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My Anorexia

by LetItGo 4/13/2014

written by LetItGo

I don’t know how to start this
But I feel like I need to get it out there
The words that are stuck in my throat
They need to come out of the darkness
And into this world because if they dont
Im just going to keep bottling it up
I guess I was always okay with what I looked like
Then one day that changed
I got more self conscious of my weight
My hips, my stomach, my waist
All of it I hated because it was never perfect to me
My hips were never wide enough
My stomach was never flat enough
My […]

4/13/2014 4 comments

Well, this isn’t exactly the place, but…

by notwhoiwanttobe 4/13/2014

written by notwhoiwanttobe

I know it sounds odd that I post this on here, but honestly it would help ME if you help my fiancee. His unemployment has been the cause of so much stress and depression in our lives. Please, if you know anyone who is hiring a Senior Network/Systems Administrator within the Houston area, let me know and I will give you contact info…

4/13/2014 0 comment

Awful..

by monsterly 4/13/2014

written by monsterly

I realized I want awful things to happen in my life, so it decipts how bad I feel inside. I want to hide behind an awful event so people think I have a reason to be sad, because people never believe feelings can get so painful, to the point you hurt physically. To the point you want to kill yourself. They need something concrete.
One year ago, my father died, and just a few minutes before I learned he had passed away, I found a small part of myself feeling okay with the prospective of him dying, so I could hide behind that event. Not […]

4/13/2014 0 comment

What makes you happy?

by gabriel 4/13/2014

written by gabriel

I have it so good. Its just most the time I focus on the shitty stuff. Like today I just told myself “why are you deppressed? Even though you have no friends, you just got all A’s this year, and now you can sit on your ass and play video games all week” and I actually felt a little bit better. its a lot like sprinting ahead of the storm cloud above your head, but you know when you get tired it will catch up.

4/13/2014 7 comments

by smileybaby 4/13/2014

written by smileybaby

Is there anyone from NZ on here?:)

4/13/2014 9 comments

I will wake up, once I am truly asleep.

by caillte 4/13/2014

written by caillte

“Imagine you are in the middle of the sea surrounded by hungry sharks,

How do you escape alive?……….

you stop imagining .”

Basically you “wake up”.

I had a free class and the supervisor decided to do these weird riddles, and that was one of them.

( a weird free class I will admit)..

I find myself often wishing that this were the case, that with most hopeless situations, we could just wake up, and before you say it I know that these are the imaginings of a fool. Â I’d like to think that this – my life- is just the ultimate nightmare and that I will wake up at some […]

4/13/2014 0 comment

when we know we are ready for suicide?

by addicted 4/13/2014

written by addicted

Unconsciously, Our intuitiveness will tell us when we ready for something ( walking, drinking alcohol, moving out of parents house , getting married )

similarly, when we know we are ready for suicide?

4/13/2014 3 comments

It’s happening again.

by Lea 4/13/2014

written by Lea

Hi,

I’m thinking ’bout it again, it’s like a dream ’bout dying. You know just to forget everything, the stress is just to much.

I’m sure I will cut again, but still gonna go to school tomorrow.

When I tell someone what is happening to me, they just have those eyes that are cold and painful to watch.

I hate to open up to people.

I so wanna end all of it.

But there is the guilt, what are my family and close friends gonna think and fell?

I just want my blood to flow out of my body, drop after drop.

And maybe the gushing out part is gonna be the best!

I […]

4/13/2014 9 comments

a human life must not wasted on floors of google,ms,ibm,fb,apple….

by addicted 4/13/2014

written by addicted

labors/slaves/employees:

1 Â – Â Â 25 Â study
25 – Â Â * Â Â Â job

Humans: Â Â Â

1 Â Â – Â Â 25 Â Â study
25- Â Â Â * Â own a company/author/travel/donate 1 billion/1 year at ganges…lot more

anything except working for others organization as job doer is called as human life

if you know any human being wasting their life on working for others organization, tell him is a human not slave and also warn him 90% of human race had became slaves just because of people like him

4/13/2014 6 comments

A way to madness through good intentions?

