No one wants to talk to me. I’m so depressed and empty that no one wants anything to do with me anymore. It’s like I’m not even there. I have no friends, only people that use me when it’s convenient for them. I’m just so sad and lonely.
Why am I still here.
Today is the day I planned on killing myself. I’ve been trying to get everything taken care of before hand but I’ve run out of time. I still have some things to do today and one I found out I can’t do until tomorrow. I won’t be able to try again until next friday, when I can drive to the location. So now, I either have to say fuck it and let my family deal with the loose ends or wait another week. I guess I’ve waited this long, another week will be okay. .Sigh.
I am so tired. So tired of being so damn sad all the time. Tired of feeling lonely in a room full of people. Tired of feeling like I’m always on the outside. Tired of life.
The article is below but this is my plan. It says he may have not been completely submerged and was floating face up when they found him, an hour later. I was planning to jump backwards and figured I would just drown if I didn’t die on impact but now maybe I’ll go bellyfirst. I really don’t want to survive this.
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MACKINAC CITY (WWJ) – While the who’s who of Michigan politics
were hobnobbing on Mackinac Island Wednesday, the Coast Guard was busy making a dramatic rescue.
A man remained hospitalized on Thursday after a jump off the Mackinac Bridge.
Lt. […]
I told my husband I am going to kill myself. I told him my plan. He said if I really want to there’s nothing he can do to stop me. So there you have it.
I see myself driving to the bridge. I see myself popping some pills and driving. it’s the middle of the night and its pitch black outside. I reach the halfway point in the bridge, I slow down and pull over. I have my backpack neatly prepared on the passenger seat. I leave it there to be found. Inside is my cell phone and my journals. its so clear and I am calm. I exit my car and head to the rail. I climb over take one last breath and fall backwards into the water. These thoughts make me feel free. The urge is getting stronger […]
My original plan was to jump off the golden gate bridge. However, it’s on the other side of the country and will be a year or longer until I can get out there. Now I’m contemplating the mackinac bridge. It doesn’t have a pedestrian walkway, so that poses an issue. I could just drive halfway, ditch the car and jump. This bridge is much closer to me. 4-5 hours I think. I could go anytime. The downfall is I wanted to see California but if the outcome of either place is the same (death) then I guess it doesn’t really make a difference does it? […]
I will spare you my sob story. Here’s what you need to know. I am 23, married and a stay at home mom to a 4 year old little girl. I have been depressed since I was a child. I have times where I am okay but I always end up feeling depressed more often than not. I first considered suicide around 13 years old but never really had intentions or means to do so. In my family mental disorders are not considered medical and I would be told to just get over it.
Now, present day I am more depressed than ever. I think […]