I haven’t updated in a while because things were getting better, but recently I have been having some real issues again. I tried for the last while to keep looking forward and keep going but now even the kindest acts have turned into hurtful things. My good intentions hurt people and when I keep to myself I am constantly pestered by my friends for being antisocial. My parents make me feel like crap constantly like I am not good enough, they are completely against everything i believe in and it bugs me. I really don’t know what to do at this point, I sort of […]
thinking about it
run run run dont look back just run, until you get somewhere. maybe you’ll reach that place where you really feel fine and dandy, maybe not, but atleast you’ll be getting yourself out of this fucking hell hole. just maybe.
Thats what I started writing when i tried to update my facebook status. I really wonder what do i do from here, Im stuck in this loop of feeling fine and then feeling crapy. im fourteen and im stuck.
I really try hard but i end up failing my self and im just so tiered all the time, i dont know what to do, maybe […]
Is it strange to spend most of your time secluding your self in dark rooms, when you long to be with people and you are afraid of the dark. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.
Its strange, you read about people who hurt themselves and want to die and you thing “thats a bunch of bull, no one in the right mind would do that.” As far as I can tell i am in the right mind. I try to act normal and cheerful, and people don’t seem to notice how i’m feeling because thats how i have always hidden it. Some days i let my wall come down a little and people ask me whats wrong, and immediately a cover up and return to my usual, fake self.
Compared to most people i’m nothing, i’m a lier who tells herself […]