by pesky 4/13/2014

written by pesky

Giving someone false hope is the worst…

4/13/2014 1 comment

darkness

by kristink 4/13/2014

written by kristink

it amazes me how easy it is to fall back into the darkness. one minute i am cruising a long comfortably numb and the next i am making plans to die. i have been crying like someone is turning on a switch. my desire to be alone is strong. from where i am right now i see myself cutting the ties that keep me alive. maybe cutting isn’t the right word. maybe fading away is more accurate. i don’t share the chaos that is going on in my head with anyone. same old shit just different day.Â the paranoia i feel when i am out […]

4/13/2014 1 comment

she’ll be dead by then

by LetItGo 4/13/2014

written by LetItGo

my parents dont understand what ive been through
my sister has made my throat ache because of me yelling at her to leave me alone
she does not listen despite me screaming at her to leave me be
she does not see the pain she has inflicted upon the young girl
she is so oblivious to the girl that crumbles each day until one day
she will be nothing and she will die
people around this young girl are oblivious too
they do not see the bruises that hide under her long sleeves
the red slap marks that she has hidden under concealer
the red […]

4/13/2014 1 comment

better here than out there

by LetItGo 4/13/2014

written by LetItGo

people ask me why i spend my time on the internet
they think that it is quite useless
but to me it is not
because here i feel loved and i feel like i am worth it
out there in the scary real world people hate you
they will find anything to bring you down
but here people love you and care for you
out there its a battlefield with everyone turned on you
shooting you with insults making you bruise so easily
here people heal these things and make them go away
why do i spend my time here
because its better in here […]

4/13/2014 1 comment

why

by RealKris 4/13/2014

written by RealKris

Why am I here

What the fuck am I doing

I hate life

I’m just holding on

Why

What’s the point

Haunted by my own thoughts

kill yourself

They gently whisper

…I may oblige

4/13/2014 3 comments

Why am I here?

by Day 4/13/2014

written by Day

I’ve done nothing to nobody yet I’m somehow the most hated person at my school I want my life to get better but everyone makes it worse I just want everyone to leave alone why can’t people do that WHY I get it I’m a horrible person I’m an asshole I’ve done nothing right in my life but I just want this suffering to end Ive never wanted to die so badly there is no fucking god and if there is he hates me I only want the hurt to stop once just once I want this to go away I’ve tried everything and I […]

4/13/2014 0 comment

nobody likes me

by BIGRICH 4/13/2014

written by BIGRICH

Doesn’t that sound pretty whiney/pothetic,but it’s true I’ve never been popular with anyone never had any friends.I must come accross as creepy,boring or maybe even weird.nobody likes me.

4/13/2014 4 comments

by Kallian 4/13/2014

written by Kallian

how hard would it be to die from a caffeine overdose? I know it’s technically possible but….

4/13/2014 3 comments

the raven colored hair

by LetItGo 4/12/2014

written by LetItGo

the raven colored hair
falls upon her smooth face
the once warm and inviting eyes
are now shedding tears
dripping dropping ever so quickly
pittering pattering in her lap
as she curls up in a ball
wanting so badly to die and go
she opens up her mouth
and sighs ever so silently
she goes to speak to tell the world
but the room is dark and silent
will anyone hear her silent pleas
alas they will not because
she will mask them and hide them
hides her tears from the world
puts on a fake smile to mask her frown
looks down when passing […]

4/12/2014 8 comments

Tomorrows the day

by SDHBLS 4/12/2014

written by SDHBLS

So I’ve come to the conclusion that it does not get better.Â The mental disorders don’t go away, I won’t get any less socially awkward, & I will not become any less pathetic.Â I’ve sought help & It lead to my family thinking I’m crazy to the point where none of them want anything to do with me. I tried to just get away, but I end up with more problems then I started with. Always naturally hated by everyone I’ve met. First I thought it was a test. Then when I lost faith I thought it was a punishment, but now I know there […]

4/12/2014 6 comments

Can you suggest me something?

by KIRA 4/12/2014

written by KIRA

Hi people!
Can you help me? I’m looking for weird or almost unknown communities/orgs/ongs/blogs on the web, for example, I feel suicidal so I’m here on Suicide Project, I’m asexual so I’m a member in an AVEN forum.One of those odd communities that make you believe you’re on “the edge of internet”.Now I’m looking for a community for people who have a lonely lifestyle, I couldn’t find anything so far.Thanks in advance.

4/12/2014 1 comment

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