I’ve suffered from depression since I was a child and am now in my 30s. I’ve seen several therapists and tried every type of anti-depressant medication without relief. I discovered later in my life that a bulk of the type of depression I am ailed by is known as Existential Depression and usually does not respond to medication.
I came across Dr. Ivan Yalom who is an American existential psychiatrist. He wrote a book on Existential Psychotherapy and is currently practicing in San Francisco. I contacted him for help and a referral in Detroit as this is where I live. He was unable to refer me to anyone that he knew who practiced existential psychotherapy here and suggested I contact Wayne State University’s psychiatry department. I contacted them and now have an appointment with a psychiatrist there who they state is familiar with this type of depression, yet, I am skeptical.
It’s been weighing more and more on me everyday where I am losing any interest in continuing to live. I self medicate and try to sleep as much as I can. I think about suicide on a daily basis, multiple times a day. I’m sure that if I’m unable to at least decrease the degree of this suffering and pain that I feel all the time I may have to end my life.
Anyone else suffer from existential depression or familiar with it and was able to do anything that helped?