Less than nothing

failI am less than nothing, I am such a fuck up, I cannot do anything right.  I try so hard.  I cannot do anything right, I fuck everything up.  I am nothing.  I am worth more dead than alive.  No one understands this, I am so fucked up, getting calls, everyone wants something from me, and I cannot deliver……   So much, I cannot do this any more, I try, God knows I try,, and even God has turned His back on me.  I have hurt everyone by just being alive, and no one wants to hear me, not even God.  I know God is dissappointed in me.  I am hurting, and I have a blade in my hand, I yave tried this before, too,  and always I failo, I cannot even die the right way. Who cares?  I have done nothing right, all I do is hurt those I love.  I have tried.  I have tried, so much pain, so much…