This month marked 10 months since my son Daniel took his own life and ripped my soul in two. I advocated on here in my sons name trying to help those in despair with even a little hope and look at me now. I can’t go outside. I hate myself for failing my son. I take 15 different medications every day to help with the symptoms of PTSD, yet the flashbacks remain. I really don’t want to live, yet I fear death. I thought about OD but read it was painful and I cant do pain. Everything in my life has exploded in my face. […]
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Shells
I am sorry that I didn’t tell you “I love you” more. I am sorry that I didn’t push you into conversations about how I could help fix us so that we could have understanding of each other to create a happy life. I wish I hadnt beleived that “He will out grow it” advice from family and freinds. I wish you had trusted that you could come to me and tell me something was bothering you, but it was my fault because our relationship was so in turmoil and I couldnt fix it. Daniel I wish I could bring you back so I could […]