My ex husband left me back in September. Today would have been 9 years. I can’t do this anymore. It has been nine months since he walked out and I still hate everything. I can’t even get my self going enough to take a shower most days. I will go 3-4 days without one. I am still shopping online for my supplies. I don’t know how much longer I can take this or how much longer I can wait for this to happen. I have a general idea of when I want this to all happen, but I don’t have a definitive date yet. I […]
My ex husband walked out on me because of my severe mental illness that happened 6 years into our 8 year marriage. He left me for being sick. For trying to get help. I has to leave my son for a month to try and get help. I thought I was doing good and so was our marriage for the month before he left. I wasn’t cutting and I was happy and didn’t want to die. He walked out on us.
Now I’m married again and I don’t feel my husband is attracted to me. He accepts my mental illness because he has it too. My […]
Here I am sick with some sort of infection again. This time my swollen lymph node is in my groin. Usually they are in my neck or at the base of my skull. I’m sure when I see the doctor tomorrow they will do a blood draw and my WBC count will be elevated as always. I am so tired. I feel so sick. I have the runs and my psoriasis is spreading. My hair is falling out more and no one knows what is wrong with me. I am at the end of my rope. I am 31 and shouldn’t have to live a […]
I am sick of not being loved and not loving anyone anymore. I am sick of not being sexually attractive to my husband. I am sick of 23 years of abuse by multiple people. I am sick of my severe mental illness. I am sick of nothing helping. Talking doesn’t help.
Medications don’t help. I am sick of the suicidal and homicidal thoughts. I just want to go away! The only way it can go away is for me to be gone. I can’t stand seeing my ex husband with someone else. I can’t stand that she is pregnant. I hate the fact that I am […]
This is my first post. I recently lost a family member to suicide. My family member used helium. I never knew about this was of suicide out of all my years of searching for a method. I did see that ******** will cause the person not to panic as the helium could. Having a panic disorder this is my only turn off. But both seem very painless. Before discovering this method sole only reason who I never went through with it was because of pain. Now that I have found a painless way to go I have to start saving the money. I want to […]