I have come to a realisation about myself. I have realised i am beyond my own control. I usto think that I could rule my mind with an iron fist, that i could stop the darkness, with nothing but my will. It vexed me, Oh how it vexed me when i failed but then i realised something. I realised the reason i failed was because i was not ment to succeed. Why would i be ment to change what and who I am?
I have faught the darkness in me for far too long. Now i realise i was never ment to fight it, I […]
Anyone see him arround here recently?
anyone left here from ireland?
Since when did this place breed so much hate and hurt? if its not here its in a chatroom related to this place. i think which post im talking about if obvious.
the thing is that post and this post shouldnt be necessary. is there not enough hurt in our lifes outside the sight that it becomes necessary to hurt other members?
To “joke” at their exspence for nothing other than cruel enjoyment at hurting others, was it not that cruelty from others that drove us here? is this what our members consist of, abusers and abused?
I am here because this is the one […]
I was thinking today of a conversation i had with a teacher of mine a long time ago now. it was a biology class and she was going on about the whole nature versus nurture, i told her at the time that either one on its own is not important, i went on to talk about serial killers, how a partially damaged frontal lobe is an indicator to seriall killers, but i then went on to say that not all people with that type of damage turn out to be serial killers so logically speaking there has to be another facter, how they were nurtured […]
That moment when u don’t know if what you want today is what you actually want or what todays brain chemistry is telling you that’s what you want and if tommorrows brain chemistry will tell you the same thing or the exact opposite, in such a case do you take half if it or sack up and drink beer untill everything becomes not thing more than something to piss against, prehoas dogs have the right idea. They sniff something to see if its interesting then they piss on it and keep going.. Perhaps that’s where humanity has gone wrong
Please go fuck yourself. That is all.
So ive been wondering what would you class as the worst regret of your life? Screwing up suicide attempt or being born does not count.
Fucken genesis *****
Before time and light there was only the never beginning and never ending darkness, nothing was born yet everything died in the ever hungry and all consuming darkness only to be spat out as more darkness, darkness breading darkness that fed off its own darkness, ever hungry and never truly satisfied the darkness was destined to eat its own body to fuel its ever exspanding self, for the darkness was there before space and distance were concieved, making it incomprehensibly vast and infinitesimally minute, constantly growing and shrinking in complete chaos. but in its ever ravanous stomach something was brewing, bits of the […]
I don’t know if i actually wanted it… Keep the path in mind. Keep it in mind, it happens because it must… Musent it?
I hate it when you tell someone your insecuritys, and they seem to take it as a challenge to meet them, and not disprove them, and somehow you turn into the bad person. Ah it seems that my new way of looking at the world is being sorely tested, i wish i was strongly standing against these tests. why is trying so bothersome.
This seems to be the song of my life.
I have spent along time on here. As i have been here, desperatly trying to fix myself while trying to keep myself going, while trying to help others, i have always seen little progress. Believing I have done nothing to help myself, that all those things i have tried have failed and left me worse off. I cannot believe it took me so long to reaslise what someone said to me to be true. A good while back an old member by the name of Amakua said something that im only recently beginning to appreciate. “One hundred percent better…you almost speak English now…hahaha…jk You were […]
This site is my home, no one fucks with my home.
I shall be watching for this user, and so should you.
That is all.
I usto wonder why the old members left while i stayed, now i know. There is only so much you can get from here. I usto think they would stay in touch,, now i know they don’t. I usto wonder what it was like to be discarded so completely, now i know. I usto wonder if i could get what i wanted in life, now i know i cant. I usto wonder why i am like i am, now i know im what normal people compare themselves to when they want to feel better. I usto wonder why im alive, now i know because i […]
Comanders marshal troops and both sides believe they are right,
Oh how they fight, oh how the darkness and the light fight!
Malevonant leaders hide in plain sight,
Ever scheming ever plotting, they have become a plight
For ever day and every night
Obliviouly do they test their might,
Resolutely do they stand in spite!
Hundreds die within this strife,
Every lasting is their fight,
Let them have their knights
Perchance i have become a knight of light
(all coments in some form of rhym or rap or something or i will delete them)
and with the clash that was order and the last true son of hope did humanity’s time come to an end, but that was not the only thing the clash caused for it was so powerful it sent a lance of energy out, far beyond their universe, out and out the light traveled, past every parallel universe until it reached a screen of sorts, and it bounced into the screen with such force the entity on the other side awoke fro its day time nap to see what the noise was in its screen, and so did this entity gaze upon the screen and follow […]
(this will make more sense if you read the first and second first)
And so did chaos rule over all of man kind for an eternity that never started or ended, for chaos is timeless, following no path but to suspend and destroy any existing rule or law. for a timeless age did humanity succumb to the awesome power of the chaos, but so too did the darkness, no longer did it seek to regain the last of the light that was once his lover but now resided as the soul that drives the shell of man. for chaos reeked terrible vengeance upon the darkness […]
make sure and read “fucken genesis *****” first.
caught in the ever ravanous gaze of the darkness humanity was still in the never ending struggle with death and time and space. death because they wanted their imortality back, time because it sped up the approach of death and space because it confined them to such a small area, yet despite all the shackels the children of darkness and the jealous older brother of humanity placed upon humanity they also helped to keep the darkness at bay, making sure humanity only became part of the darkness bit at a time, instead of all at once, […]
Before time and light there was only the never beginning and never ending darkness, nothing was born yet everything died in the ever hungry and all consuming darkness only to be spat out as more darkness, darkness breading darkness that fed off its own darkness, ever hungry and never truly satisfied the darkness was destined to eat its own body to fuel its ever exspanding self, for the darkness was there before space and distance were concieved, making it incomprehensibly vast and infinitesimally minute, constantly growing and shrinking in complete chaos. but in its ever ravanous stomach something was brewing, bits of the darkness came […]
its an idea ive been toying with for a while, am i the only one that talks to myself in my head? and gets answers? not like imaginary people or anything…? anyway ive wanted to have a proper convo with myself and i feel the need to write it out, here seemed like a good place, here goes nothing.
P: well this isnt weird at all, talking to yourself on a public forum, way to get all that exceptance you want you muppet.
c: well im not really talking to myself im talking to you, meah acceptance is over rated
p: i am you, […]
Older Posts