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Something Has Shifted Again

by Nathaniel_Morisawa 7/17/2014

written by Nathaniel_Morisawa

Admittedly, I find myself at a strange place now. Before I was so sure about wanting to kill myself. But now–after having thought about my motivations for not just dying, but living as well–I don’t know where I stand. There is still some motivation for wanting to die, that much I can say with certainty. In fact, that motivation is still unconditional just as it has been. However, I’m afraid that somewhere in my subconscious, that motivation stems from something superficial. So I find myself needing to know what that “something,” is and once I do, I can act full-heartedly and decide with a clear head, whether or not I should live.

I’m so close to […]

7/17/2014 4 comments

Suicide or Riot

by LifeafterDeath 7/17/2014

written by LifeafterDeath

Hi guys how we all doing 🙂

learned something quite interesting and i thought i would share it with you all.

Prolonged exposure to suicidal thoughts & feelings creates a biochemical reaction in your brain that changes the very way you think, and we don’t even realise its happening. example if you were like me once filled with powerful empathy and heart shattering emotions but now feel quite distant and empty thats the reason. So make it quick and don’t turn into a zombie is probably the lesson here.

Mindblowing, but not literally unfortunately.

Bye 🙂

7/17/2014 6 comments

i dont want to die.

by wakemanz 7/17/2014

written by wakemanz

i am a junkie, drugs are all i have. my best friend after five years had sex with my gf. i dont want to die. but idk what else to do

7/17/2014 8 comments

Help Me… :'(

by M_Broken 7/17/2014

written by M_Broken

I promise you all that i will be a good girl..
I will sacrifice everything…ice creams chocolates…i wont watch tv or buy fashionable dresses..i wont be rude…
I JUST DON’T WANT TO DIE YET THE PAIN IS KILLING ME FROM INSIDE..
PLEASE FORGIVE ME GOD, IF YOU ARE LISTENING TO ME, FOR EVERY SIN IF I HAVE DONE ANY..PLEASE TAKE AWAY MY PAIN AND GIVE ME MY DREAMS BACK..I DONT NEED ANYTHING JUST WANT TO LIVE MY DREAMS..MY PASSION IS MY DRUG…
GIVE ME A NEW LIFE..PLEASW GOD…PLEASE :'( :'( :'(

7/17/2014 2 comments

Die young

by DeathDreamer 7/17/2014

written by DeathDreamer

Lol. Can’t wait until the day I die…. Maybe I won’t go to a world full of pink ponies but at least I will no longer be on this evil planet. Every time I think I have hope, it goes crashing down into oblivion. I have no future. Die young. I’m sitting here smoking cigarettes, and waiting until I can dip gummy bears in a glass of whiskey. I hate being alone. I can’t stand going to clubs, every time I am in a disco i […]

7/17/2014 15 comments

by LetItGo 7/17/2014

written by LetItGo

had huge fight with sister
anger resurfaced
pain grew
hurt more
insulted
almost pushed down stairs
hit
slapped
punched
shoved around
lots of tears
35 minute call
tears
silent treatment
broken

7/17/2014 3 comments

Bye Forever

by M_Broken 7/17/2014

written by M_Broken

Thatz enough!! I cant take it anymore.
I am suiciding..right now
Bye. :'( :'( :'(

7/17/2014 7 comments

Tired and done entry 1

by tauruswrangler 7/17/2014

written by tauruswrangler

Today I had to see the doctor. He upped my medication. I went about my errands ignoring the everyday,past and future stresses that plague my mind, constant racing to be on work on time, get paid this week, please my loved one and not crash and burn. The bustle on the other hand gives my life substance but I feel a balance will fall askew. My job in sales gives me a certain social interaction I have craved in my life but it has also shown me the harsh truth about human kind and their mindset. People and their brains are easily manipulated and like […]

7/17/2014 1 comment

Random Bar Advice #2

by RealTalk30 7/17/2014

written by RealTalk30

I stopped into a bar the other day for a pint of new castle, on my way home from work of course!
I sat down, not too many folks at the bar..a couple playing pool! Anyways..
I’m sitting there and this (kinda) young dude is sitting there talking it up with the tendie, sounding like he had had a few already. So I’m sitting there just sorta chiming in on conversations going on, sipping my ale… And then me and this young dude get to talking about death and old age.
We both made it plain in our opinions that living past a certain age […]

7/17/2014 40 comments

I Need Someone

by M_Broken 7/17/2014

written by M_Broken

I am 15 and unfortunately a depressed and frustrated girl. I never had a normal life. I had all kinds of bitter experiences uptil now. My life lacks one thing the most ‘LOVE’ …I wish someone special would be there in my life who would magically fix everything up and would love and care for me so much that i wont feel depressed anymore.

7/17/2014 13 comments

Today is the day

by david123 7/17/2014

written by david123

I’m sad to say i know you are the only ones who truly understand.

