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No one would’ve guessed.

by Lullaby 6/15/2013

written by Lullaby

My name shall remain anonymous. I’ll go by KLM, just to make things easier for everyone who decides to read this.

This is my story. It involves: depression, mood disorder, drugs, drinking, sex, suicidal ideation, suicide attempts, and lots of other mature content. I don’t want to trigger anyone, so just stating it before hand. Here goes nothin’.

I was born in Las Vegas, Nevada. Still live in the same house after being alive for these past sixteen years. A lot has happened in my life the past five years. When I was a child, I was a good kid. I got good grades, hardly ever got […]

6/15/2013 1 comment

You know you don’t care.

by i_have_a_secret 6/15/2013

written by i_have_a_secret

It’s 12:01 am. The sweat on my neck causes my hair to stick to the back of my neck. I’m lying in bed. I’m lying to myself. I tell myself that I’m ok. That things will get better. Just give it time. But how much Time? Time is a valuable thing to me. I only have so much of it.

It’s now 12:05 am. I wasted 4 precious minutes typing. 4 minutes ill never get back…

Now it’s 12:10. I’ve been writing for 9 minutes. And yet I feel no better. As a writer shouldn’t this make me happy? If not, at least a tad bit […]

6/15/2013 2 comments

Back home after failing

by ISmiled 6/15/2013

written by ISmiled

So here I am after failing the first time. Let’s go back to the night of the 26th of May, for the full story.

I was feeling awful that night, it was another one of my bouts of guilt and depression. But this one was different, while normally, they happen for no apparent reason and last for a few hours, half a day at most, this one lasted for 3 days, after an incident with a boy from my class. We’ll say he wasn’t well-liked, and he was awkward, sweaty and not the best looking either. He came up and asked to be my partner for […]

6/15/2013 5 comments

Can you?

by forsaken1 6/15/2013

written by forsaken1

Can you hear the sorrow?

Can you feel the melancholy?

6/15/2013 6 comments

I’m so scared …

by DreamingOfDeath 6/15/2013

written by DreamingOfDeath

6/15/2013 1 comment

Selfish or selfless?

by Loripink26 6/15/2013

written by Loripink26

Im tired of living. You can work so hard for something and still end up with nothing. I keep chasing dreams that i think will make me happy but then realize that there is no such thing as happiness. I think to myself how i want kids someday and my time is running out but why would i want to bring a kid into this shitty world? Why would i want to hand over my mental issues to another human being through my genes just so they can suffer? Am i really seeing this miserable place for what it is and just giving up on […]

6/15/2013 4 comments

as if anyone actually gives a shit.

by Kathrrryn 6/15/2013

written by Kathrrryn

i feelÂ allÂ alone.

sometimes i just do not think i am going to make it.

one of these times i will be right.

maybe tomorrow. maybe tonight.

it is a nice night for a flight.

6/15/2013 4 comments

Midnight Thoughts Destroy

by PierceTheVeilAddict 6/15/2013

written by PierceTheVeilAddict

It’s nearly midnight and what’s happening? The thoughts are returning…..The voices are speaking..no, YELLING at me >.< I can hear them now….. “Die ***** die!” “Who says you’re worth living?” “You don’t deserve to live. Your own parents didn’t even want you. HA!”

The thoughts destroy me, kill me, suffocate me, eat me alive. My demons…they’re real. They exist. I don’t want to go on but..I have to. Not just for myself. I’m not living for myself anymore. I’m living for him. And her. For them. They may not care about me but I love them with all my heart.

It’s like…I can scream at them and […]

6/15/2013 1 comment

How soon is now?

by flatus 6/15/2013

written by flatus

There’s a club, if you’d like to go
You could meet somebody who really loves you
http://youtu.be/O8bHRFm85hM
So you go, and you stand on your own
And you leave on your own
And you go home
And you cry
And you want to die

When you say it’s gonna happen now,
Well when exactly do you mean?
See I’ve already waited too long
And all my hope is gone

6/15/2013 2 comments

by MichelleJ 6/15/2013

written by MichelleJ

I’m a weak person but just a few people keep me strong enough to survive!
I’m a weak person but these few people won’t give up on me so unless they and my docs give up, I can’t…

6/15/2013 0 comment

Fade

by erinphantom 6/14/2013

written by erinphantom

I can’t remember when I haven’t felt like IÂ am Â just waking up because I have to.Â If it was physically possible just to continue to sleep – I would.Â I hate facing the day.Â I drive home hurt and scared and angry every day.Â I fail as a wife, I fail at being what I feel I should at my job…I am a burden of misery to my best friend whom I ***** to every day.Â She moves to Germany soon and I know our friendship will fade away.Â Every day is the same.Â Most nights during the week I just cry myself to sleep.

