I’ve done the medications, done the talk therapy, hospitalized – I have 35 years of psych records,so no nothing else is going to change at this point in my life. I thought I needed someone who understands my pain to give me permission to go, but I don’t now I’m at peace with the idea, have the place, time, method, its very well planned this time, I hope I fucking get it right this time, I keep screwing it up (I’m such a failure) This time I have announced it on Facebook -yesterday, told everyone I know that I am ready to go this week. […]