Today is the day didn’t think i could but yeah i can and will.

7/17/2014 1 comment

It’s not fair.

by Sadnesskills 7/17/2014

written by Sadnesskills

I don’t know why I have to have depression. I don’t think it’s fair that I have to sit up every night crying about not being loved and cared for by people that truly mean so much to me. To be up all night wishing I was better. Nicer. Prettier. Skinnier. Smarter. Funnier. I don’t think it’s fair for me to want to die. I’m not perfect. I’ve messed up more times then I could ever remember. But was really so bad that now I have to live like this for the rest of my life? I’ve been trying everything to become happy. I want […]

7/17/2014 1 comment

No Joy

by euterpe68 7/17/2014

written by euterpe68

Suicide.

A word whispered in our home on and off over the past 30 years. I attempted suicide when I was 17 and almost succeeded. I went on to ‘be normal’ with threats of ECT and other drugs. So I tried to act as ‘normal’ as one possibly could with the childhood I had. I watched my mother be beaten to a bloody pulp, moved so many times I lost count, was molested and have never felt like I ‘belonged’. Eventually I started going to church which helped a lot and the panic attacks subsided and I went on to earn a […]

7/17/2014 0 comment

Depressed by Family Funeral

by seppuku 7/17/2014

written by seppuku

Not depressed coz somebody died. He was old, never knew him well, he was my paternal uncle, he barely cared for his own kids let alone me.

I braved my social anxiety to attend the funeral. I had an idea what it would be like, and I’m not sorry I went. I was dreading being asked what I do etc. That didn’t happen.

No, I was a part of something, accepted and my presence unconditionally valued as I am a family member and this branch of my family are very keen on family.

It was a nice short service at the crematorium, and there was no God stuff, […]

7/17/2014 1 comment

Crazy?

by dani12 7/16/2014

written by dani12

People get upset when things don’t go their way.But I doubt they feel like I do.Call me a drama queen I don’t care.It’s not all the times, for example once in school a girl wouldn’t shut up and I just wanted to get up and punch her.Other times my parents don’t let me go out while other parents let their children go and they come home til the next day.I feel trapped in my house,even in my room I feel like i have no freedom.I feel like jumping out a window or just running away.I can’t relay on Doctors,family, friends no one to help me. […]

7/16/2014 0 comment

A Song for Everyone

by SeasOfBlue 7/16/2014

written by SeasOfBlue

Thought I’d share one of my favorite songs (and artists) with you all. It’s called “Hollow Man”, and it’s by “iamsleepless” (which describes my entire life). Enjoy!

Music quote of the day: “How I wish, how I wish you were here. We’re just two lost souls swimming in a fishbowl, year after year, running over the same old ground, and how we found the same old fears… Wish you were here.” – Pink Floyd, “Wish You Were Here”

7/16/2014 0 comment

MY STORY

by leo 7/16/2014

written by leo

Hi, my name is Ali Haider… i am 15years old…..

My story is abt how i fall in love…..

On 19 march 2011..when i fall in love first time in my whole life….on 19march night the time was 2:27am when i fall in love…i didnt sleep whole night bcoz i was abt her… i never had feelings that i had onthat night….. all the night i was thinking abt her and when i close my isee her and when i open my eyes i amiss her…and suddenly iwas thinking and she came in front of me … when i touched her […]

7/16/2014 0 comment

I am sick and tired to say that i am smilling but in side i am dying

by leo 7/16/2014

written by leo

I am dying inside in my heart ….. i cant live without her…. my every second is going with pain… I really truely love her sooo much -…-

7/16/2014 2 comments

Sorry I didnt call…..

by RuinsOfTheVoid 7/16/2014

written by RuinsOfTheVoid

I have really mixed emotions about coming back to sp.

I battled with depression, suicide, cutting and general shit in my life and I have come close to death many times. I believed that life was never going to get better, that I was going to die a lonely virgin loser and bring shame and hurt to my family. I have stood atop the highest building in my college and peered over the edge and stood there for many painful hours. I have cut deep, and popped pills. I was badly beaten as a child periodically and mentally tortured. I came here and wrote angry posts […]

7/16/2014 7 comments

My sadistic inner voice

by brokenandweary 7/16/2014

written by brokenandweary

Does anyone ever have the feeling that suicide is just a bad day away?

Sometimes it’ll hit at the weirdest moments, like I’ll be re-edging a knife and once it’s sharp enough to shave hair my mind will skip a beat and suddenly I’m imagining what it would be like to just slice open an artery with it. Not the wrists (too cliche, and I feel it would take too long…plus they can cut the bleeding off at the wrists if they find you in time), like the neck or under the armpit somewhere that’ll bleed quick and can’t be undone. It scares the hell out […]

7/16/2014 5 comments

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