I.cant.breathe!

everything is perfect, we’re in love…but then why do I feel so sad still. nothing bad has happened. just good things…but I still feel so damn sad.

why have you left me here chained to the ground?
You’ve flown up with angels and left me to drown.
My strength is like yours, a trick of the eye.
you followed your dreams.
and now you can fly.
I feel you’ve forgotten you’ve left me here, stranded and lost, with an abundance of fear,
afraid of what’s next,
of even more deaths,
of life all in all,
of taking the fall.
These bonds of mortality are something to fear, they’ll keep you pinned till’ your very last year.
My soul kept bound for one single heart.
why did life have to tear us […]

wake up.
and come out from your dream
wake up.
and visit reality.
wake up.
life is meant for living
wake up.
but I am meant for dying.
wake up!
this world shuns all the dreamers.
Wake up!!
There’s nothing for me here.
WAKE UP!!!
up from reality…
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I guess i’ll conform to tough,
but reality is rough.
and to be honest hun,
i’ve almost had enough.
No, stay strong
you’ll make it through.
No, don’t go.
We all love you.
You say so many silly things.
none of which i’ll believe.
No, your diamond in the rough!
you’ll see!
No, I know you can […]

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Bless your soul little one,
for though you fake your strength,
it is but a petty act.
Bless your soul little one,
for you say you could care less,
it is but a lie.
Bless your soul,
thy weakling,
Bless thy soul.
May your demons send you grace
and may your pain in hell be small.
Oh, Bless your soul thy little one.
For though you seem to have guilt,
your act of ignorance is greatly built.
Bless your soul,
Bless your soul.
May the devil send your way a smile,
and may the fires of hell dim.
Oh, bless thy soul,
little one.
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we could run away forever
we could be alone together.
or we could wait forever
we could bear to not see eachother.
but whether, were together
or whether, were apart.
we’ll have a home forever.
in eachother’s hearts

and It’ll be hard to run away,
It’ll be hard to lose everything.
it’ll be hard to forget it all,
it’ll be hard.
and it’ll be good,
when we embrace
it’ll be good,
to see your face,
it’ll be good,
to know one home,
it’ll be good ya’ know.
It’ll be swell,
I swear,
It’s better than hell,
or here.
It’ll be swell,
i’m sure.
It’s gonna be […]

she said all my poems are shit. maybe they are. they probably are…maybe i’ll just stop writing and singing and drawing and painting…cause she says it’s all worth shit.

i want to run away
i just cannot stay
I don’t know what to say.
I just can’t sit and wait.
It has to happen
I swear it does
this is what’s right.
must. spill. blood.
I know you’ll be sad
but my life is bad.
it drove me mad.
I can’t stay sane.
I try to speak
but no one’s listening.
I can’t tell you why.
I can’t say goodbye.
I don’t wanna cry.
I just wanna fly.

So HI.
for the very last time.
hello!
I’m sorry I must go!
bonjour!
You’ll understand I’m sure!
Hola!
You won’t be sad for long!
Hey,
I’m […]

We didn’t think she’d die.
We’d never seen her cry.
We all thought she was fine.
Picture perfect,
Alright.
We didn’t know.
She didn’t show.
She never frowned.
We never expected it.
but she died.
Suicide.
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I hated life
I wanted to go.
ask me why
i don’t know.
I would smile
and laugh.
it was all just an act.
and as a matter of fact.
I didn’t give a crap.
Didn’t care if they cried.
I didn’t give a crap.
I just wanted to die.
Suicide.
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I knew something happened.
I just felt so bad.
And then I got a call,
she […]

So I am weak
so I’m not strong!
so I can’t find,
a way to get along.
So I’m not fine
So I fake my smile!
So I’m not alright.
haven’t been for a while.
So i’m not the best.
So i’m not that good.
So i’m depressed.
So I’ll die like I should.
So I cut and bleed
So I don’t wanna breathe
So, I’m just me…
So…So what…

You tied my noose
and you loaded my gun
you bought me pills
and you pushed me off.
you lit the flame.
re-routed the train
pushed me off the bridge
you did all you did.
You […]

i guess….I guess You’ll leave too…well duh! they always do…but if your gone, so am I…

have fun “finding yourself” i guess, have fun never talking or seeing me again.

bye william. have fun with your life.

i’m at an all time low
and yet i’m still sinking
my whole life
has lost it’s meaning.
staring into darkness.
evading all the light.
the demons have me blinded.
the demons took my sight.
Forever sitting
waiting
praying
Oh, God
won’t you save me.
The devil is taking
everything of me.
he muffles all my screams.
no one can hear me.
I am left fearing.
what will become of me.
the demons took my heart.
the demons took my soul.
chopped them up
and put them in a bowl.
sprinkled on some hate.
and then dash of sad.
and they ate it with pitch […]

your my brother, I want to see you. I want to hear your voice. I want to hug you, I want know you better. I can’t take only being able to read words. I want to be by your side. I want to go to school, and then come home and tell you all about my day. I want you to tell me you enjoy my company. I want to have silly fights over meaningless things. I want to be with you. I want to run away, I want to run to you, you could adopt me, legally make me your sister. Maybe, just […]

i know of a girl
who once upon a time
smiled at world
who was genuinely fine
she shone brighter than the sun
and lit up the night.
she scared away the demons.
and threw away all fright.

I know of a girl.
who was once a saviour.
She rescued all the lost
and helped out the trapped.
She threw out a life raft
to all those drowning
she brought a smile
to the many who were frowning.

But soon all she saw
well it took a toll
it ate at her heart
and crumbled up her soul.
her light was growing weak
and she started to […]

she hears these voices in her head.
telling her she should be dead.
she listens and believes it all
she lets them push her down
she lets em’ make her fall.
she smiles and she doesn’t frown.
she acts like nothings got her down.
but I know.
I know.
the truth.

The hate comes in stampedes
and tramples on her heart.
she just wants to make it through
she just wants to somehow survive.
she shines all the light shes got.
tries to overcome the dark.
but she can’t seem to beat it.
no she can’t seem to free herself.
And she acts like nothings going […]