It’s been a minute since I posted here. I was seeing a psychologist, which no big surprise, didn’t help. He kept wanting to prescribe anti-depressants I’ve already tried and didn’t help me. He wasn’t familiar with existential depression either. A couple months in my healthcare coverage lapsed so I stopped going to see him, which I was going to do anyway. Just a waste of time. My b-day is coming up in the next week and a half. I’m thinking about killing myself on my b-day. Everyday is filled with depression and existential angst, I hate waking up and being conscious. Nothing about life excites […]
“There is a very popular opinion that choosing life is inherently superior to choosing death. This belief that life is
inherently preferable to death is one of the most widespread superstitions. This bias constitutes one of the most obstinate mythologies of the human species.” – Mitchell Heisman
“We’re animals, and we’re on this hunk of Earth hurdling through space. There’s no meaning to life. There’s no purpose. It’s completely absurd and pointless, and we’re just creatures crawling around trying to have sex, and eat, and have shelter. And the only thing that’s for sure is that we’re going to decay and die, just as our ancestors did, and just as our progeny are going to, and that’s it. Does that sound good? That doesn’t sound too good.” – Jeff Greenberg (Flight From Death – Documentary)
I remember researching this some years ago and recall that even though a nation would honor the criteria for euthanasia, it didn’t hold true for foreigners. Where can one go, for a low-cost, where one doesn’t have to be a national, and be primarily guaranteed death with minimal pain?
So, I already had my initial appointment with my new psychiatrist. He said he was familiar with existential depression but was not too familiar with existential psychotherapy. He asked about all the anti-depressants I’ve tried and I told him I’ve tried them all and I don’t respond except experiencing the horrible side effects. He wrote me a prescription for Remeron, which now I recall I was on before and had extreme fatigue and dizzy spells from so I am not taking the medication.
Today I had my first appointment with the therapist who the psychiatrist wanted me to see for CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) even though […]
Anyone ever tried DMT? I’ve heard many people have had success in treating their depression or PTSD with DMT and other psychedelics. I tried DMT for the first time last night and OMG I’ve never experienced ANYTHING like that before in my life! The experience was so intense and real I came out of it in shock and my body was shaking. You truly cannot explain the experience to somebody, any description does it no justice.
I’ve been seriously depressed and having suicidal thoughts on a daily basis and today was the first day in a long time I didn’t wake up feeling severely depressed. Don’t […]
I suffer from Major Depressive Disorder, Existential Depression, with Suicidal Ideation. I’m from Detroit, MI. My primary full-time job has been working as an EMT for the past 10 years but I am also a DJ/producer. I’ve worked with, and been around some well known artists and I am moderately well known in the DJ community here in […]
Has anyone been fortunate enough to try out this treatment? There have been major clinical studies within the past 3-5 years providing data that shows that low-dose ketamine infusions can either decrease, or entirely alleviate depressive symptoms and suicidal ideation in patients who do not respond to conventional anti-depressant medications.
I’ve suffered from depression since I was a child and am now in my 30s. I’ve seen several therapists and tried every type of anti-depressant medication without relief. I discovered later in my life that a bulk of the type of depression I am ailed by is known as Existential Depression and usually does not respond to medication.
I came across Dr. Ivan Yalom who is an American existential psychiatrist. He wrote a book on Existential Psychotherapy and is currently practicing in San Francisco. I contacted him for help and a referral in Detroit as this is where I live. He was unable to refer me […]