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The Solution to Self Harm

by TheStranger17 8/5/2014

written by TheStranger17

You know, I am trying to limit myself to one post per day on here, but something is bothering me. Well… not bothering. But I have something to share.
I never used to get self harm – even when I was doing it myself, but I didn’t think it was self harm until about a year ago. I never… understood why people did it. To get away? Because they hate themselves? Boredom? Distractions? I don’t know…I still cannot comprehend why I and others do it, because hurting yourself when you are already hurting is… nonsensical. But we do it anyway. We do it for the […]

8/5/2014 2 comments

enter new life hear take sword forget life for a week

by why i dont no 8/5/2014

written by why i dont no

my littel joke has always been i tick the remember me box when i sine in cos that way at least some one will its a sham that its becomeing more and more true iv just come back from a larp event a place were NO ONE GIVES A SHIT WHO YOU ARE OR WHATS WRONG WITH YOU AS LONG AS YOUR UP FOR FIGHTING RP AND DRINKING AS LONG AS YOUR A NERD OR A GEEK AND AS LONG AS YOUR NOT A DICK UP FOR A LAUGH AT EVREY AVALABUL TIME YOU ARE COOL non of them give a shit about my spelling or […]

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Year Too Long, A Year Gone

by StruggleOn 8/5/2014

written by StruggleOn

It wasn’t until today ’til I realized the full truth of my procrastination and weakness. Another birthday, a year too long I’ve lived. Another birthday, a year I could have rid of myself. And now what, what can I do but be sad on this day.

I dont have have much extended family, but what I do have of them I talk to about once a year. My cousin was a firefighter in Denver for a while. He was in college doing a volunteer program. On a day stroll he spotted a man laying on a park bench, pour gasoline over himself, then lit himself on […]

8/5/2014 5 comments

Moments of weakness

by Lettersofworriespast 8/5/2014

written by Lettersofworriespast

There are times in my life where I don’t feel like the girl I normally am. Normally I feel strong, happy and just filled with life. Other times I feel like I am not even real. I feel as though I’m lost, scared and worthless. I have these times at least two or three times a year. I keep everything that upsets me in a box in the back of my mind and never tell anyone. I always feel as though I’m not allowed to share my sad thoughts with others because I shouldn’t have them and people would tell me to stop complaining because […]

8/5/2014 5 comments

Socializing is so hard

by pinkerton15 8/5/2014

written by pinkerton15

Alright so this is better than spewing shit out on twitter to people who know you, or potential employeers…

Anyways so I just started my new job, but I’ve always had a problem with social environments.

It’s hard for me to interact with people around me, and the work gets so busy. I end up feeling pretty alone sometimes.

Also a lack of social confidence at a work place? It’s no good to say the least. People don’t look at you the same way.

Funny thing is I used to be much better, even though I used to be quiet, I used to be good with girls! My mojo […]

8/5/2014 2 comments

I simply don’t understand

by Tanas 8/5/2014

written by Tanas

How? Just HOW? I just met my sister and she has 2 jobs now. I can’t even do this one job without falling down the suicidal thoughts slope again recently. And it’s not even a job I entirely hate. Plus I am ALREADY on meds.

Just how can people do that. And don’t get me wrong, I am NOT a lazy whiny jerk that has nothing to do but complain. I just don’t understand.

Sometimes… sometimes I think my past and childhood has robbed all my energy. And now I don’t have any left to live.

8/5/2014 3 comments

The Red Flag Question

by TheStranger17 8/5/2014

written by TheStranger17

Alright, I know this isn’t strictly a post about suicide but would someone please enlighten me – why do some people have red flags next to their names on here? Sorry for my ignorance.
Thank you!
TheStranger17

8/5/2014 2 comments

When I’m Alone

by TheStranger17 8/5/2014

written by TheStranger17

Being alone for me, can be good or bad. It’s never really either, there is peace in being alone sometimes, but other times… I’d do anything for someone to be near me.

It’s weird, craving company, for me anyway. I never really was a social kid – I’ve said before I found it difficult to fit in and I was never really bothered about going out too much. But I don’t know, something changed in secondary school; I found myself wanting to be… accepted? Wanted? Included?

I changed my habits I guess – I stopped reading and writing so much fanfiction, stopped holing myself in my room […]

8/5/2014 2 comments

Why I’m here

by unlistedodin 8/5/2014

written by unlistedodin

I’ve tried for a very long to just simply put on a mask and fake it till I make it when it comes to being okay. I don’t have much energy left for it though. I can tell my mask has begun to crack and the will I had to hold on and hold out has been fading much more rapidly that ever before. I don’t have anyone to talk with on any of this nor have I ever. What I hate most about it, is I hardly feel there is even a reason I should feel like this. I just cant find a way […]

8/5/2014 4 comments

even when the room went dark

by girlwiththetrinketbox 8/5/2014

written by girlwiththetrinketbox

“i could hear my heart beating. i could hear everyone’s heart. i could hear the human noise we sat there making. none of us moved. not even when the room went dark.”

i don’t know why i’m here. i can’t quite seem to figure out anything anymore. sometimes i get these little fits — my roommate calls them “funks” — in which i am just unhappy. i am upset. i am sad. i am angry, at you, and me, and the trees, at the world. and i don’t know why. i never know why. a girl is supposed to know herself better than anyone else could […]

8/5/2014 2 comments

I’m a major fuck up and deserve to die

by nojncohere 8/5/2014

written by nojncohere

I like this guy. He broke up with his girlfriend for me and for some other reasons. Their relationship had gone on for roughly 18 months. See just last night I thought, you know I’ll be honest with her, so I told her that I liked him and that I was so sorry. We had a row. I’d just like to point out me and this girl were close. I hate myself. I fucked up a relationship, a friendship and everything happy in my life. I don’t deserve to be happy because this girl loves this guy. But he likes me and I like him.

