The effects of suicide on family and friends.
i found this site about a year ago and wrote about how my life was fucked up and whatever. never did come back to see what anyone had to say since my shit supposedly started to get better. but now here I am a year later and i look at what i was freaking out about last year and god I wish my life was there now. not even 2 weeks after writing that I ended up getting pregnant again. my fiance and I were fixing things i guess and after waiting 2 weeks I told him i was pregnant and that i would be […]
Hey guys. I need some advices here. I know at the end it’s totally up to me but I don’t know, maybe you could help.
I’ve been feeling very very down the last 3 weeks. I was really giving up about life. I did post something about this not long ago. Somehow, yesterday, I found the strengh to tell a friend that I needed to talk. We talked a little bit by text message and I asked if she could find time to meet in real person to talk. And she said yes. Seriously, I know Im not lucid now ’cause I’m hurt and it was […]
I drank the last sip of wine, and set the bottle down. My medicine was failing me, my loved ones had failed me, and lastly, I had failed myself. Tonight was the night, I told myself. I had no desire to stick around any longer. I had only caused myself misery, and made everyone else’s lives complete shit. I was a heavy weight on everyone’s shoulders, a boulder, weighing down until I was dropped so suddenly to the ground. I looked at the fireplace and closed my eyes. I could hear yelling and screaming inside my head, visions of violence played out over and over […]
Chris.  My email is cdgibson875 at  gmail…
If anyone needs someone to talk to, anyone at all… Â I want to help.
I truly love my parents but everything my life has become makes me realize im such a bad investment for them and nothing but a disappointment to them.. it makes me hate myself that im still alive and I would rather die than continue to disappoint them.. I don’t know just figure that dying would save them so much disappointment later on. I mean isn’t it better to just die than keep giving them failures..?
Here I am; haven’t been able to catch sleep all night and into the early hours of the morn. I lay in my bed staring into the dark, holding myself back from taking all this pain away. My boyfriend and parents are asleep, so I need not bother them with my emotions as of now… but I need an outlet, so, I bring you all (who are willing to listen) a (rather long) story.
Why am I really writing this, besides as an outlet? Well… let’s just say this is the reasoning behind why I will never, ever end my life (I hope). I hope some will […]
My mom after/still on drugs
My father, at home for once, but asleep anyway…
I’ve been wondering how long I’ve really missed the love and care from my family. None of my family cares anymore. I don’t know why, but I just miss the hugs and alone time with my mom and dad. […]
I just wanna say that this website has helped me stay around this long and was a great place to let myself out. That being said, it seemed fitting that my last post be my suicide note. So here it is. Goodbye.
To Whom It May Concern…
If you are reading this than I am dead. This may come as a shock to most who know me. If you want to know why, it’s basically because I hate myself. I’ve actually vomited because I hate myself so much. I loathe myself. I’m tired of being mediocore. I’m tired of being a failure to everyone around me. […]
I’ve been told I am a failure for a good portion of my life. I feel that it is true as I hit rock bottom.
Yes, my problems don’t come close to those who live on the streets or can’t eat on a daily basis yet does that compromise the fact that I am living in a hell of an environment.
I don’t deserve to live.
Every attempt I have made towards bettering myself and those around me have been pointless.
I am met with constant setbacks and hurdles, yet I know that life is not easy.
Well if life is that difficult why continue living it? Why continue living […]
I know it’s not about making other people happy. I know you have to try to make yourself happy, but maybe that’s the only way you are. I guess I don’t really know. I’m happy when my friends are happy, I’m sad when they are sad. I’ve never really had a connection to the people I’ve loved. And when I do, it’s hard for me to let them go.
The best thing I can do for them, is to let them go. I’m gone. bye_bye…
“If we refuse assent to reality: if we rebel against the nature of things and choose to think that what we at the moment want is the centre of the universe to which everything else ought to accommodate itself, the first effect on us will be that the whole universe will seem to be filled with an inexplicable hostility. We shall begin to feel that everything has a down on us, and that, being so badly treated, we have a just grievance against things in general. That is the knowledge of good and evil and the fall into illusion. If we cherish and fondle that […]
So i have devised a couple of plans, but never gone through with them. However this one occasion I did it on the spur of the moment. I had already got the worst possible results I could have imagined and as soon as I told my dad who had spent a fair amount on my education I knew how disappointed he was. He took me to the army office and decided that I should enroll. I still tried to keep myself together even though I could feel myself crumbling inside already having broken down once in front of my tutor that day. I couldn’t figure […]
well. imma try my best to help you as much as i can and i hope im able to get through to you.
So.. i used to in your shoes. its either not eating trying to kill yourself or cutting. and i did all 3. there might be more but im not aware of them really. anyways . you are most likely not wanting to live an the moment right now. and i completely understand. but tell your self everyday that you are beautiful and special and perfect in someones eyes. write your self notes in the bath room or on […]
you are put in situations which absolutely mess with your mind and there’s nothing you can do. even though friends and family try and say all these things like its just a setback or do some exercise or move on etc etc.. the clichés…
I do feel that these things apply to people who are just temporarily sad or have hope. people who are beyond that point and want the sweet release of death are not motivated by this sort of stuff.. I truly feel that people don’t get it and they don’t understand. it is easy to comment from outside of the looking glass. I […]
I’ve been pondering this for over a year, Â I told myself that if life didn’t get better by the new years came, I’m killing myself. I’ve got no reason to live, I’ve got no motivation to do anything more than stay at home, at school I’m failing every single one of my classes, I’ve got no friends, my family is gone, my teachers hate me, people in school hate me, and I hate myself. Today was it, someone useless like me is better dead anyways, I don’t even know anyone who could possible care about this suicide not.
So tonight, I’m gonna drink all the pills […]
I can’t sleep, I just breathe, I am afraid of nights, That’s when they come around, I don’t want them in, I want them to leave, and it hurts like hell, it hurts like hell…
My eleven year relationship ended 15 months ago and in an effort to find new people to connect with, I joined a social networking site. Â I made friends and had a pretty decent support network for well over a year, but in December I deleted my profile from Google Plus. Â I had been seeing more and more of my friends posting about their happy relationships and the wonderful parts of their lives… and I was starting to hate them for it. Â Watching others enjoy their lives while mine was so miserable seemed to be self-torture. Â My posts were steadily getting darker and darker and fewer […]
You know what makes me feel better sometimes when I’m feeling down?
Reading a true story about someone who is up shit creek farther than me. Â At least I have a paddle.
Adrift is a great true story about Mr Callahan, who was trapped on a rubber ducky life raft in the ocean for 76 days. Â Here is a link to the eBook download (mods, I believe the author made the book public domain at one time)
Callahan_Steven-Adrift.epub:
http://easyfilesharing.info/file/1550/callahan-steven-adrift.epub
Here is a link to the authors website. Â He worked on […]
So here it goes. I live in Canada, I wasn’t born here but I came here when I was 15. My first friend was this girl named Ana, we became friends cause we were on the same class and we were from the same country. Ana and me, wow. We had this amazing friendship, at the beginning it was awkward cause tbh I’m an awkward person, I don’t trust in too many people and I’m very selective when it comes to friends, etc. but her, she’s very outgoing and crazy and stuff, everybody loves being with her. I didn’t mind that, I mean, she’s my […]