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Sometimes i find myself wondering if my emotions aren’t real. If maybe they don’t really exist at all.
Right now I’m acting angry and irritable… But I don’t feel it. I just… say. There’s nothing there. It’s confusing.
I just lost someone that was so fuckin special to me. I’m crying and I’m gonna find some way to make myself feel better. I think I may do alot of burning and cutting. JUst went out and bought tons of razors and I have a whole bag of weed in my room just calling my name because what else is there for me now. Maybe I’ll go for a little joy ride in a parking lot and end up in a tree. Wouldn’t that be nice? To end up dead after everything I’ve been through. All the abuse and hurt and pain. Just end […]
A month to go… if i last that long.. charcol method is what im using.. been planning for january for over 6 months… but dec. is more inviting.. see ya”ll on the other side.
Saw Emily at the mall today …  That’s my exboyfriends sister  Ad it was way too awkward… She gave me a death stare  which really sucks because we used to be pretty close. I had an anxiety attack after saying hi to her.  Just makes me want Travis that much more.
And reminds me about how perfect his new girlfriend is  and how fucking shitty I really am
does anyone know of a psychologist available through email or skype or something on the internet who can help me FOR FREE?
i don’t have money, i’m trapped in another country, i have absolutely no one
you do not understand
or do you?
i have no family
i can’t see my family
i have no close friends
i do not have anyone
and all therapy here is not covered by insurance and difficult to get and too expensive
i need help
i need help
i need help
i need help
i need help
i need help i still need help
nobody is going to help me, will they?
i’m surrounded by blank […]
i told my parents about how i have a girlfriend now… big mistake.,. did not accept it at all.. so what if i like girls and guys?
ugh… worst night ever. and to add to it. my girlfriend dumped me.. so i told my parents for nothing… i tell my friends and theyre all like “you should of waited a month before telling your parents” and im like, wow! cant you just be here for me instead of telling me the things i should of done differently…
i wanted to start being close to my parents.. so i was gunna try.. well im done trying.. my mom […]
I’ve always gone back, to the place where I once sat and cried. I can remember the pain, watching all the little kids play and me just sitting there and wanting one to come over and ask if I would like to play with them. I remember when I sat on the swing and watch the girls play jump-rope and the boys played one their game-boys. I remember being alone. It hurt everyday, and everyday even more rage would full me up inside because I wouldn’t eat anything. I remember hating myself and wishing I could start over or die. It didn’t help that […]
i think i want to quit dance. sure i love being consider “a good dancer” but this year isn’t like last. I’ve joined cheerleading this year and its really fun and so are the people! dance just doesn’t feel the same anymore, i wish i could go to the past and be happy. the truth is i feel really selfish i have alot more than some people have and i know i should be happy and myself but… im not! I dont even want to compete anymore. i just want to be happy again and cheer makes me feel like that i love trying to […]
So, there I am. I had a shitty couple of days and I’m standing in the queue with my shopping which consists mainly of biscuits, and suddenly the queue is getting longer. More and more people seem to be in front of me. So, I start not being able to breath. Then that’s it. I throw my shopping, and charge out of the store. WTF right? Just like that. No idea whether my shopping hit anyone, or whether I broke anything. The Crisis team pop round just to say howdy less than an hour later. They ask me if I had been able to go […]
I am tired of constantly disappointing my family…seeing how I hurt them has left me hollow and in pain. I don’t want to kill myself because I know that would hurt them even more…but I crave death…I find myself being envious of people who die everyday because I want to but it just eludes me 🙁
As i said in my earlier post … You would see and find out more of me ..
More of why I am so fucked up , depressed, lonely , .etc most of you will get it I’ve read posts related and seen a part of myself in them
Most of you will understand
How I feel depressed and suicidal every single day
You’ve shared part of why you feel like that , buy I haven’t .
Well it all began about 3 years ago when that event occured .. the event that messed me up ,
When I was 15 I had it all […]
I’m 17 years old, I suffer from BDD(body dysmorphic disorder), social anxiety, depression, and I’m pretty sure I have unstable emotions. My father committed suicide when I was 3 years old and from then my mother raised me and my two older sisters while she abused depression pills, she would always go out to drink and come home drunk and mean, whenever a guy would come into her life she forgot she had children. I was too young to realize all that was happening around me.I’ve been bullied since I was in 4th grade, I only had one friend until we entered middle school and […]
Hi. I am an 18 year old boy who lived with depression ever since I was maybe 12. My first suicide attempt was during high school when I was maybe about 14 or 15 years old. It hurt trying to deal with the loneliness, pressure, and the feeling of how I just don’t exist to anybody around me. And looking at where I am now and where I have been before, I think I’ve dealt with it enough to where I can live a happy life. I don’t have all the answers, and I get depressed every so often. But I just want to do […]
My sister died two weeks ago. Both of us had struggled with depression all our lives, but found different ways to deal with it… which caused us to have little in common the last few years. We had been communicating again and on good terms since summer, but had not actually seen each other (except when she was in the ICU) since a family get-together about two years ago.
At that event there was drama, which I loathe, and a lot of misunderstanding and misrepresentation of a letter I’d written her saying I was just completely burned out, used up, and could not function any more trying […]
For the past five years, all I could ever think about is “why me? Why do I have to be the person that goes through all this pain, and sadness. As time went on, I hoped that everything could get better. I hoped that all the things that was happening to me was only a one time thing. But then I noticed I was experiencing that kind of pain every single day. I prayed for guidance, and I gave little hints about what was going on but no one could hear my cry for help.
At the age of one, my mom passed away in a […]
Blehhh. This Mr. Piggy is like, gobble gobble gobble gobble gobble. Lets do some jumping jack guys! Oh Mr. Pumpkin, you’re so big! You feel so good when I’m inside you Mr. Pumpkin. Happy birthday everyone! Let’s dress up like the Easter bunny! Uh… Oh. Who let the dogs out?!? And this banana…. Tis the night before Christmas.
Sorry guys. Just humoring my boyfriend with that paragraph. ^ 🙂
well, I’m a lousy writer… What should I do? I have no one to talk to about my depression, my loneliness… I can’t disclose to anyone that I suffer from HSV-2 in fear of being labeled as what I am, a poisonous person therefore I’ve been alone, drowning in alcohol and drugs to pass out as much as I can… I want help, I need help but what help can I get when I am forever cursed with a virus that destroyed my life completely… I used to be social, I would go out, have fun, date girls, be fun, do shit, travel, do […]
Nobody likes me, everybody’s out to get me, I am ugly, I am fat, I am way too tall, I hate myself, I can’t find a job, screw the world.
This goes through my mind everyday. Yes, I want to do it! I want to finish off my anti-depressants, mix them up with all my sleeping pills.
I have NOTHING to look forward to. I’ve been through so much crap in my life. With getting made fun of, being an over-eater, being used, and mis-treated. Screw this. I am done.
My name is Jennifer. I hate myself with a passion. My self-esteem is so low that I can’t even live a normal life. I feel like everybody is out to get me. Anybody else relate to this? Whenever I go to the store I feel as if everybody is talking bad about me and focusing their attention on making fun of me. I always wear black because I don’t feel comfortable in vibrant colors. I am a mess. I try praying, but of course that doesn’t help.
Hi all, my name is Jennifer and I want to share my story with you. It is Thanksgiving day as you all know it, but I have been crying non-stop in my room. I am just so angry with this world. I feel as if nobody is helping me or at least making an effort to.
It all started in middle school. My best friend died from cancer, and everything just went down hill from there. I was super quiet in middle school and tall, so I was a target. There was this one guy who I will never forget. He would throw quarters at […]
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