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I try and I try but nothing change  It is a constant cuticle of tears,cutting, and lie  I can’t escape no matter how hard I try  I feel so lost and confused I don’t know hat to do. I am scared help me

All hope was lost
and she was so young
the sun stopped shining
when she was gone.
No one heard her cries
No one heard her pleas.
No one heard any of her painful screams.
And all hope was lost
in the middle of the night
when she decided
to have a first flight.
she spread her wings and stood on a perch.
11 stories up,
she flew like a bird.
And when she landed she went up up up.
God welcomed her with a hug.
And her story to this day is told quite simply…
Cause all hope was lost,
in the middle of […]

I’m 17 years old and one of my sisters is 19. We are completely opposite and have both made choices which have determined our futures.

When she was 17 she was kicked out of our house. Prior to this she had done drugs, drank, partied, snuck out, gotten pregnant and lost the baby more than once, got arrested, stole, lied, cheated, and failed most of her classes. It was rough living with her, I always thought things would be better without her, but after she was no longer allowed in our family I missed her more than anything. Not who she was when she left, […]

Where does it all go ?

Ive been looking for you for some time……in a way ive found you…..putting myself in situations I know will be to my detriment. ……im almost there…..im at your doorstep…..I could stop taking my hiv medication and you could take me……you are my resolve. My blood is poisonous. ….im less than half of who I used to be…..I dont see my face in the mirror anymore…..my apartment reflects my psyche……its a mess…..things strewn all about……even now when I wake up I still feel asleep…..I want out of this….I have life insurance my mother will get the full 500, 862 $ of it……27 years to long….I will […]

For those of you who know me, I’ve been gone for a while. A few months or something…

Well, there have been improvements and destruction! i haven’t really felt depressed or sad in a long ass time. I’ve no idea how long. I think this is dissociation. Or something like that… I’ll explain a little more. Um… Whenever I think about Niel, the man who literally turned my life around and gave me hope in everything I gave up on, I immediately think about something else. It’s like my brain won’t let me think about him anymore. Mostly because… whenever I remembered him, even if it’s […]

Okay for the past year i’ve been feeling alone and depressed. I have shared with others but I feel like it doesnt help at all. In ninth grade my bestfriend betrayed me and took all my close friends away.  After that i find it hard to trust anyone. I’m 5’9 or 5’10 girl and weigh 116 and i know that looks random in the middle but i also has its own problem.Im constently made fun of  because of that.  I’m talkedabout when i dont even do anything to those people. Im practically an outcast in my own group of friends. Honestly theseare only the little […]

I don’t know anyone on this page. I don’t know what your going through or why you feel you have no way out. All I have to say is you can make it! I attempted suicide when I was 19 and I have boarder lined attempted 3 times this past year. Everyday I wake up and its on my mind. I wonder if this life is worth it or if I should just pull the trigger and say to hell with life and living! I don’t know if anyone will listen to what I’m about to say or if anyone has listened so far but […]

I AM A 44 YR OLD MALE WHO IN 1986 MADE THE MISTAKE BEING A PASSENGER IN A CAR THAT IMPACTED A TREE AT A ESTIMATED 80 MPH.THE TREE HIT THE 77 MONZA DIRECTLY IN THE PASSENGERS DOOR PUSHING MY FEMUR THR MY HIP,PELVIS AND BLADDER.I WOKE A WEEK LATER IN THE HOSPITAL.IN THE FOLLOWING YEARS THE DAMAGE TO MY HIP REQUIRED MULTIPAL SURGERIES AND FINALLY HAD TO BE PINNED.DURING THIS PINNING OPERATION THE DOCTOR PUT ONE OF THE PINS TO FAR AND IT SEVERED THE RIGHT FEMERAL ARTERY,I WAS CLOSED ON THE OPERATING TABLE THE DOCTOR HAVING NO KNOWLEDGE HE HAD DONE THIS.HOURS LATER […]

Confusion is your masterpiece
You find peace in my misery
So what are these walls for exactly?
Maybe to save myself from hypocrisy?
I told you that I was broken
You shattered me with your words spoken
Never will we be forever
Not now, not ever
You coward, you chose walk away for sake of saving face
You bastard, you live your life to give to take
So when I die
This will be you’re choice
If I die
Will you cry tonight?

There’s another reason again
To let you break me
So I don’t have to hurt myself
You’ll do it for me
So can […]

Sometimes I wish I could be in a car accident, not for the attention. So if I woke up I could see who actually cares, who sat there and thought even for a second “damn I hope she survives.” and if I didn’t wake up, I wouldnt have to worry about them knowing it was suicide. 
  Sometimes I wish that I was normal. You know, actually wantedd? With friends that didn’t ditch me, backstabbing me or using me. I dont want to be stuck inside 24/7, the only times i go out is when i ask, or they want something, not the People who only […]

Spring, a time for new begins apparently.  New life. New loves. New Cleaning products. Pass the Clorox and excuse the pun.

I just don’t care anymore. I thought I didn’t care before, but I don’t inside at all now, i didnt realise I could get worse. I don’t care for much because I can’t, it isn’t in me. I just stare blankly all day.
There’s plenty of times where I know I should feel sad, but I just don’t. There are many tears that never escape my eyes. Any thoughts I have leave my head and make it as barren as it was before I felt anything. I’ve lost all of my emotion trying to cope, my essence is fading away to my depression, my […]

So..Many people here want to end their lives,or anyway feel pain. Why others let it happen? Seriously! I used to cut myself (Im still feelin pain,but I try to stop) and everybody’ve been sayin ”Its for attention”. NO *****,its not for attention. You havent walked a mile in our shoes,and you think we are too dramatic because YOU live in your perfect little world! But know what? We need help for sure,and if you cant help us,its okay. BUT DONT CRITICISE WHAT YOU CANT UNDERSTAND.:3 Honestly it kills me when i see people treat us like strangers. We’re just different and we need help. But we […]

Y’know whaat, fuck this, cancer IS the best thing that’s happy to me…or am I just in denial. meh whatever idc anymore if I survive, I survive, If I die, I die….maybe my mom is right…maybe I am actually something. Well anyways I have removal surgery again tomorrow. Well i gtg, cause it’s time for me to take a walk through the hospital.

You ignorant prick!! you coward!! you dont desteve me… But I love you… i cant help myself… So tonightIll take the sleeping pills and pass away from this wretched place

I’ve stopped believing that it’s possible for me to couple up with another human being. I’ve started believing that I’m somewhere deep on the autism spectrum, unable to assimilate into society without great pains. Like an apathetic gardener, I’ve stopped tending to my human relationships, both family and friends. I no longer see a point in continuing to put effort into making others happy; nobody makes me happy. I can’t imagine spending any amount of time listening to some woman complain and gossip just so I can get at her loins. I hate the boarish, single minded nature of most men. I truly hate this […]

I think the title speaks for itself . I’m not wanted here .

I’m an 18 year old male,

My parents disowned me, and unregistered me from the home. I’m basically homeless now. And I’ll likely will do as my parents asked.

I’m not their son anymore probably because of these reasons.
– My School, who suspended me on the regards of having hospitalized care for my migralepsy.
– My health, because I’ve been suffering from chronic migraine, cluster migraine and migralepsy for the past 10 years, school started to deteriorate at some point and when I flunked due to deteriorating health issues I couldn’t get a job obviously.
– My spirituality, my parents are christian and I’m baptized but […]