3 o clock in the mourning,about to fall completely sleep when the shadow of a man walks through my bedroom,he walks and walks for minutes,a big shadow,scary as shit,dont talks or makes any noises,just walks for minutes.I am too scare to shout,my body is completely paralized,as if the venom of the black spider dances through my blood,what if that spectral shadow is evil,i watch it for minutes just walkin,paranoid like if he is waiting or searching for someone,then the worst part of the ritual that starts at least one day per moth starts.The entity sits in my bed right beside my feet and starts to […]
Since many years,the world had been control by a group of elite families,their objective?complete control of the world,introduce a fascism way more worse than the past one.thousands of cameras in the cities,,new 2014 chips inserted in kids to ensure their security,television and football to take away the atention from the real problems..The most powerfull families cleaning the path for the arrival of the antichrist,he will come in form of hero,intelectual and you know God.The majority of the people would believe in him,if you dont you would be persecuted and isolated ,they will call you insane.When every single one is […]
I have been taken this anxiety pills that my psychiatrist has give me and they are incredible strong,when i take them my muscles just chills like if they where smoking weed,i feel like in a cloud and i am so relaxed my deppression gets weakest,sometimes i take more than my psy told mecalled it medication abuse,yes who cares.someres i mixed with a bunch of alcohol and its glorious,and sometimes not much but sometimes i brake the pills into my joints and smoke them,directly to the brain,that is just another dimension.
I am feeling bad asking this question,but after 3 years of deep depression and medicaments i just have to ask it.Isnt this world meant to be a gived,GOd had to sacrifice his life to give us?,why i am just tired and would prefer to end it.why are some people so happy and others so low?.Why did God created this feeling,i related to hell.I think i did most of things well,i did many things bad as everyone,but i did many big good things and here i am with depression still,when many evil motherfuckers are happy as hell.i cant understandet,i am losing day to day my faith […]
I dont know why,i enjoy pretty much rain.The sky gets a special colour,theres no many people in the streets,it gives an apocaliptic image,so calm,so relaxing.i love to smoke joints when its raining,the smoke dancing with the water drops while portishead or zero 7 sounding in may mobile.i would love to get naked in the middle of the city and walk through the empty streets with the rain falling.
This fucking black cloud;i think comes from hell and stayes in my head for some days without even asking, is killing me slowly.As slowly and painfull as a snail walks.when this cloud is in my head, my day is over,all i can do is sit in my soffa and watch tv which makes the cloud bigger,But what else can i do?cannot socialise with no one in this mental state,i would punch their faces and beat the crap out of them.when the cloud visits me i change just like dr jeckyl and mr hide i dont know how to spell it,who cares.i hate everybody,every single person,every […]
Kevin Michael “GG” Allin (born Jesus Christ Allin; August 29, 1956 – June 28, 1993) was an American punk rock singer-songwriter, who performed and recorded with many groups during his career. GG Allin is best remembered for his notorious live performances, which often featured transgressive acts, including coprophagia, self-mutilation, and attacking audience members.[1] AllMusic and G4TV’s That’s Tough have called him “the most spectacular degenerate in rock & roll history”[2] and the “toughest rock star in the world”, respectively.
Although more notorious for his stage antics than for his music, he recorded prolifically, not only in the punk rock genre, but also in spoken word, country, […]
For the people who dont know what this is.a ecovillage is a small town in the middle of nature where the people are total self efficient,people grow their own food,build their own houses,have their own educational system.it is the most healthy place in the world,where money is whorthless,you eat healthy food,and you live in paradise with very interesting people.i still have depresion and when i went to one of this places i felt so good physycally and mentally,doing things that helped me a lot like yoga,eating healthy and conviving with ppeople healthy,in pure nature.this ecovillages are all over the world,africa,ausstralia,china etc.i want you to know […]
Sleeping is the things i love the most,hours passes like thunder and the feeling is so peacefull,even if i have nighmares,which i normally have,but its like travelling to a new strange spot where you never know which dream is going to appear. THe worst part is when you wake out,the peacae dissapears instantly,my mouth is full of shit saliva,and my anxiety breaks into my body again mainly im the mournings.i pass from been in a paradise beach full of white sand and strange beautifull creatures.to damn boredom reality.
