General

Part of it is rumor, and part of it is true. what we dont know whats what.

Is it wrong that if someone does come in with a gun tomorrow that i want to be shot? and killed?

That way i can die, and everyone will know about it.

I want everyone to know about my death.. my murder.. my suicide..

I dont know why, but i do..

So if you dont hear from me by saturday night, then be sure to check the news about school shootings and any teenage girls that died in it.

(I plan to jump in front of the shooter if i get the chance to..)

i have been very strong. i have realised that i have been tested to see if i can ivercome a barrier i could never get through in the past in this case of not letting a comment by someone get to me . a year ago i would have quit this job just like that. now i  finally have enough respect for myself tyat i can realised that i deserve   certain rights i deserve to be happy and silly  things arent gunna stop this girl this time nope i wont let it ive been through hell an back and this girl isnt going to […]

hi all

i quess were all here for same reason,we feel pretty shitty

my story is i loved and lost and no its not better than not loving at all

i had a simple life before i met her yes wasnt perfect but was never as bad as it is now before i fell in love and never had any suicidal thoughts before

but i fell for her and was happy for  a while before she dumped me,now i cant belive i feel so low

easy for people to say plenty more fish in the sea but i dont want any other fish and feel too damaged ill love again,just […]

not much has changed since last time. im way mor confused now than I ever was before tho. my gramas not coming to live with me. im ok with that tho every ting with foster care is going pretty much tha way I want it to skools alright I guess I got a bf within tha first 3 days. he was a good bf then he broke up w me for no fucking reason and strted talkin shit about me but idc he has HIV!!!! happy I never did anything with him. thebreak up did kinda putt me in a deep depression. I started cutting a lot more and […]

Its 5 days till christmas, but its also 5 days till its been 4 months without you. For so long I’ve been mourning you being gone from my life, walking around with this huge ball of pain inside of me. All of my insides aching and every little thing reminding me of you. I didnt think I could survive without you. Now here I am nearly 4 months later, and I know you will always be a part of me, but I’ve accepeted it now. You’re gone, and I dont think you’re coming back. Maybe we were never meant to be, and that time was […]

He looks @ you like you’re the prettiest thing on this earth,
He looks @ you with so much to say, but runs outta words…
‘coz all the things he wants to say, he’s said them before,
& you quietly listened, took the compliments,
… and said nothing in return

Yet he wants you more than anything
But pretends that he can live without you,
even though he knows you’re his everything…

He needs you to take care of him,
But pretends to take you under […]

I tried to go out in a manner that made it look like an accident so my parents wouldn’t be as upset. I put a 45 pound bar with weight over my neck in my basement, as I went unconscious, Something must have moved the bar or allowed me to breathe, because I woke up 10 minutes later. No one was home, so I don’t know what went wrong.

I will not mind if someone needs to talk and needs someone to listen right away, i will give my number to anyone who may need it. Just email me or reply to this, please don’t abuse this, id like to help anyone in need of a friend or even someone who just needs to talk.

Of course we have a history. People in this situation almost always do.

I saw him today for the first time in almost a year. That is, I saw him in the light for the first time in almost a year. Not on a dark street deep into the navy blanketed morning, not in a hysteric fog shrouded nightmare. In a public place. He was tangible.

And that was enough to undo any safeguard I had felt in this town.

I looked over my shoulder nearly the whole way home. Home. He knew where home was. Of course he did – he moved in two blocks away just […]

First I need a method…and then I’ll decide within 30 days, or may just attempt to see if I am destined to live..

The title is arbritrary. I’m currently sitting on a stump of bricks in the middle of a small town. I have no one. I pushed them all away. I left my wife who loved me more than herself.  Then I dated a woman who wrecked me forever. She became pregnant and took my son from me. He wasn’t mine and I miss him dearly. Then I fell in love once more. She moved to Hawaii. Im a failure and a fuck up. I’ve quit everything I’ve ever started. Until I decided to be a soldier and got discharged because of an injury. I want to […]