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This is what happend today.I was walking home from school and I saw again that boy eho knows who I am,knows my name (I think…),but he doesn’t know that I like him.I’m just a shadow.And I wonder if there in this big and fake world is a boy who feels the same thing for me.A boy that feel his heart beating fast when he see me walking on the street.I don’t think so.There’s no one.I don’t wanna live this way.What am I supposed to do?I’m alone.

I saw her. She saw me. She ignored me. She’s sick of helping me. I get it. Now she’ll start avoiding me

All I keep hearing from people is ‘don’t do anything stupid.’ Suicide ISN’T stupid. I just want to die. Please don’t make this any harder than it already is. I think it’s time to cut.

Hi ya Kane here, I lost my mum when I was 3, she had bad asma, never new her, I got played around with as a kid and lost my verginity when I was 7 , got raped by my step mother age ten, after she sleeps with two guys, went two 18 primary schools be for heigh school, started living in youth accommodations / hostels age 13, I got hold of yello Asenoc, powder form, I mixed it with coffie and it taisted like rotten eggs, I started throwing up un controliby with in 10 mins, I wonted out so bad, still do, any […]

I am 53 years old, a professional, and one who for a long time has successfully supported my family.   Because of the economy my practice is suffering.  I don’t see any light at the end of the tunnel, and while my business is still solvent I have a sense that it will collapse soon.  I have been successful in my investments, and I am fortunate in that I have planned for my death.   I have life insurance policies and retirement accounts which would secure my family’s future. 

After all the time and effort in getting to where I am, I realize that this is really all that […]

I’ve been feeling vervy down uncool and worthless i feel like a piece of shit. Have you just ever felt so guilty the thing is I have so much drama in my life it makes me sick i mean and its not like i want drama idk whats wrong with me or why iam such a fucked up person my ex was right when id be all alone and i wouldent be able to love anyone else i am having such a hard time not talking to my ex and i want to give him space but its really hard Dose love just make things […]

I’ve been feeling vervy down uncool and worthless i feel like a piece of shit. Have you just ever felt so guilty the thing is I have so much drama in my life it makes me sick i mean and its not like i want drama idk whats wrong with me or why iam such a fucked up person my ex was right when id be all alone and i wouldent be able to love anyone else i am having such a hard time not talking to my ex and i want to give him space but its really hard Dose love just make things […]

Hi all
I hope everyone feels at least as well as I do.

Today was weird, really weird. Well, oha its hard for me to explain what I want. I must give it a try.

Hum…. Honestly I don’t know what I want to tell you.

In the afternoon I got those stomach ache’s I get from lovesickness. Maybe it’s because I spend the last 4 days a few hours with my love, yes the same person from last year.

I struggled hard with myself this afternoon. I was pretty much nearly crying, … I don’t know what happened. I thought I am okay, I am done with my […]

I know it is stupid to think that anyone i know will read this……

but, I really hope today is my last day.   I think hanging seems like the best way from what I have read.  

I wish better luck to the rest of you

i would post my whole story but im told it sounds like a lifetime movie and that i am not  telling the truth ….ill post it one day hopefully before i die …. 🙂

They say the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, and expecting a different result each time. I always have felt like I’m different then everyone else, but I never truly believed that I’m crazy.. Well, not loony-bin crazy, at least. I just think for the most part I’m a product of my environment, and as the years have gone on and I’ve been through so much pain and bullshit, I am starting to see the steady deterioration of my mental health. God, I wish I could turn back time. I mean, at 13, I knew I’d been abused as […]

I know it doesn’t hurt, but

breathe anyway.

Breathe anyway.

Breathe anyway.

I know you’re not tired, but

sleep anyway.

Sleep anyway.

Sleep anyway.

I know you’re not scared,

but shake anyway

Shake anyway.

Shake anyway.

I know you’re not sad, but

cry anyway.

Cry anyway.

Cry anyway.

I know you’re not in pain but

bleed anyway

Bleed anyway.

Bleed anyway.

I know you feel free but

fight anyway

Fight anyway.

Fight anyway

I know sometimes it feels like we’re in this for nothing. Some days you can’t get out of bed. Most days you can’t get out of bed. When you close your eyes and lay down, all you can hear are the voices that make you eat your mind. Sometimes they’re so loud that all you can do is silently scream by yourself. Sometimes you have to actually scream at nothing. That’s what it seems like, right? Like you’re screaming at nothing? It’s like the problems aren’t problems in reality, but the fact that you exist at all is the problem. I can vividly describe the […]

Im kinda new at this, but here ya go. Im the guy that everyone knows, and some consider their friend at school. I live in the dorm, so i got some close friends. But if i have friends so close, how can they not tell behind all my laughs and jokes, Im dying inside. I just want to scream, tell someone all the shit im going through. How Im watching everything good, everything that I care about going to pot around me. The girl I love doesnt want me, doesnt love me anymore. Im failing my classes. I try but im just not good enough. […]

What the crap, is up with the security question for this site nowadays? “Who was the second president of the united states?”  John Adams, john adams, john Quincy adams, john quincey adams. none of them worked. was I mistaken by history? took me forever to make a New profike beacuse my password is lost on the old one.  had to wait for the “what color is healty grass”? question to finally make a new. Anyways, if any of you pople are still here form the past, find me.  [SyKo]NuclearAnthrax , was the previous Account name. So yes, life is crapsalad. i want to cut. cut cut […]

First Post?

Yes, it is. So let us start from the beginning shall we?

I’ve been on this earth a medium amount of time, but I feel so much older, like I’ve been here since the beginning. I hate everything about myself and my life.

I live with family, bouncing from couch to couch, I live out of boxes and suitcases, but honestly, I don’t even need them. I used to go to school until my depression just got the best of me (I was diagnosed 3 years ago).

Before this..I had a pretty ok life, I was with the guy of my dreams, and I mean, we fought […]

I used to think i’d be someone in life. I spent 5 years of my life believing in this dream, that i would actually achieve fame and fortune someday through my music. I relied on my lyricism, hoping that I could change the way hip hop music sounds today into something beautiful which in turn could be appreciated by a wider audience. But that was until today, when i finally realized how shitty my voice and delivery were.  I first turned to hip hop music when I was 13 simply because it was something that didn’t require having the ability to sing nor play any […]

I feel as if no one will ever understand I tried to explain and they did not listen what’s the point in repeating myself. Only for them to ignore me. They act like this will pass but they don’t understand how much I’m suffering. They tell me to fix it. How can I fix it? I may seem so cold to people but I don’t mean to I’m just so angry. I never will be what everyone wants me to be I was not born to make people happy. And for them to say I’m only sad because I want to be is like punching […]

Tonight I hate myself. More than I have in years… That’s saying something. Close to the end, and it’s looking darker but it will be all gone soon.