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I’m already cutting myself.. and I already have a bipolar disorder. Then yesterday in the night I try to throw up. I feel as if I need to be bulimic and skinny in order for people to be my friends since I already get bullied in school. I weigh 104 pounds and I feel like a bulldozer.. I just don’t know what else to do.

You know are going insane when you can feel someones hand on your head when theres no one supposed to be here.

Even now I confirm to myself via writing that I know it is my mind fucking with me – I can still feel the hand on my head.

Im done. I need a shotgun or something.

I have not been eating much lately.

obviously on the night my mind decides to create even more visions and noises that arent there Im getting hungry.

Usually I like the scratching feeling you get when youre hungry.

I just want some food now.

And weed.

I need weed. I cant sleep without it.

But I cant move. I cant leave my room. I need to stay where I am.

Its stupid. You know the shit you see is not real. Yet it is terrifying as fuck.

I have not been moving – except for my hands to type – for quite some time now.

Not sure what I will think will happen if […]

I spent the day
Thinking about you.
Thinking about words
You said
Words that broke
The skin
Of my heart.
They beat me down
Into a hole
Down to the ground.

I thought about you.
The pain sheered
Through me.
They made my tears
Burn like hell.
My fears dig me
Deeper
deeper
Deeper
Through the walla
I put up
To save my soul
From feeling anything.

I thought about you too.
The way you
Used me
Abused me
Cut through my skin.
And. Took my heart.
Smashed it
Shattered it.
Into small useless
Pieces.

I thought about me
My scars on
My heart
My wrists
My soul.

Shoot me down
Suffocate me
Put a knife to my damn throat
I wanna go to peace
Where your words
Make me suffer.
I don’t want to die.
Just be at peace.
Its been years
But It still kills.

My teen years were hard my mom died and my dad remarried. She was a *****. But i grew up married my high school bf. We bought a house had a baby, a boy. I thought id left depression behind. Baby got sick, it was cancer. So at 23 i was fighting th battle of my life. Baby died wen he was two. Marriage failed. My husband was in soooo much emotional pain. I couldn’t help. I was depressed. Im still depressed . I can’t seem to let go andmy family wouldn’t understand. Its been almost 3 years they’d say. I can’t open up to […]

Hey guys.

I tried to kill myself a couple of nights ago….

I just got out of the hospital last night….

I was so close to dying….. so close….

My boyfriend of almost a year convinced me to move in with him so I probably will(:

He has been by my side ever since I got out of the hospital…

I’m actually glad I didn’t die!

Thanks for supporting me that day guys!

#StayBeautiful(:

-Lexis<3

Oooh!,how i wish i was aborted..can anyone tell me a purpose for living,or atleast one good reason to live. ..coz whatever u think,i dont have. ..please i need that list may b i can find somethin to live for. ..note:i have nothin

hi im nicole and im 14:) ehm down really know where to start. i suppose so much has happened in the past few years its hard to know where to begin.
well a few years ago i was your average child, happy, fun loving and the type of person who could have a laugh. this all changed when i was in 6th class i found out that everything in my life was a complete lie. my mam and my ‘dad’ lied to be for 12 years.. i suppose thats when started to get depressed. i felt betrayed, lied to and wondering was anything they ever […]

THINGS ARE JUST FALLING INTO THE WRONG PLACE”’wish i could wait,but i cant.i am from a 4ckn 3rdworld

I have 2 suicidal friends, and both are cutters, 1 has done it for over a year now, and friends2 has done it since the begginign of this school year. I just found out 2 days ago. I talked to ffriend1 and she has tried to explain me her situation, Friend 1 and 2 are bestfriends, and 1 is she, she has attempted suicide 3 times now, and frind 2 I don’t really know. Friend2 mom doesn’t care, she started cutting because her mom will hit her and be mean, she even took her to the orphange because her mom had told her he didn’t […]

I don’t expect you to read all of what I say, but I am young…. I am only fourteen and I want to end my life already…. At school, I have had people tell me to kill myself, and the teachers think I’m lying. My best friends mom told me he killed himself today. I want to follow in his footsteps… I get called fat, because I am over weight, I get called an attention seeker because I dyed my hair pink. I get called a whore because I was pregnant. It’s not my fault I got pregnant. I was walking home from my boyfriends […]