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Im lost again

by Cassie 6/6/2013

written by Cassie

Again? Were things ever really better..?have they ever been okay? Or were all those moments just a distraction..

Iâ€™m scared. And Iâ€™m alone. And Iâ€™m so tired.. and those words taste so bitter.. because I thought I was strong enough to beat this.. I thought it was something you could beat. In my years Iâ€™ve always shrugged away help or people. Because every time I let my guard down.. I learn a new lesson. A new, sad lesson that makes me tnink even more that its just time to give up this fight. And Ive been fighting all my life.. before I even knew what depression […]

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want to die but should not claimed suicide

by devi 6/6/2013

written by devi

life seem to come to a stand still, do not know where to go, what to do, my husband cheated me for a girl, i tried to live with him,13 long years Â waited and waited but no he has built a strong relationship with her, a friend approached me promised me to be a good friend but got into a relation, i thought my husband would feel jealous and would be by my side but no he and his girl friend has taken photos in private. my parents have brought me up with good habits, i somehow got over the relation becoz it didnt help […]

6/6/2013 3 comments

Help and effective ideas

by elizehnoah 6/6/2013

written by elizehnoah

I have been trying to commit suicide for quiet some time now but I have been failing continuously. I always end up being in more physical pain rather than being dead. I really need help with it. I am tired, exhausted and I dont have much left in me. I really need help ending it.

6/6/2013 16 comments

I’m slowly working up the nerve to do it.

by alectrevelyan 6/6/2013

written by alectrevelyan

I just got fired from Walmart tonight for some ridiculous reason.Â “Oh, you’re too slow.Â I need to tell you things ten times before you understand.”Â This isn’t the first time I’ve been fired from a job for these reasons.Â I’m now 27 years old and I’m thinking that if I can’t find a job in the next little while that I can keep for longer than 90 days, I may as well end it.Â As Michael Douglas’ character said it in the film “Falling Down”, maybe I’m just not economically viable.Â Most of my family is dead and no one really gives a damn […]

6/6/2013 4 comments

from feelinglost

by feelinglost 6/6/2013

written by feelinglost

hi,

I’m new to this site. I was going through a hard time and subconsciously started to look at suicide related links, which lead me here.

I’ve had depression, bulimia and other illnesses like insomnia for about eleven years now. Although I tried and failed to commit suicide about five years ago, I’m generally a cheerful person and eight years with a good counsellor has lead me a long way.

I still have problems holding a job down, but the biggest blow is that the one love I’d been with for five years told me recently thatÂ he is marrying someone else. I have no choice but to respect […]

6/6/2013 1 comment

A letter to my love.

by ablackrose 6/6/2013

written by ablackrose

It’s just before 12pm. Â I have only just woken up and I wake up today looking at life like it’s a curse. Â What is the point of living life? Â (Not in a suicidal state of mine). Â I lay here thinking to myself how hard it is to get out of bed to get to the shower or to get downstairs to eat breakfast. Â So I just lay here for longer. Â It is now 1pm. Â I have decided to get up and start going on with my day to day jobs. Â I was meant to go out today but I don’t want to leave the house. […]

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Already dead

by sterey 6/6/2013

written by sterey

My boyfriend of 7 years killed himself in front of me. I cant stop wishing he would have killed me too. Now I fantasize about suicide. I tell myself I will never do that to my family, but I fear I won’t always have that strength.

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Suicide..

by Suicidegurl1005 6/6/2013

written by Suicidegurl1005

I have had a really hard life. And I bet a lot of you people reading this have had one too. But not all.. This is my story…

Hi, I am a fourteen year old girl who has been humililated, tortured, and bullied my whole life. I don’t have friends. I am very anti-social. I am home schooled because of everything that has happened. I am only in 8th grade. And My life is a complete hell. I have been bullied for about 9 years now, since the day I moved here. I used to here people in the hall ways, and I was just a […]

6/6/2013 1 comment

Does it ever stop? The depression..

by iwishiwish 6/5/2013

written by iwishiwish

When I think back to when I was a kid, I can’t remember being happy.. And I don’t know why. And then I thought..
I’ve always been unhappy.
My family has many issues that now I know effected me; screaming and yelling, name calling, blaming, frustration.
I remember it all.

