Yikrens

All it was meant painless.

but I obsessed myself believing it is actual death.

by living I find myself mysterious always more done to finish. I’m aware that i could develope asperger.

slowy the end is announcing but I keep having fears. Yes, this is paranoid.

i must be schizophrenic. things get lost. I lose my cool by living.

lost it but now I’m here just with another. I feel human.

but painless became hedonism. I’m egotistical, I lose friends. Must be a sociopath.

unbelievable

i spend 2 years following an dangerous free time habit just to come over that I am keen on making the last moment of life instead pure suicide.

Suicide. That came over my tongue many times since I’ve been 17. what are 6 years.

My situation is the same. Nothing really changed but I’m assured to be in jail. Being fooled over an stolen bike. Running after an attack of medicine.

That about medicine, I wouldn’t had done it under normal circumstances. I needed that experience. It once caused me to have an trauma.

Will I hit the ground on my feet or will it make me die without […]

I really don’t like it. The progress in getting to know much Substances I’ve reached a kinda weird point.

First off, all the Dealer delivers me is something else but still potent. It is not the first try to get me addicted to something. A bit hilliarious that by this huge Methamphetamine and some MDA plus 2C-B I’m now without sleep the 3rd Day.

Why do I follow this?

Look, as I want truly with no Imaginary or Religious PoV of what will show when you’re gone. I don’t really am Interested into.

Anything I can take will make me weaker, lighter and more fragile.

But I am not brave […]

Only Fresh Propofol ist Painless. I would had died by approximately 4 – 6 ml.

My Circulatory System went down, unable to Power me on the Feet. The Night was a Nightmare in which I vomitted Blood at 4am guiding me to Call the Emergency Ambulance Service.

The Fools saw the Blood in my Room, but we’re clear and open treating it to just don’t mind. In the Hospital I made it: I scratched together the litte Power left and spitted out Dark Mass of Blood almost in a Length of a Fish! -> I made it to the Intensive Care Unit.

I had a temporary Kidney Failure […]

suicide is not an opportunity for jail, but I want to have it condemned and enacted counter the fear of rampages and white cards for initial crime.

do you see a way to have that hideout in your future career secured by an insurance?

is there anyone else stuck between jurisdiction, rule of law and suicide?

If your influence is beyond your lifetime, leave it. Because you must be so lonely that nobody is going to miss it…

Up to 3 Dream a Night.

Familiar Faces.

Emotion but no Feelings.

Different Styles of Visuals.

Time is shifting Nature.

Skills beyond Wakefulness.

Ability to remember – also photographically.

An Effect after Waking up.

Causing Déjà-vu in later Life.

Hardly to Ignore.

Terrific Nightmares ( I find Joy in)

childhood myth
childhood trauma
familiar problems as child
over average learning curve
lose of interest
break of hope
suicide ideation
complicated relationship
suicide attempt #1
suicide attempt #2
acausal commiseration
2-lined personality
very far social network
psychosis
suicide assumption
breakdown of social life
runaway
theft of data
train power line electrocution
autism
police incident with loss of will for living, skills and unrecoverable state of development, quest or right
emigration with challenge to kill me and for gaining sanity in an unknown environment
admitted terroristic tendencies
death of family member
runaway #2
runaway #3
no labor fitness/field
self-harm with drugs
suicide attempt #3
retirement

i may write as if I can do everything.

but others have their priorities. I don’t want to try again to get my access of illicit stuff, because it is always super to refer on experiences in an associable field.

and they said their projects. but there was no urge or type of contracting me to explore.

also can’t I help if I occupied knowledge about or feel like that is not in my freedom.

I refer this when I get known of former who also has the suicide project without the most valuable knowledge.

like as tied to a lobby of which the reality really dies little for those […]

Lose everything like you got some.
To be allowed to make losses that had been abandoned with an lasting spell.
To have the attributes to

earlier occupied number

066306086190
06764182254
068110618344

A way to get a message back here to know who died.

I can’t do mine just. The Drugs are almost under political control.

I have my own Mistakes that I do not advice.

Binge Eating
Drug Abuse (Tobacco)
Inner Aggression
Public Transport Trip’s
No-Decision making
Unfutile research documentation
Suddenly stopping global development
Uses to leave possible takeworthy desires unfollowed properly
Legal Affairs

I feel to break at some point. To make Gang and Group, Politic and Industry, Law and Order beside everything else I do.

I don’t like to sell Medicine, I give them for free. I don’t split my Drugs. I don’t destroy things.

I can’t waste money because I can’t stop thinking for any product I buy.

No Invitations for a Dinner or Booze as I see the drown downward.

People don’t give me Drugs anymore in Quality and Quantity […]

Am I the only one to suffer repression by state in act and law?

How?

I don’t need a Therapy, I need a Course with a length of a Year, new Skills to learn and some Partner.

I lost any Real Chance for this very Year. Next year is the very last Year I could find such a Thing.

This thing on my Hand is a miracle for itself. It is likely a Week old and does not revert to Common. So I’ll get under a Operation.

Edit: I got my operation. The hand […]

My mother said I was driving my Bike and feel. All my knees bleed. I bought some Pizza and Pork.

I remember an accident, but it is alike a general memory. I bought some Pork but it was like a week ago.

And why are my Hands swollen? I’ll take some more if my Doc is prescribing this. I need this to clear out, I study this stuff damn again!

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Edit: I’m still unaware how to treat that phenomenon. I was so secure that I’m immune of Memory Loss/Sleepwalking. I wait that they (Parents) show me the Bill of what I bought. If not, I’ll need to turn […]