I haven’t had bad tendencies or attempted suicide since i was 18 in high school. Now I am 23 and each month the thoughts and urges todo so have steadily grown. Really when my womanly time hits is when it hits an all time high. I have goals in my life and some day i want children. If these feelings keep growing, theres no telling if ill make it to those happy times. I don’t want to go back on medication but that seems like my only option. Nobody understands me and when they say to express myself (tell all my feelings) they look as […]
Just now getting the chance to read your comments and they were very very beneficial to my circumstances, I feel that I need to do it for some reason. I guess to prove a point that just resulted in me throwing up in two of my classes. This website has been a safety net for me since I first found it, even though I just started posting on it. Ive been up here for a while, just lurking in the shadows but it feels like I actuallly have a voice and people take the time to listen to what I have to say. Even though […]
I tried, and it didnt work. Of course it did’t or I would not be typing this right now. The pills rejected out of my body and resulted in me throwing up everytime I felt dizzy. Try #2 soon too come.
I keep bullshitting on the subject, but i think im finally going to go threw with it. After the bell rings to go to the next period, Ill step into the bathroom and take all the pills that I have with me at this moment. This will be my first ever attempt but I cant help but feel guilty about it. I have 3 friends that love and care about me, when theres something wrong with me, they automatically baby me up. I hate it so much because, it feels like a pit in my stomach that I shouldnt do it for their sake. […]
Hey first time posting up here, never had the gutts to make a page. But that all changed today during second block in school. Don’t really no what to write, I guess inspiration needs to strike