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It is very informative. We cannot discuss ways in which we are going to do it, but I already know which one to take; however, it takes much planning and I dont want to mess it up.
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Ts her birthday. I’m in school with her all fucking day. Stuck seeing him and her holding hands ands kissing.. He should be kissing me. Holding my hand. Not hers.
In a good mood other than her being here and her being with him..
yes I am the jealouse type, and I know that. So no one needs to tell me
I think I feel lyk dying..my parents just act in front me
I’ve tried before to take my own life, I was 22. Many things had occurred through out my life at that point all of which had been coming to a boil, my button had been pushed, death was the only way to escape.  Some may find it cowardice, but not me, it’s my life, the things in my life are under my control, and at the time I felt I had lost control of everything. So I decided I was going to take control of something for once, it was one of the lowest days of my life. I was having issues finding work, the mother […]
My deal is odd, even I see this. I am not angry or sad nor do I hate anyone or have anything to blame of anyone. I am simply bored with life or tired of it, I find my self excited over the thought of finishing the final chapter in life however I do understand once I am gone; My wife will be heart broken as will the rest of my family so when this happens I need to make sure they are taken care of (financially) which may bring them a sense of relief and make the mourning process more bearable. My […]
I stood outside the window as the wind and cold played its part in making me numb enough to watch him cheat. I had just gotten home after I had been in the hospital for 2 weeks, and had gone to visit him to see what project had kept him busy enough to only allow him the time to see his ill girlfriend once during her time in the hospital.
I heard her moaning as I approached the door, and naturally I had to see with my own eyes, so I peered into the window with the slit in the curtains.
It was her, a […]
You must’ve a been in a place so dark, couldn’t feel the light
Reachin’ for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are gathered in our little home town
This can’t be the way you meant to draw a crowd
Oh why, that’s what I keep askin’
Was there anything I could have said or done
Oh I, had no clue you were masking a troubled soul, God only knows
What went wrong, and why you’d leave the stage in the middle of a song
Now in my mind I keep you frozen as a seventeen year old
Roundin’ third to score that winning run
You […]
I said things where better and I thought they where. I was wrong though. just hours after my last post all hell broke loose. My dad went crazy he got mad at me and he threw me on my bed and was shaking me and hitting me and I screamed that I hated him. he grabbed me and dragged me head first off my bed and slammed me to the floor. He saw my mom at the store and he told me that she didn’t want me. Nobody wants me anymore… My family has abandoned me…and I don’t know what to do.
The only reason I am awake […]
First, I am so sorry for my English. I decide to join in that forum cause I dont know any similar in my native language.
I need to talk about my problems, but I cant do it with my family and friends and when sometimes I want to talk to someone, they are not interested to hear me. I am lost, then.
Always I think to finish my life. I was a loser all the time, maybe I am not a good brother, friend, person… I feel I am a loser, fearful, I dont conquested nothing in me life… I feel I hate myself cause I have […]
The bell tolls once as I walk the streets alone. Strange, as the tower had not known my presence for some time
I cannot truly be alive when I walk so alone, so empty, so void of emotion
I feel nothing. I smile no more, I cry no more, I am numb
I tried to overcome this but in the end it caught up to me
A cloud of despair, bursting with the rain of the tears I’ve wept and the blood I’ve shed from my arms and wrists
It follows me everywhere I go, relenting for a moment only so it is able to strike again and take more […]
i cant do this anymore. all i think about is ways to hurt you when you hurt me so bad emotionally. i love you so much that just a sorry from you could erase all the pain and agony you have caused but that is still too much for you to do. why do you care so little that you can say the things you say to me? im not stupid, and im not dumb. im sorry im annoying. im sorry i complain so much. but i just want you to open your eyes to what you do to me. im trapped. i cant get […]
God show me the way because the Devil is trying to break me down.
I ruined it all, my best friend was and maybe still is going through a really hard time and I was there for her. But one night, I was in the exact same position as her. I wanted to die, I wanted to cut myself, pop some pills and she did nothing to help me, she did nothing to help me get through it. I was so angry at her that I decided to post something on Tumblr about how angry I was at her and asking why she didn’t give a fuck. She got so angry when she read that. She messaged me saying […]
So this is where I admit that I want to die. Not in the take a bunch of pills, eat a bulled, slash my wrists, kind of way. But in a I’m sick of “dealing” with shit and I just want to cease to exist. I’ve thought about killing myself, and the pain it would cause some of the people that know me is pretty much the only thing stopping it. Social media is good for making you feel connected, even when you’re not…really connected. It’s funny, (raise the peoples eyebrow, not haha) if you know me I wonder if […]
I feel kinda weird posting on here…
I think about suicide and sometimes actually want to do but I think of my friends or something and I feel okay.
But when ever I have a strange thought I fall into place of fear and anxiety that makes me feel  like I should.
Heck I never really thought about suicide except when I was ten.
I scared now…
I don’t know what to do…
And I’m thirteen….
I want it all to end. I want to leave everything behind. I’m tired of going to school and putting on a happy face, but I have to because at my school if you show that there’s actually something actually wrong people judge you, and they think you’re “acting” sad to get attention. I don’t have friends that I’m comfortable enough to talk to about my problems. I have one friend that I have talked to about some stuff and she didn’t understand, she stopped being my friend after I told her. Everything for me changed when I told her because she let everyone else know […]
I don’t ask for help. Never. Ever. But today I need it. I’ve been depressed for 3 years now, suicidal for 2. Last year, around this time, I attempted and wound up in a hospital. They put me on an anti depressant but it didn’t work. Now a year later things have gotten worse. I hear voices in my head and I get words stuck in my mind. I can’t sleep. I have nightmares every time I try. It used to be just when I had to deal with school but now…now I still hate myself when I’m out of school. I keep relapsing in […]
In short my life is over the way i see it with a dose of reality.
I regret having a certain brother, he is an alcoholic and has done what alycy’s. Do.. Ruin everyone around them. I am 57 now and am about to lose everything.
Most people iny life the last few yrs have been a negative influence. I have a ” lil red spiral” titled, “IF I DID”. Therein are my thoughts establishing my point of view.
I should not ever been born to see what life could be like, if lived properly from an early age, with a […]
I work an hour away and this asshole named M who I have not worked for in over a year won’t stop halting any hopes of a transfer for jobs I would have done well and am qualified for. I have aspergers syndrome so I cannot make friends and no one has ever loved me starting with my father. Everyone in my life has abandoned me. I was just dumped by a boy named B who I was actually myself around and thought it was a healthy dating relationship. He gave me this look…it was as though he was looking right through me. As though […]