The Ugly Duckling.

I just got bored and thought i’d write this boring, meaningless post.

Let me tell you a little about myself.

My name is Anastasia or Anna for short. I’m a 14 year old girl without any good to be living. I live in Australia with my fantastic family and freinds. I like jazz, indie and rock music. Even though i hate Ed Sheeran, my favourite song is The A Team because it’s a sad song and has true meaning, it’s not about sex or love or any other crap that could never happen to me. My favourite animals are bears. I love painting and drawing and am very interested in clay animation and filming. I like to write short stories and have always dreamed to be one of those happy, pretty, young college students that live on their own in the city. My favourite food would have to be homemade chilli with rice 🙂 yumm. My favourite show is friends, but i also love family guy and a lot of other shows. I support cancer and child abuse. I absolutely HATE summer, rain, sport, judgemental people, pretty people cause they’re just so mean by making people like me jealous, parties and anything else that can make anyone else happy. But, the totally number one thing i hate, is me. I never used to be bullied but my freind used to bully me and throw balls at me very hard and never say sorry. She’s a very supportive and nice person now and is one of my only 3 friends.

I’m a very, very, very boring person and like never talk, i swear to god that some people think i’m mute. I don’t talk mainly because i’m scared of getting teased or judged for whatever i say. I have a Canadian accent, i’ve lived in Canada for 7 years and wish i could stay there, it’s soo much better than Australia in my opinion. I used to be happy. Now, i don’t even know why anymore, i’m depressed and suicidal. I’m very ugly and have the most retarded shaped head and face in the school. I’m thin but in some areas i’m fat, i have a very retarded body. I have curlyish, blond-brown hair which i always make messy to make me look better, i fail everyday. I’ve lost tonnes of friends since i got to highschool and have gotten even more un-attractive and loserish.

This week was hard. It was a depressive week and it rained -.- All week, all i could think of was suicide and how i was going to jump off a very tall building. No one would care, my friends all have tonnes of other bestfriends, much more important than me. I waste money off my parents and i annoy my brothers. None of the other people at my school wouldn’t even notice i was gone. When they would know, they’d only be shocked that someone has commited suicide if they were told. Even people on here wouldnt care. I don’t give good advide and people probably think i’m kind of selfish. Anyway, if i was to kill myself, i would do it next year if i have a bad class. I’ve given up people. I don’t like to complain or be an attention seeker, but i really want to do it. You’re all awesome people and it would be so cool if we all went to school together and not worry about those terrible, perfect people.

Sorry if i wasted your time and you were bothered to read this piontless post. I just felt like writing. Anyway, i hate myself, i’m completely boring, that was the point of this post. 🙂

Gumpy-