the pain we all feel is terrible and unfair..
but we all need to know that someone in there..
and even if were all far apart..
we can all feel each other in our hearts
the deepest darkest black we have all felt inside
sometimes the world is a place we despise
but we need to all love and have compassion for each other
cause we have all been through some pain one way or another
we all let it out weather we get high or cut to feel in control
but the power to stop the power to feel good we all behold
the […]
stupid fucking people… stupid fucking world stupid fucking life …once again its time to slash the knife… fuck it.. becuse i see no point in staying alive… but yet i do .. evry fucking day.. i just cant leave.. i just cant get a break.. i wish life could just go away.. but i know it cant happen the easy way… why do i have to have a tommorow when i cant get through today.. the all talk .. and i know what they all say… its all just basically .. that they all hate me… they told me to leave.. they told me to […]
sometimes you ask yourself why?? we do these stupid things when in the end we die.. but were all still alive as we walking down the road to the pathway of life.. and even tho we try.. its never easy … sometimes we get lazy ..its hard to stay busy ..we smoke a little weed and we get a little tipsy.. but its fine we need some fun times.. sometimes its good to do a few lines… but don’t be stupid and keep your mind …. you’ll need it.. this life is hard .. but if you believe you know you’ll go far … and […]
are we half alive when we dream? or do we dream because we are half alive? would life be better if we were in a dream? if we continue as we are when we die.. how do we know some of us arnt already dead? what do we live for? if we have pain and hate and love and death… how can we be happy? tragic things … what makes life all worth it.. if nothing was worth it.. wede all be gone… so obviasly … there is always sompthing worth living for… what if we never felt pain.. even though … life has torn […]
i didnt say i was a straight up g..
im not perfect you can think what you thik of me..
there is knobody i am trying to be ..
i am only my self and myself can see ..
that im looking at the clock and its 4:20
and its time to rip a toke of some nice weed
and its her only escape .. its how she copes..
she has a hard day and she rips another toke
it gives her a smile
a high for a while
a happy feeling you get but in denile
now listen up im on a mission
im gonna fix this situation
you better not be disrepsecting
me cuz i know im […]
ive thaught alot.. like i always do .. honestly.. all the times .. they hurt me.. all those men that took me for advantage.. its not me.. its not my fault.. i may have walked the bridge but i didnt jump.. they pushed me.. they should fall not me.. FUCK THEM .. LYING FUCKING IGNORANT STUPID PERVERTED.. NO GOOD IDIOTS…THEY SHOULD ALL GO TO FUCKING HELL FOR MAKING ME FEEL THIS.. because … i did nothing rong i was just looking for somone to tell me i was beutiful and amazing.. i cant die over them.. i still hav so many years to live .. […]
a dark hole .. falling down ..
i miss the days ..she  was around..
shes still here but the feelings are gone..
a kind of love that didnt last long..
before had no reson no life to hold on..
i has torn apart at the very bottom..
scars that would never be forrgotton..
i hope you know you where my only reson..
my only hope .. only smile to beleve in
and even though.. its true you where taken ..
i hope you know you gave me heven…
your by best friend.. i know you care..
you numbed the pain i could not bare..
only you coud give me laughter..
and .. i know that where not right together..
but […]
today.. i left my facebook open.. my friend was
wondering how much i pade for a pop of extacy ..
my mother read it .. she flipped out..
so  i left home not wanting to go back..
i met up with my boyfriend .. and finally had my relese
i got cocane… but now sompthing dosnt feel right..
drugs are all i hav to live for..
one night one night i had this dream .. the sky was dark and the whole worls was mean mommmy you where there but you went the same ..you had no money and you were insane i remember you spent everything we had on morphine…
you couldn’t pay the rent of a two bedroom so we shared our broken house with a couple of goons .. who sold drugs and where all cracked out they stayed in the living room sleeping on the couch ..
momy mom why rant you eating … im not hungry dear .now goodbye im leaving.. she walked out the door sometimes it […]
i have problems getting to school.. becuse  i cant sleep.. so lastnight i pulled an all nighter becuse my mom wants me at shcool.. to keep myself awake throughout the night i had about 3 redbulls.. 3 rockstars.. and 3 five hour evergy shots.. i was in class and i was dizzy and faint i was going to be sick..i had a breakdown .. i was shaking .. it was so bad my school counceler took me to the hospital.. i felt dead… i have never felt so sick.. i threw up for the longest time.. i told the nurse .. i am done .. […]
sleepless nights.. dark days follow.. broken dreams fade with the sorrow.. why awake…why tommorrow? i had a heart that they wanted to borrow.. they took me away became its owner.. empty all alnone the lonly loner …. dosnt know if she feels how she sould.. and all the words come out written in blood .. the words of goodbye the words of hate … the tears of death.. the tears of too late.. the scars of punishment stay within thy soul… cant feel her numb heart out of the cold.. she feels as if her life was sold .. for a glimpse of happiness .. […]
for about 9 or so years i had lived in a small judgmental town.. i was continuesly bullied.. to the piont where the only friend i had were the plenty of cuts on my arm… i thaught if people felf sorry for me maybe they would be nice.. stupidest mistake i ever made.. it only got worse.. i attempted cuicide and ended up in the hospital.. they all beleaved it was fake.. i went by emo, slut , cocksuking *****, druggie, crazi skitzofranic, and other.. i was suspended tree times of drug use ..and had stoped coming to school.. one day i was put in […]