About to charcoal my way out of here.. I’ve had enough of my existence… lets this be my final frontier.. I’m done with the voices… thoughts.. memories and dreams of people that I’ll never see again. I’m anxious about it but I won’t let that stop me… I can’t forget why I’m even doing this and have gone out the way to set it up… I obviously have a valid reason and being scared is making me forget why I want to kms.. it won’t stop me this time.. I have nothing to look forward to in the morning day I wake up and I […]
Pained
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It’s so ironic how when what I’m feeling at the exact moment of a plan suicide.. I wander to this site from not being on it for a short while and I see a post that literally describes my emotions and circumstances all at once.. like there’s a different me out there who posted for me…so much alike in our misfortunes.. I’m sorry to the other me… I feel your pain and wish you nothing but peace for you though I understand how it feels to rot inside. Win the lottery and runaway
I hate my fking life… I can’t fathom how I feel. I’m empty in almost every expect. Who tf am I? Who have I been sense I was old enough to realize my surroundings and my personal wellbeing.. Why was all this intended on me? Why do I continue to grasp hope to just lose hope all over again..I cant accept this fate.. I want to die.. I’m ready to do something extremely stupid aka KMS.
I attempted where i configured a ratchet strap around my neck.. with my hoodie up to pad my neck tied in the front. I was confident this would work in the outcome of killing me.. this was my very first true real attempt without coming out with any physical or mental injury’s. I remember pacing in and out the room trying to gain confindence to pull it off because i was getting Anxiety on how dark this all was… pushing forward i was ratcheting to tighten and un ratcheting to losen every time i thought i was about to Lose consciousness and the thought while […]