my lifes fucked, i went on a week end camp and i met this guy that i really liked, i’m goin out with him now but 2 days ago i told him i luved him, since then he hasnt spoke to me, its not only this thats fucking my head up but i really like this guy and i dont want to lose him, i’m cuttin agen, my legs, my arms, my belly, and each time i think should i cut deeper and deeper untill i reach something that might end it all, schools a ***** my m8’s think i’m depressing (depressed more like) and […]
grrrrrrrrrrrrrr i’m so pissed off with people i find out something and my first instict is to care, so i do, i care and i care and i fucking care, but it all gets thrown back into my face, i get told to stay out of things, i get told to fuck off and keep my nose out but i do keep my nose out i just compfort and give advise like any normal person would, so if people keep tellin me to go away everytime i care about something i’m not going to care and if people say they need help i’m not going […]
i woke up from a dram this morning about my 2 ex best m8’s, about 50 of us were playing tag and i was it and we were on all these rocks and i went into a cave and i saw my 2 ex best m8’s cuddling together in a corner warching out for who evers it and i went over to them and i taged one of them then she taged the other then she tagged me and then me and my and my ex best friend were having a slaping fight, we used to be really close but then she turned and stabbed […]
whats made me what i am are bullies i hate them they have ruined my life completely but reasently i’v bin realising that i’v bin making harsh coments about people that havent done anything to offend me and i’m scared i might be turning into the people that fucked my life up in the first place
i’m so scared i’ crying for no reason i cried earlier but i dont know why all that happened was my step dad said he wanted to slap me because i was talking to my mum in a way that he didnt like, i used to like him i wanted him to adopt me but he’d jut turning out to be a wanker, i keep dreaming that i’m falling from great hights and i wake up screaming i hear voices in my hed and i’v finally realised nobody exept my family waants me here and nobody in my family understand what i’m going through even […]
i dont have many friends, i have a few friends that i talk to at school but i cant really rely on them, theirs only 2 friend in my life that i can acctually talk to about things and trust they wont tell any one, but i only see one of them at school and the other 1 dont see i just talk to her on msn now and again but thats it and her life is fucked up her step dad kicked her out theirs no room at her mums so she’s staying at her sisters but her sister only lets her stay their if she luks […]
i have loads of secrets like i’v bin bi since i wat 9 (i’m 12 now)
i’v smoked since i was 10
i got raped when i was 6 by my mums drug dealer (apparently she’s off drugs now but i have a feeling she’s still on weed)
my dad made my suck him off every morning untill he left for gud when i was 5
im having a really hard time at school and at home at school i’m getting seriously bullied and i’v been punched twice for nothing at all and i keep getting threatened and i’m just so scared. at home i’m geting underestimated everone thinks i’m so stupid, that i’m no right in the head and to be honest right now i dont think i am. one night i sat with my legs dangling out my window thinking should i jump head first or not but then i thought of my mum and all my family and i didnt want them to go through pain of greef, […]