I know its dumb but no one ever talks about this. as for me i am a religious person somehow and i dont need to mention my religion, but the thing is allll religions viewed suicide as a sin , as someone disobeying and taking away life, and i do understand that so very much but ,, what if one wants to die so so so much . its very sad to see one fighting themselves like this, for me i hate myself more because i want to die then wish to die more, isnt that stupid and pathetic. what is this way of living? […]
it feels gloomy and everyone is sad. you cannot mention being sad anymore cuz everyone wants to die and it sucks way too much. why are we all so sad? and the thing is when someone i care about tells me they want to die i understand them way too much that i cant convince them not to. same with ana my lover and one of my great friends have it and they dont want to recover and i absolutely get them. but they cant stay like this. wheres the magic recipe to fix this broken world.
so i tried because i was so tired and i couldnt care less about anything else, i dont give a fuck weather anyone would be sad or mad, i texted goodbye two friends and wrote the rest letters, one tried to stop me but i told them this is what has to be done. so after cutting many stupid cuts on my stupid leg i looked at my arm and got too weak to cut it open so i opened the pill bottle and ate it all. i was already dizzy from blood loss and fainted on the bathroom floor. a tiny while later i […]
i wish i could die like right now and then id just be alright
im such an ungrateful fuck
I quit my dreaming the moment that I found you
I started dancing just to be around you
Here’s to thinking that it all meant so much more
I kept my mouth shut and opened up the door
I wanted nothing but for this to be the end
For this to never be a tied and empty hand
If all the trouble in my heart would only mend
I lost my dream, I lost my reason all again
It’s not just me for you
I have to look out too
I have to save my life
I need some peace of mind
I am the […]
i hate how empty this all feels. Every time i wait for something to happen thinking it would make me feel better it just doesn’t. i lost feelings. i want to stab myself and die. Such a big shit thing.
how can u convince someone not to die when u yourself cant convince yourself, every time i see a person suffering i just say why can’t we just give up. i want to tell people please don’t die but how how can i?
i realized that every time i get to choose something for my future i never truly care, it’s like somehow i truly believe that i’m not gonna live long to see the future. It sounds so stupid when i try to tell that thought to myself, it keeps haunting me ” just die now now now now ” and that just proves that life is pointless.
loneliness is eating me up
i don’t want to live no more
i have been trying to talk to everyone around me but its no use . i have no future . i finished high school and i wasn’t accepted in any collage and my parents aren’t allowing me to travel . all my friends just started their first semesters and i can’t show how sad i am because i have to be happy for them .
im thinking whats the point of existing when im such a stupid existence . im literally just the most average being to ever exist . i always convinced myself that its too early to die in high school maybe ill get […]
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