I remember getting these overwhelming feelings like I was trapped in a small bubble and couldn’t get out, I know now that the feeling I felt was probally depression..
I’ve been depressed since I could remember..
And I really don’t remember a lot because that’s how my body copes..
I want to talk to someone but […]

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Sour lemons

by iwishiwish 6/5/2013

written by iwishiwish

I wish I could go back in time and completely change everything…

6/5/2013 4 comments

Nights

by Titans 6/5/2013

written by Titans

For whatever reason, nights are always the hardest for me. It doesn’t matter what happens during the day, whether I was elated or devastated about one thing or the other, I would still end up here, lying in the dark, thinking about the same thing each night. I don’t really want to kill myself. It would hurt everyone around me, I don’t have the heart to, I actually have a few hopes or goals to live for, etc. I think about myself, really. I go through a lot during the day. So much so that it would take too long to write, or at least […]

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My parents

by dyingbutstillalive 6/5/2013

written by dyingbutstillalive

I honestly feel bad but assured about not telling my parents about my problems. I know I have problems and im a fuck up but I don’t want my parents to know that. My dad is trying to work as hard as possible to get his vacation leave and my mom is having problems at work. Both my parents are trying to keep the house we live in and they’re trying their best to pay for everything. My parents never even had a wedding like a full on wedding with the cake and the decorated themed church. And I want to give them that chance. […]

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Would someone please put me out of my misery

by aregularguy 6/5/2013

written by aregularguy

I’m bored with everything. I’ve snowboarded from helicopters, climbed many mountains, traveled and been to many places, and work as a molecular biologist. I should not feel the way I do. This should make me a fun and loving person, but instead I always feel empty and alone. I get a lot of attention from women, but nothing ever comes from it because I hate myself and the sadness pours from me. I can’t live like this. Happiness teases me and runs away. Nobody, not even joy wants to have anything to do with me.

I started taking drugs again to spice things up. 30 hits […]

6/5/2013 9 comments

Exhausted

by ablackrose 6/5/2013

written by ablackrose

I feel so alone in this empty world. Â Keeping the cuts off my arms is a challenge and putting a smile on my face is even harder.

6/5/2013 3 comments

More of an apology :)

by tylerkid 6/5/2013

written by tylerkid

Life is too precious too consider throwing away. theres so many beautiful people in this world and mysteries and suprises you’d never expect and to cut your life short is throwing away any chance of having that. My mom always said it’s funny how things work, and she’s right. Having god come in my life in 10th grade couldn’t have been just a coincidence. i didn’t know the hardships and battles i would face later in life. God guided me all the way through there though, it was a miracle. i’ve made alot of mistakes along the way and my drug and alchohol abuse, while […]

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Perspective

by mumblebumblebee 6/5/2013

written by mumblebumblebee

I had a lazy day just on my laptop today, and have been watching/ reading about things that fascinate me.
The main topic that caught my eye was the theories and thoughts surrounding solipsism and realism.
Solipsism is the thought/ belief that you are the only real thing. That the people you know, the information you’ve learned about history and research going on is just information ‘created’ for you (as if you’re in the matrix kind of idea).
Realism is that things exist whether you are here or not, and realism states that your perception of reality and the things that happen are false to […]

6/5/2013 3 comments

I looked for you here…

by DawgMom 6/5/2013

written by DawgMom

But maybe you are there… the place I now want to be. Maybe we will meet, glass_music_cup… finally. Maybe you will be there and I can tell you. And, you can tell me. We can finally share without shame. We can embrace and feel at a level that others won’t until they do. Bliss.

Call for me. Reach for me. Tell me what to do… please. I am broken. Unloved. You know what I mean. Ready and prepared. In order… it’s all in order.

Meet me there. Please.

See you on the other side. Soon. Let this be the way out. Please.

6/5/2013 3 comments

Alone

by I_suffer_in_silence 6/5/2013

written by I_suffer_in_silence

Iâ€™ve been walking alone. I turned back around and everyone was far away, so I continued walking. â€œI wasnâ€™t afraid of being alone anymore.â€œ Iâ€™d whisper that to myself. But inside me was emptiness. I forgot how it was like to feel alive.Â Now I just live in the memories as I walk these paths. But suddenly I was lost. I didnâ€™t know what direction to take. I was scared. Everywhere I turned there was darkness, no light shined. So I sat there in dark hours in the middle of nowhere figuring out what Iâ€™m going to do.Â I was blinded by the tears I […]

6/5/2013 4 comments

Wants versus Needs

by flatus 6/5/2013

written by flatus

Has anyone played the ole “wants vs. needs” game, in therapy or elsewhere? Last year I was in a therapy group setting. Everyone got a pencil and a piece of paper. Make 2 columns for Wants and Needs, and just start listing each of our wants and needs as they came off the top of my head.

I had a few needs, like food clothing shelter and companionship. At first I couldn’t come up with any wants. So then it was time to put our pencils down. We went around the table, people were rattling off their wants and needs.

Some […]

6/5/2013 3 comments

The Only One Who Makes It All Better

by scarsarehowiknowitsreal 6/5/2013

written by scarsarehowiknowitsreal

This is going to sound cliche, but it’s my boyfriend. I have liked him for as long as I can remember. When we were not dating we were basically best-friends. I told him everything. Â About me cutting, my mom on drugs, and when she said she didn’t care about me. So we talked a lot. One of my friends kept telling him to ask me out and he finally did. June 1st, 2013. I still have scars, although I haven’t been cutting ever since. It feels good to know that you have someone that cares about you. He is everything to me. I couldn’t live […]

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