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Hi my names Cathy and im 14.
I want to just disappear from this earth. I dont want to kill myself. I don’t want to feel the pain … I just want to go away. I can’t hold it anymore. I have been abused by my father, i have been cyber bullied… what next?!?!? I dont want to lose my mum..or siblings. But at the same time i just want to go away. I want people to forget about me and let me leave. I dont want to do suicide. I would perfer to die more in a accident. Help. Im even scared of myself. […]

Really, I want to live. But I don’t see that happening.

I have a wonderful wife and family, but I’ve been unemployed for four years now and I can’t even get an interview. I’m on antidepressants but they’re not helping. And even if they lifted my mood, I’d still be a failure and a burden. I don’t want to take my life because I don’t want to set that example for my kids, but I also feel my life is a terrible model for them. And I’m too old to believe it’s going to get better. I’m not sorry for myself so much as I am […]

Okay, so I’m sure alot of you are in the same boat as I am.

I’m pretty sure I have depression and anxiety, I don’t know what the symptons are because I’m just assuming that they’ve been with me for so long that I sorta got used to feeling like this. I feel like I’m about to cry even when I have no tears to shed. I feel like I’m never good enough for anyone and it’s killing me. and alot more but I’m not gonna divulge into them because I fear of breaking down and crying in class. yes. I’m on here in class.. pretty […]

this world is far too abrasive for me. absolutely everything hurts me and it’s just not worth fighting for.

i just don’t care at all.

i don’t see any fucking point

if i’m around for december 28th, it’ll be my exit day.

So, here I am, 5:30 in the morning. Still haven’t slept since waking up at 7 pm. I go outside for a cigarette. I finish smoking it. I’m on the phone with my friend, in the meanwhile. I’m about to go inside and some random guy walking by at 5:30 in the morning asks to use my phone. I go, okay. I tell my friend I’ll call him back, and let him use the phone. Then when he’s done, he wants me to wait for his friend calls back. I say, not too long, but okay. He offers me weed he has on him. He […]

To be me :

its takes  a razor

courage

throwing up

and hoping that one day ill recover

physically, i have parents, family and friends. mentally and emotionally, i have nobody.

with every passing day its like I find another reason to want to kill myself. I’m just so over it. I don’t sleep, I don’t eat, everyone thinks I’m on drugs because I’ve been acting up lately, but they don’t know… they don’t know that I cry myself to sleep every night, they don’t know I spend every second of my free time daydreaming, exploring, plotting. I just lay here in my bed, and think. why does death feel so distant, when I’m so close to the edge. why do I have to […]

Looks like the whole world is going mad, and all problems are popping up simultaneously.

Is there something special about 2012?

It’s sad, really. I hate that people have to feel this way, especially at such young ages. I’m sorry. I really I am. And there really isn’t shit I can do for anyone accept say that I truly feel you. The problem with pain is that there is no magic gauge. My wonderful mother dying might affect me the same way getting an F on final paper might affect anyone else. We can’t know. And we can’t judge. I know what it is to hurt, and I’m sorry that other people have to feel the way I do, or worse than I do, most of […]

hi…… i do not want to say my name!!! i am a girl and i am 20years old….. i was married in may 2011. it was love and arranged. when we were in love he showed me soooo much love and he said he would do any thing for my love and he said would die for me. if we fought, he used to say sorry even if it was my mistake. he liked my smile, he dont let me cry for any reason. he used to get me chocolate when ever he met me. i can just say that he manipulated me. when we […]

Okay so I’ve had some alcohol. I was thinking of taking 20 pills and seeing if I feel sick. If I did start to… then I would take more in order to complete the process. I would like others opinions on whether I would feel sick or not. Idk what else to do. I know I’m going to attempt sooner or later. Why the hell not get it over and done with now?

I just got bored and thought i’d write this boring, meaningless post.

Let me tell you a little about myself.

My name is Anastasia or Anna for short. I’m a 14 year old girl without any good to be living. I live in Australia with my fantastic family and freinds. I like jazz, indie and rock music. Even though i hate Ed Sheeran, my favourite song is The A Team because it’s a sad song and has true meaning, it’s not about sex or love or any other crap that could never happen to me. My favourite animals are bears. I love painting and drawing and am […]

I’ve just been feeling up and down. I am starting to think I might be a lil bi-polar. I went from having a great day to almost crying because I found out I have 4 missing assignments in my Spanish class, back to a great day after that class was over(5th hour). I’m really stressing out about all of the school work I have been getting, in my Journalism class my teacher gives us assignment after assignment. She gives us a new assignment before anyone finishes the last one. And before we even start the new one she gives us another assignment. In my US […]