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“And I congratulated the dead who had already died rather than the living who were still alive. So better than both of them is the one who has not yet come to be, who has not seen the calamitous work that is being done under the sun.” – Ecclesiastes 4:2,3
Why god Why take my unborn Childs life away?
It was so innocent not even bigger then my hand.
not even knowing what the sex was..
why do this to me and my little family?
why why why!
It was my little miracle and you ripped it from my heart and took my gift away from me, why?
Their are other girls with baby’s , girls who don’t even want them!!! I wanted mine!!! other girls get so scared , but I didn’t , I was excited and the most happiest girl , but u took that from me! Why why WHY!!!!!!
I am thinking of making another attmp. tonight,this time i will keep thinking of all the reasons im going to go out, hopefully that will push me harder.
i am hungery but everytime i try to eat i feel sick and i end up not eating it i have not eaten or drank anything today and i din’t eat much yeasterday anyways and i don’t plan on eating any today. so why don’t i just stop eating and get my life over with? that sounds like a really good idea right now.
Note that the people who sang these songs didn’t kill themselves, but like a lot of people they imagined it.
1. Mad World – Gary Jules
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4N3N1MlvVc4
2.Billie Holiday -Â Gloomy Sunday
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zBIqLqUenz0
3.Don Mclean – Starry, Sarry Night
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oxHnRfhDmrk
It was never about some great tragedy that befell me, making me lose the will to live. Although I was not born with a silver spoon in my mouth I have not lived through any great traumas. My mother was diagnosed with depression when I was very young, and although that was not easy by any stretch of the imagination, my parents somehow managed to raise me in a fairly stable home, where I was allowed to express myself and become a somewhat strong individual. In all fairness, the bloodline of my mother does have a history of mental problems, but apart from some underlying […]
Im contemplating telling my aunt about what I did…
and I texted “hi” to my friend-ish/first sex with…
what now? Im out of ideas really. I didnt expect to completely FINE after doing that. I expected atleast to be at the hospital but Im seriously okay… fuck logic seriously…
Im bored though… i have no one to talk to since I dont have friends… family is just a title only…
Fuck. My life has never been worse. I mean, there have been and are really shitty things in my life. Things I can’t control. But it has got to the point where I can’t see a way out anymore.
I realise that I have a lot to live for. My family really needs me, as do my friends. They all love me. I am  trying really hard to keep up my academic side. I was actually focusing on that when the shit storm hit.
I had a boyfriend. Fuck that is depressing having to write that in the past tense. People say stupid shit like ‘Oh yeah, […]
That was supposed to work! and it didn’t… all that happened was that got knocked out for a long time… i guess i’ll find a new way to leave this hateful world behind
i just want a friend.Â
someone i can talk to about anything. someone who understands me.
i feel so lonely.
I seem to stumble on this website at the oddest hours of night.Â
It’s only 4:43AM, and I can’t sleep. This is a self induced insomnia. For the first time in ages I scored Adderall and I felt like myself this evening. All good things come to an end, I’m facing the enviable come down. Maybe it’s my brain reeling from the dopamine flood it just endured. I’ve just gotten to thinking that being a depressed addict is probably one of the worst illnesses in the world. Use to live, and when the dope runs out, curl up and die.
It makes me nostalgic. I miss when […]
Until I got the news today, the news that just might finalize my decision, I felt like a dead man walking for the past few months. And back then, things were going relatively well. But now…
There is something comforting about knowing I’m going to die. I’m scared too. But honestly, every life is a death sentence. There is some beauty in being the one to end my life. A sense of real control.
So I really like this guy, but I’m trying to take things slow, he’s super sweet and hhe takes me as I am. He tteexts me every morning tellinng me “goodmorning beautiful” and it seriously just makes me smile and blush. I just I dunno what to do about it, should I tel him how I feel or wait?
Words can’t describe how much pain I’m in. I love him so much and he couldn’t give two shits about me. He had said he loved me and cared about me and than started acting like I don’t exist. I don’t know what to do. This hurts so bad. I really can’t live without him. He’s all I think about. We broke up in April and ever since than I’ve been going through the worst bout of depression I’ve ever experienced. I really cant take this anymore. I met an awesome guy who wants to take me out, but I’m not going to give him […]
It’s been said that suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems. I don’t see that as a deterrent, who wants a temporary solution to any problem? Solutions are good, permanent solutions are even better. Anyways, my life sucks. Life doesn’t suck, just mine. And there is no one to blame but me. I don’t care enough about anything. I am unmotivated to make my situation any better. I just don’t care. People sometimes tell me to search for that desire or goal or want to strive for, only I don’t want anything. I don’t even want to die, I just don’t want to live […]
I haven’t been on this website much in the last year because I thought I was doing better.
But my father has been talking lately about how I should get engaged.
I am a 19 year old Arab female, and my father wants me to get engaged next summer to a man I do no know so that he can come to America, get settled in, and then marry me when I finish college.
But this is the stupidest bullshit in the history of the universe.
I hate my parents. I was accepted to MIT but my parents wouldn’t let me go because they told me I could not […]
Hi all i’m new.
I just want to have a little rant about a psychological term known as projection and if anyone has to unfortunately spend time around anyone who does this.
I have a pretend friend that i have known for around 15 years, he used to be a great lad however, he changed in character very suddenly and started to become more secretive with his thoughts.
Before this happened he would always have his worries about fitting in in some way or another it seemed like he just didn’t know who to be….identity crisis maybe.
Anyways, mentions of always feeling like he was the back of the […]