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Where does fantasy end and reality begin?

by Snow Fox 2/24/2016

written by Snow Fox

Hey all,

Hope everyone has been doing as well as can be, and I was just wondering if I could get some input about my recent thoughts/behaviors.

So as with most users on this site, I have struggled with suicidal thoughts and desires for a long time. Many of us even keep a possible means close by or have it recorded how/where we might get it. But my question is, where does the comfort/ideation of killing yourself turn into reality?

I’m not scared of dying, but at the same time, my mind getting my hopes up and then not having anything happening is also very tiring.

My situation is […]

2/24/2016 7 comments

Just where is the line anymore?

by Snow Fox 12/4/2015

written by Snow Fox

Cause I’m struggling with that right now. I read your stories on SP, and I think of how much I wish I could take your pain and suffering from you. How you all seem like such nice souls, and how you don’t deserve to suffer like you do.

But someone like me… I can’t help if I don’t deserve to kill myself and suffer whatever might come after. I have so much, and although I live alone and only see my family once or twice I year, they help my financially and I don’t have to worry about that too much.

Despite that however… I wish I […]

12/4/2015 7 comments

Any word on Salt?

by Snow Fox 11/18/2015

written by Snow Fox

I know Salt posted a little while ago, and it seemed he was on his way over to the other side. I’m just curious, has anyone who speaks to him more often than I (which is pretty much never), heard anything? I’ve always gained inspiration from him, through my different alias here, and the world have lost a brilliant soul. He was a great man, and if he did finish the journey, I hope he is finally at peace. Thanks guys.

11/18/2015 14 comments

Why always the unwilling?

by Snow Fox 11/13/2015

written by Snow Fox

I just turned on my social media, and saw all the stuff about Paris, and the tragic attacks that are still being resolved.

It really makes me wonder sometimes, why does life always take the life of those who want to live. I mean, I really do feel sorry for the victims and their families, but I can’t help but wonder why when this kind of stuff happens, why does it not seem to affect those who are already suffering and wallowing in death. It just seems that it would save everyone some pain. People like us from having to take the blame and the final […]

11/13/2015 12 comments

Interesting Clip

by Snow Fox 11/12/2015

written by Snow Fox

So I saw this post on my facebook feed a little bit ago, and thought I would share with you all. I haven’t finished watching it, but I can tell from what I’ve seen so far that many of us can relate to it. Hope you guys get something out of this =)

11/12/2015 6 comments

Odd Description of My Mind

by Snow Fox 11/11/2015

written by Snow Fox

This is a little rant, and a bit of a description of how i imagine my mind to be. Sorry if it makes no sense, but it brings me some odd little comfort to see these thoughts exist somewhere outside my own head.

The world drifts by, just outside of my grasp. The soft floating bubbles of nothingness and confusion occlude my vision. I float in the dense waters of death, guided by the far away light of hope and life. Yet as I reach for it and feel it’s warmth, I shrink within myself. Withdraw in fear and uncertainty. Feel the cold tendrils of death tighten […]

11/11/2015 4 comments

No place to return

by Snow Fox 10/30/2015

written by Snow Fox

I don’t expect anyone to actually read this longish post, but I just really wanted to speak to my mind to someone, somewhere…

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how I will know when it’s “time”, and I realized that I have to force myself to walk forward, that there will be no special sign for me. I don’t know if any of you have ever watched fullmetal alchemist, but I’ve been considering the scene where Ed chooses to burn down his him, his memories, the only place he had to return to so that he could not back out of the decision he made.

Although […]

10/30/2015 4 comments