Hey guys! This… might not really be the best place to ask for relationship advice, but I don’t really know anywhere else to turn.
My boyfriend stopped texting me two days ago (this is REALLY off for us) and came back today. He is “sad” that I didn’t call him, even though he was ignoring me, and I honestly assumed his phone must have been dead. His only explanation was that he is “just bummed.” So I’m assuming he was kinda depressed. He took forever to even say that, he didn’t call me on his work break like usual, yet when I asked him about […]
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When it comes to how you look, how you are perceived, there is no winning.
This world is full of things saying “no body shaming” and full of people on the internet who will attack anyone who shows or says anything discriminating against bigger people. They sure talk a good game, with all this self love stuff. I might almost believe anyone cared, if they actually meant anything at all that they said. I don’t think anyone should be hated on or joked about based on what they look like. And you could probably find other people who say the same thing. Yet when I say […]
Hey guys 🙂 no matter what’s happening, it feels nice to have people left in the world who still understand me, who will still let me rant and cry. I don’t post often, but I’ve been here almost every day for the past few months. Even if you don’t know me, I know all of you, and I relate with your stories and feel your grief and pain. I feel that I should comment, yet I never know the words to say. All I can tell you is that I feel for every one of you.
In my little world, I’ve just spoken to my boyfriend […]
Do you ever feel like the thought of death is what keeps you alive? That you must hold on only to find a more perfect way of ending it all? I certainly do… I have so much to live for. But the thought of death seems to give me more will to live than any of the other things, if that makes any sense at all. Yet I can’t ever see myself going through with it, here in the real world. I fantasize about it all the time. It would be insanely easy to do. There’s a gun cabinet in my parents bedroom. I know […]
I know, a little random for a title. But three days ago I was diagnosed with fructose malabsorption. I’ve been in pain for the last four months, I guess I should be happy for a diagnosis. When I found out I was happy, thinking it would solve all my problems with just a few simple diet changes. I was so wrong. Everything online contradicts itself. It’s frustrating, and I haven’t eaten much the past few days, because at this point I’m scared of all food. I was struggling enough with just the depression, now I have to change all my eating habits and I don’t […]
My great grandfather killed himself on Tuesday. I went through all of the pain already. The funeral is tomorrow, and I have to go. Why must we grieve twice? The shock and pain have started to pass, why do we bring it up all over again? It’s dumb. But I might as well accept it. There’s no getting out of it. He wasnt even related to me. He was my great grandmothers second husband. Yet he loved me and my family as if we were his own. Suicide hurts. This doesn’t stop me from wanting it, but it really does hurt. I hadnt seen him […]
Hi y’all. I actually haven’t been on here in over a year. Life was… Still hard, I was still depressed, but it seemed to be really looking up. I had(have?) an amazing boyfriend, I started having a few new friends (actually only two, and one of my other friends moved away, but still), everything was starting to be okay, even though at times I still wanted to die, I wasent planning on taking my own life anymore. And yet… Here I am again. My boyfriend and I are fighting all the time, my parents have forgotten me again, and the depression has gotten so much […]
Hi… Im new here, this is my first post so far, so I figured that i would share a bit of my story or something idk im really just venting… Im only 13, and im sure that now most of you don’t believe im truly suicidle. But I promise you all, I am. The only reason in still here is because I can’t find a way to kill myself. I don’t want to do a failed attempt and end up suffering. That dosnt sound very fun. I do cut, but extreme suffing and having my parents find out would be really bad, if I mess […]