Unwanted

Him: “How the hell am I supposed to help you if you won’t talk to me?”
Me: I don’t want you to help me… I just want you to listen…
Him: “Then talk to me.”
Me: I can’t…
Him: “K. Whatever, talk to me when you actually want to talk. I’m sick of trying to talk to you and ending up feeling like shit.”
Me: Okay… Sorry…

End of conversation.

Nights are the worst.

Nights are when I get to lay there and think. Think about what I have become. What a failure. A disgrace to even be living in this house.

Mom: “What’s wrong?”
Me: *Shrugs shoulders* “Just tired….”
Mom: “Are you sure?”
Me: My eyes […]

You.
Are a monster.
A cold blooded being.
No heart.
No soul.
Lust.
That’s all you need to complete yourself.
Feelings.
Don’t matter.
Don’t mean shit to you.
Trust in you.
That’s what it was.
God, i just wanted to be helped.
I thrust my heart at you.
You decided it was time.
Time to take serious advantage.
Of my naive, needy, childish feelings.
I handed you my heart.
Gave it right to you.
What did you do?
You didn’t just break it.
You used your fingers to puncture it.
You wrapped your hands around it and pulled.
Once ripped in half.
You took my […]

I wish that you could see the things i want to do
I wish that you could hear the things i want to say
Depression they call it
Piercing past the heart, into the soul
Turning your mind, body and spirit black
For people who cut,
You are not a stereotype
We all belong together
Hurting
Numbing
Dulling
Until everything and everyone is gone
The pain i feel, i honestly can’t describe.
Pain beyond belief in my heart
I like to know there are more out there like me… Ones that have had their souls shattered by false hope and broken dreams. I have absolutely […]