure happiness. Thanx for reading ;] good day to you  and yes i kno it sucks.