When I was 16-17 I started hanging out with bloods, and was heavily into drugs at the time that gave me a bit of social anxiety. This created some mental problems regarding paranoia and anxiety, but I got a lot better over the years. Anyway the last time I saw one of the guys they showed me evidence of the “Illuminati.” Also you need to sacrifice someone close to you in order to get in, I thought it was crazy talk as I was a Christian that turned Atheist around those times. I went back to Korea where my dad lives, and I found out […]
Okay so… I am going to school, I am trying to work out soon and just take better care of myself… Now that I stopped drugs and smoking cigarettes (Switched over to electronic, one of those vape thingys), I feel a lot better about myself.
Well all these things that happened to me, and I don’t really feel comfortable talking to anyone about it. Even though I tell them about it, they wouldn’t believe me anyways, and think I am crazy.
So I heard Constantine wasn’t really Christian but actually a follower of Mithra, it was a secret “Mystery” religion back in the day. Even Christianity was […]
but girls still like me???? I don’t get it at all. Whenever I am in class I just put on my headphones and bob my head and groove, even sing at times. \I also have a bit of social anxiety, yet I don’t know. I don’t get what they see in me.
I used to have times I was socially inept and a total loser, but I grew from all those experiences. I might still have a long way to go… But if you take care of yourself, and keep your mind strong then one day it’ll get better and better…
I am such a weirdo, that […]
Lately I have had insomnia (again). I mean I always liked not sleeping at night, guess I just liked the quiteness and tranquil aspect about it.
Yet too much crazy things are happening in my life. Do you guys ever feel like that? How reality seems stranger than fiction, and not at all how like it used to be when you were a kid. I think I am going insane, or maybe I already am…
I don’t know why crazy things are always happening in my life. It’s more than just a coincidence. Like how my life panned out. It goes all the way to my grandfather, […]
Before I get into all the crazy stuffs, that’s been happening in my life… I felt like I needed to vent a little about love problems.
For some reason I’ve always had girls who were too good for me interested in me. Like these are my dream type of girls and they like me for God knows what reason, I am a really secluded and shy guy though, and I am Korean American.
Yet because of all these crazy things happening in my life that has some to do with religion, I always bottled myself out from the outside world, since I changed starting at 17 or […]
So one night I was just like… it would be pretty cool to find other people who want to die at times, and just hang out for some reason. So I found this site, and decided to join.
I am 24 years old, living in Southern California and going to college… I won’t really go into why I wanted to suicide or other things, because it’s too long, sensitive, and kinda crazy. So I won’t for now… Unless I feel like doing it one night on private.
I really like music so I’ll try to share music with you guys.