Year 2073,goverments just ruined the earth out,power and money where demons, everybody knew but everybody wanted and this is what those fucking stupid pieces of paper have done.The people are in war with the goverment which is surrounded by some military and pólice forces.Money still have value,but just a tiny mayority has it,i havent seen a damn dollar in some months.Now the people of the sun as i call them,the normal,good people are organized in small guerillas of about 30 people.We may not have money but we have something better,we are still humans,we care of each other while those bitches in the top dont have […]
School was the worst time of my life with constant bullying.i had so much anxiety that i felt i was dying from inside.diagnostic with cronic depresion because i have it sinve 15 i am 18 and iam still depressed.my parents didnt understamd through what i was passing.i had so much amxiety i waked up and puke .everything i eat i puke it.i was white as milk.dying slowly.when i could make it in my school for so much bullying i changed.but in my new school i was so depressed and sow low.i didnt make any friends.and when i did they where skinheads.they introduce thos ideas that […]
Have any of you seen this crazy,awesome cartoons.i am 18 and i am a ig fan of them.(maybe because i am a pothead)they are so crazy,abd hace so many subliminal messages.my favourite cartoon is ice king,a sociopat which loves to kidnap princess.this cartoons talk a lot about a mistical paralel life.a fourth dimension.its really interestin i realy recomend this cartoons and if you ghave a joint you will crack out.
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1st complete year in muay thai classes and some fights,i had cronic depression since 15 .i love to smoke leaf of poweerd,i smoke aibce was 15 because of my depression.life was shit every day,my depresion was hand to hand by anxiety and that shit was killing me from inside.my psichologist told me to do something i liked,sonething that motivates me to go on and fight forward.but nothing seemed to pull me forward.i started drinking and smoking the green leaf constabtly.i was fucking sick.having dairy antidepressives and my favourite mirtazapine and i loved trankimazin but l quited after aa big puking addiction.then one day at […]
If you could choose to be a character of any cartoon where they ate so stupid and happy and there is only hapiness and laughs whick caracter would you be and why?i would choose to be pops,of current stories because he is fucking crazy and lives in a paralel magic world.who would you be?
I dont understand what passes through the majority of the girls mind,i have to say it,they are just stupid,not all but the majority.The second i just talk to them im just bored to pieces,their conversations are just boring and previsible,they always ask things like how are you doing at highschool,do yo like it,why do you ask me this you dont give a shit about that and they know it!.The 21 century girls,that this society has made are just so fake.Like this days which that girls in class are always with a fucking perfect smile,like saying oooo im such a happy person everytime.The society has influenced […]
welcome to the world kid,you have about 13 years to be happy,to be you,to be like nietzche said a superman,dont care about religión,responsability,education,prejuices,tabus,even sex.in this period you are you in your pure state,not influenced by society.when this period ends your mind starts to change,your feelings are new you will have to go to school,study like a damn nerd,obey the rules.now you are not you anymore,you are influenced by the people that surrounds you,their ideas,their fears.your doors are closing slowly.that pure kid that you where is dying.religion enters your life even if you dont like it at all.you have been raised to be a responsable,calm and […]
as a child i remember life like damn Paradise.now im 18 and have dealing with strong depression since 15 because of bullyng.i got addicted to weed because it calm my anxiety.when you grow up you understand how though is life.i have been dreaming with suicide many times,how i was going to do it and what was going to be the place i go.when im sit in my sofá and put the tv on the fucking tv ads piss me off,everybody is so happy and so fake.the day is too long and also life.i always think of the dogs that liive 12 years.i wish i live […]