Sometimes I’ll get depressed simply over the fact that I will die. everyone will die and our existence will dissappear. then I try to tell myself as others have before its not the end. but the journey through life that matters (the little things too) but the idea realise. I’m not enjoying this journey. I have never appreciated it either. so what do I do?
ZombieGirl
Why do people/ does this person want to ‘help’ when they find out im depressed (lol but never before)
I live with my parents unemployed, haven’t had the motivation to do anything for a while but still want to be an artist (also my mother’s an artist) and one of her customers who’s become her friend online even though she lives in america and we live in the UK (also she’s Christian, I’m atheist) wants to send me money to ‘help me start my own bussiness’ . I don’t know her, I’ve never talked to her, but according to my mother since she has no children and she’s been talking about me, she feels close to me. This makes absolutely no sense to me, […]
Anyone else feel depressed when their birthday comes?
Mine’s tomorrow, and I know I should feel happy, like “yay me!” I know I’ll have cake and people are already sending me birthday wishes, but none of that matters to me, I just feel empty. I can’t help but think, oh great a whole day dedicated to reminding me I’ve wasted 21 years of my life, yay!
When I made my last attempt, I messaged an old friend from college, didn’t tell them what was going on, but freaked her out a bit, told her I was drunk, didn’t message back. My mother talked to her today and told her what happened, gave her my number, also she said another old friend I had in college who i was closer too, had been asking about me, and is going to give him my number too (possibly). I did not expect this, I’m not sure how to feel about this, right now I’m somewhere between not feeling anything, and feeling anxious cause i […]
When I was a child, I used to believe in wishes and ‘all your dreams come true’. One time, in primary school, my best friend was singing in a mini talent show, and I crossed my fingers wishing that she would win, and she did, another time we had to watch a boring documentary or something and I crossed my fingers wishing the tv would break, I honestly used to believe that wanting and wishing hard enough caused those things to happen.
Then as I got older, my belief shifted to ‘the power of prayer’ and miracles, always believing things would ‘get better’ for both the […]
People say the internet is expanding by the second, and if the possibility of intelligent aliens/ distant life forms are real, I wonder, if they would find this website? Or maybe future generations, after our era of the internet is forgotten, they’ll be dug up from the void of space and used to research our history? I wonder if these posts will be lost completely from all possible physical reference and memory? What would they think in ‘the future’? Or a galaxy far far away?
I just realised the closest thing I have to friends are cats, fuck….it’s ok, I never wanted a normal happy life anyway , not that there’s anything wrong with cats, obviously I love mine,( well except the fact I’m allergic to them, again “fuck, the only ‘friends’ I have I’m allergic too”) and there’s my parents well, mother and step-father who I’m stuck with, and their stuck with me, woopey! It’s fun to be lonely!
I don’t know why, I feel like I want to share, to ‘let soemthing out’, comment on my situation maybe, or others, the world’s? Ask for help? I feel like I want to reach out, then, I draw a blank, whether it’s here or in real life, I go cold, numb, empty but confused and saddened at the same time, anyone else feel like this?
Next time someone asks me something like: “what does depression look like?” I’ll get my phone out, tell them a funny joke, then when they smile or laugh, I’d take a picture of them, show them the picture, point at it and say “this is what it looks like”
So anyone got any really funny jokes? (cause i dont ‘shrug’)
Even more specifically south Wales?
I know this is kinda random, and selfishly curious (in a weird way) I guess I’m just trying to ‘re-assure’ myself that I’m not ‘alone’ in feeling depressed in this country.kinda, whatever, it’s if you feel like sharing too I guess.
So for those of you who don’t know, or were ‘experiencing’ my live chat the night before, I took an overdose, I’m just going to explain what happened to get it off my chest and what I’ll be doing next so no one here will have to worry about me.
My mother found me yesterday morning, I fell asleep, she broke the door in and took me up the hospital, I had several blood tests, and scans, at first I was just upset and crying, then they started to kick in, I threw up several times, not really pain, just weird, I shook, felt weak and […]
Sorry if I worried anyone. I’ll be doing a postime about it sometime this week. lucky me. I happen to be the one out of a random large number of peoplease who would be able to survive a lethal amount of an overdose. been like shit. but I’m OK. thanks for those who stayed up chatting with me last night
Ha, I lied before, This is my last post, unless i get delirious with enough effort
I took the tablets, it’s night, I had to dissolve or chew most, I dunno if that speeds up the process. It’s night, my parents are asleep, I can see the stars from my window, my cat is sleeping on the bed next to me, I’ve even chained the door, in case, how long will it take? I’m gonna lie down, headphones at ibn I’ll listen to my favourite music. I wonder if my parents will get to work beovr rim found, huh anyways I guess this is me reaching out for one final conversatio