This […]

8/5/2014 6 comments

The worst of all…

by nozmoking 8/5/2014

written by nozmoking

– is being powerless. We know that nothing will ever change for some of us. We know the pain, whether physical, emotional or spiritual will become worse if nothing else. And here we are without the courage or the means to end what amounts to (at least for me) a useless existence.

Sure, a sea slug has some purpose but it lives without feeling or much thought. It sucks in the tiny organisms that sustain it until it can reproduce and eventually be consumed by something else. But isn’t it content in its purpose? Does it cry itself to sleep knowing the ultimate pain it will […]

8/5/2014 6 comments

I was been trapped twice, I’m real fool

by sivani 8/5/2014

written by sivani

Love makes my life horrific, I’m an Indian, I didn’t get love from my family when I’m younger it’s becaz of my father domination & I couldn’t able to tell to my father anything, I spent my childhood in my grand ma home, after death of my grandfather i came to my father’s home age of 13, upto that time I spent a silent life, after reaching my home suddenly it became violent, so I thought to have a love life but unfortunately I didn’t get that too instead of love i was been cheated twice.

I can’t able to tolerate the pain so long, this […]

8/5/2014 0 comment

Boyfriend killed himself, I just want to be free from pain too

by singe52114 8/5/2014

written by singe52114

My first time on here so please bare w me. I’m 36, was married at 23 to an emotionally abusive man. After many years of medications, therapy, hospitalization, failed suicide attempt, family pissed, lost most friends, finally left him, was happier than I’d ever been in my life….. Was fine being alone…. Friends came back into my life… Wasn’t looking for anything, enjoying new found freedom…. And then, my dearest friend since I was 18 suddenly back in my life, he saw change in me, gave him hope to get out of equally horrible marriage, we grew much closer and evolved into romantic relationship. […]

8/5/2014 4 comments

giving up

by LonleyAphrodite 8/5/2014

written by LonleyAphrodite

I cant do this anymore, I just cant my mom hates me , my aunts, uncles , cousins, friends all think I’m useless. I just wish my dad were alive, he would tell me everything is alright he would tell me he loves me. But hes gone the one person that loved me left me. I have tried getting to him but nothing works. I’ve tried committing suicide at least 4 times all because of my mom and her boyfriend. no I am not looking for attention I just need to get it all out by writing. Tonight’s going to be my 5th attempt wish […]

8/5/2014 9 comments

by pxckll 8/5/2014

written by pxckll

Why do I remember still? Why can’t I forget? And why do they keep reminding me how useless I am???… I just want to escape everything… be happy and free for once… I don’t care if I fall asleep and never wake up again… in fact, I welcome that..

8/5/2014 1 comment

by lostchild445 8/5/2014

written by lostchild445

pues no se porque estoy escribiendo esto. casi cinco anos de depresion y todavia tengo sentimientos oscuros. ya tengo experiencia con “therapy” y mas de dos meses en un hospital…pero nunca de esa me ayudara. pienso que nunca va a ayudarme y es dificil despertar en la manana sabiendo que esta es mi vida ahora.

I don’t know why im writing this. nearly 5 years of depression and still i have dark feelings. ive already had experience with therapy and more than 2 months in a hospital…but none of this helped me. I think that nothing is going to help me and its hard to […]

8/5/2014 0 comment

bon voyage

by passionfruit3 8/4/2014

written by passionfruit3

So im a little afraid of dying which ive told myself is normal so im okay with that.What i cant figure out is why unlike other times i dont feel sad but i do feel suicidal.It bugs me cause i dont feel much of anything when it comes to emotions other than that fear of not knowing whats after this.Im still going through with it but it would be easier if i was feeling some depression along with it or some anger.Maybe i am empty inside i just dont know.My sisters leaving and i may hurt others if i dont stop my life.Im doing it […]

8/4/2014 0 comment

my lame, never ending story

by ichosewrong 8/4/2014

written by ichosewrong

My story is different. I never thought I would end up here, but here I am, struggling with everything. I can’t remember the last time I was happy.

In the spring of 2012, I met my best friend. Let’s call her Anna. She was pregnant and we instantly began doing everything together. My boyfriend and his best friend and me and Anna would do everything together. She had her son in August and everything changed after that. She was always a mild person. Never got into any trouble. From September 2012-June 2013, the four of us got into all kinds of things we shouldn’t have. Drugs, […]

8/4/2014 3 comments

uh

by diplomatic 8/4/2014

written by diplomatic

i dont know how to start this off but i dont know anymore, it feels like my life is falling apart and i cant do anything about it, even though its only summer, im happy about school because im gonna really try super hard this time, in grade 9 i passed most of my classes with 51s

fuck

and i didnt even pass math in summer school but thats not whats making me feel bad, its about the fact that i have no friends anymore and we used to be really close and im sure all of my internet friends hate me too

they shut me out, do you […]

8/4/2014 2 comments

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