PeopleÂ keep […]

6/14/2013 4 comments

I don’t know why

by Meaghan 6/14/2013

written by Meaghan

I don’t know why I feel this way

I don’t know why I do this to myself

I don’t know why I cry so much

I don’t know why I tried to kill myself

I don’t know why I push everyone away

I don’t know why I feel so alone

I don’t know why I am anxious

I don’t know why you hate me

But then again i think i do.

6/14/2013 2 comments

My Girlfriend Does NOt Care About Me

by Jlup@ 6/14/2013

written by Jlup@

This Girl That I Love That Is MY Girlfriend cares about another guy and not me i love her so much im so bliend But i still love her she hurts me cuz she kisses the cheek of another guy and kisses him i love S and it hurts me knowing she just playing with me

6/14/2013 2 comments

What I must admit

by MichelleJ 6/14/2013

written by MichelleJ

I never keep promises unless I reeeeeeeally have to

The only reason I keep any promises is when either the law or the medical establishment forces me to keep them…

I’m a survivor and haven’t yet killed myself, nor have I gone with counting down five years from now to die at my own hands, because I was made to swear that I wouldn’t attempt suicide again, nor ask to be helped to die again, by who? The fucking doctors. I love them, yet they give me a hard burden to bear. I love one friend in this world, a few family members only.

I never believed in […]

6/14/2013 7 comments

Cyanide (Epic song I came across)

by tupacorbiggie 6/14/2013

written by tupacorbiggie

Cyanide

Kinda reminds me of Marilyn Manson a bit. Â It’s fitting to my state of mind. Â For some reason I can’t get embedding to work, sorry.

6/14/2013 0 comment

She’s done it again

by givenup 6/14/2013

written by givenup

I’ve posted about my mother before and how we really don’t get along. I am so sick of having to sit and listen to her complain about my dad, and now she’s saying that he’s making us move house for his own reasons (I don’t live with my dad, he won’t have me). Then she said it, that when we move house she wants me to go and live somewhere else. She’s happy for my 22-year-old brother to stay with her and my 19-year-old sister, but not me. What are you supposed to do when even your own mum doesn’t want you?

6/14/2013 2 comments

“TH1RTEEN R3ASONS WHY”

by 4L1C3 6/14/2013

written by 4L1C3

Thirteen reasons why

Learn from Hannah Baker’s mistakes

I did

6/14/2013 0 comment

masturbation ruined my life

by boy. .in..shame 6/14/2013

written by boy. .in..shame

Today i am accepting the fact masturbation ruined my life and i am tired of masturbating everyday is there anyone in the whole world who masturbate a lot i am very tired of doing it and i do not know how to stop this habit but i am just in shame today too much because i am very much tired of doing it and i do not want to do that anymore it is not stress reliever for me it is eating my life my body ruined because of masturbation i look very thin and i always use to be tired because of this habit […]

6/14/2013 8 comments

waiting for a sign

by minles 6/14/2013

written by minles

i did it again, i’m just sitting here waiting and wondering how is it, in all this years you never realize the marks on my arms, or the blood on my clothes.
i wonder how would you feel is you knew that every single cut i make myself is because of you mom.
it really doesn’t matter anymore. Im just tired.
im just waiting for something that tell me that is time, that i should cut deeper and try to sleep.

6/14/2013 2 comments

she and her ways

by summer_guy 6/14/2013

written by summer_guy

She is cutting again

she cant hide here pain

blood flowing from her veins

and they call her insance

She is insecure again

but the marks she made

in her room last night

with the only way she finds

She is pulling her sleeves down

she is crying all along

the way to her school

is not so far

She is afraid

to face the crowd

she better know

they will make her drown

she don’t want

to go back to the place

full of insults

and an unwanted pain

they call it school

she calls it hell

because that’s the only place

where she lost herself

And now

she is down again

but it’s not her fault

why every time she should pay

She is going back

to her home

but she cant bear

this […]

6/14/2013 1 comment

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