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I’m like a paper man cut into pieces be my own pair of scissors, should i forgive her?
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I love you, and i would die for you because… please tick
a) You’re the most kindest person ever
b) You’re so inspiring
c) Your beauty is incomparable to anything or anyone
d) Your presence gives me pins and needles in my neck
e) My heart speeds up when i see you
f) My mouth loses the ability to swallow or produce interesting sentences when I’m around you, yet you still put up with me
g) You always seem like you’re looking up at people and you show respect to people even though you’re far more superior than anyone in the whole world
h) Your wacky and weird in a wonderful way
k) […]
being hurt is possibly the worse feeling someone can ever get it feels like your being punished for the mastikes you made in life not knowing how much it could acturally hurt someone by saying the wrong thing or saying nothing at all being treated like your not there that noone can see you so noone can hurt you but that hurts more being treated like a pieced of trash that you can just throw away isnt how your suppost to make people feel everyone desreves to live life the way they want too and not give a care in the world but as the […]
Fooling everyone, telling them she’s having fun.
I really need one of those rooms they put the crazy people in when theyre not allowed to hurt themself. With those cushions on the wall.
I need to stop banging my head to the wall.
I wsh I knew how to act like a normal person.
Maybe I shouldnt wait till D-day. What is stopping me now? Nothing. No one. Â I have no reason to not do it today. I have no reason to never do it. I have no reason to stay.
I wish I had a reason.
I know…it’s the right thing to do…but…I…CAN”T IMAGINE MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU! I’M NOT READY FOR YOU TO LEAVE…The army…If…I lose you…what am I going to do…I can hardly make a step without you for one day…what am I going to do for four years….It hurts…IT HURTS! Please…I’m so lonely…already…without you…I will be in pain…I will be shattered…My soul is but my heart will be too!…..This hurts…it hurts…I don’t want to lose you…I don’t want to lose you…
Sometimes I think I am invisible. People say they want a good friend, a friend that wants to protect them and that can be trustworthy…it suxs! I want to be that friend…I want to be a good friend to someone. But…no one will take it…it’s like every time I try I get shut out…I know I am annoying, can be mean, and not very good looking. But I mean come on? Is that really a reason I can’t be friends with someone. Do I really deserves to feel lonely?…I don’t want to feel like this anymore…I want to be noticed…I wan to stop being so […]
So ive tryed 3 times the past year, but failed, so i did my reswarch and found charcol in a closed room willl do the trick, so indsted of od then hangging which os my first plan.. ima live it up until Jan. then peach out. ive been planning january for over 6 months now, so have fun, live it up, make a plan and follow.
Does anyone else feel pathetic posting here? I do, every time I do.
Well, I’m past due. Way past my date of expiry. I have it set up that if I don’t reply to a text by the end of the day, the cops are going to come busting through my door. And the cops have done that already twice this year, it’d be too embarrassing if I were alive to greet them. Last time they came by, I had three of them stomping around in my room, snooping, while I stared at the traces of vomit that had dried up on the hardwood floor, hoping […]
Counting down the months.. now just shy of two months before my death… ive been planning all year.. sometime in January il be gone, its so nice to pick the day/month or even tme we choose to end our lives… well its almost here and i think it will be FUN to die… im accuallay looking forwrd to it, il post more the next few days
Im done caring what people think of me, I’m done pretending everything’s going  to be ok…. I’m done with being in a place where I’m not wanted, where I’m constantly judged for being the person I am…well I never asked to be here, I was never given the chance to be happy..so what reason do I have to stay………..all i do is get in the way.
so like, i’m going to kill myself this weekend.. i write suicide notes all the time, but now the only thing i have to say is goodbye. after dozens of pages, all i can say is goodbye. that sums it up really.
I think disappointment is the worst thing to hear… When my mom says she is disappointed in me and yells at me for the smallest mistakes it hurts. I feel like I can’t do anything right and the one person who I thought was on my side isn’t. I have a lot of good days, but today is a bad day. I know that this isn’t how a mother should treat her child but there is nothing I can do and there is no why out of this.
I’m nothing without you.
All my dreams and all the lights mean nothing without you.
Did you see her arm
Did you hear her cry
Did you see how much weight she lost
Did you see how she is slowing dying
Did you know she hates her self
Did you understand why she killed her self
You r the bully
You r the people who push me to the edge
You r the ones who make me feel alone
When will you understand?
Do i need to end my life so you can see it
Do i not do enough already
Answer this: Who would you be knowing you were the reason for a suicide?
— had to get it out
On a large enough time line, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero
Chuck Palahniuk/Tyler durden
Human mortality explained withouttaking into question of life after death. Everyone is going to die. But thats ok, I survive because I want to. there’s no logic in survival , it’s pointless. But who gives a fuck I’m going to live, get better and anyone who says different can tell it to someone who  gives a shit and that person is not me.
In 2002, I was in 8th grade, and that was the first time I started thinking about killing myself. It’s also when I started hurting myself. Things got a little better in high school, so I was just self mutilating day-to-day. Then as a senior in December of 2006 I ate a shit ton of aspirin, and ended up in the hospital after my first real suicide attempt. My favorite part was when I got home and my step mom asked me if I was ‘stupid or something’, because ‘everyone knows’ that aspirin is a blood thinner and actually makes you more jittery and awake, […]
My name is Nick mills. I am 18 going on 19 in march. For my whole life the only person who has cared about me is my father. My mother doesnt care, my siblings resent me, for no real reason, other than that i just don’t belong or have ruined their lives somehow by being birthed into this god forsaken world. Constitantly seeking approval, because no one has ever approved of anything i have done. I am currently on my 5th year of high school, alternative ed starting at the end of last year at Lincoln High School owosso michigan, (track me down and murder […]
Look at these definitions of depression on slango  so true but they dont say how to get out. We already know this stuff. Why doesnt it say how to get out? Or why we have depression?
‣ A state of altered perception where one sees the world as bleak and dark.  Feelings and actions such as purposelessness, disinterest, low self esteem, [self-harm], pessimism, suicidal thoughts or tendencies and a lack of motivation or energy may accompany it. It is not simply the feeling of being sad, but is a lasting state of mind that could be caused by a number of factors. Many health problems lead […]
Raining on Webs
I’m vulnerable, out without a jacket,
And it’s about to pour.
My heater, protection from the storm,
Won’t even look my way.
This web of hurt our love’s become
Is straining in the winds.
I don’t know what’s coming beyond the cloud layer.
Signed up unknowingly,
I report in early tomorrow
To throw myself off the edge
And fall along with the rain
Until I shatter and splash
Like a drop.
A celebration of eleven
Is all that keeps my sane,
Jacketed arms that I can cling to
When the downpour comes;
And another fragile heart,
I’ll protect when the burning sun returns.