Isn’t it dumb to be in this position where you want to get better but you’re too poor to afford a therapist and the method you thought of using to end it is harder to obtain. It’s So much easier to buy a gun and end it or to OD, but not really.
So you’re just stuck dealing with yourself, too poor to get help, too chicken to go out in a painful way.
I’d personally want to try this help I hear offered, but everything requires money. Ha..jokes on me.