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I don’t understand why I haven’t done it yet. I want to die so badly, but I think I’m scared. I’m scared that I’ll fail, and have to live with regret and embarrassment and have to live out my life with the pain I’ve been living with.
I was suppose to do it today. I have everything planned out. I just need to go to the store to get one more thing, and I’m good to go. Maybe I’ll do it this weekend? Maybe next week? I keep asking myself if I can even go through with it; if it will even happen. I keep wishing that someone […]
i don’t really know what to say to be honest. basically, i have this urge to go to the beach and go for a swim (that’s it just swim out and nothing more). Â i’m not really sure what to say to it. i mean, i had a good night and all, but i can’t shake this. usually i can just distract myself from those kind of thoughts. read my old post, Last night i made an attempt. I hope in that read it will make sense. :/
Sorry if i’m not good with the whole explaining myself to be understood. I have really poor writing ability […]
Why are we able to suffer to the point of wanting to die?
Why are we driven to search pleasure in things like love, friendship, dreams, that can as well completely destroy us?
Why we have to struggle to make our lives worth the effort?
Why are we so weak?
Why things are designed the way they are; why we can’t just be happy forever and ever, no pain, no fear; why we fight to fix this.
the hopelessness of being myself is inescapable
i tried to live but i was unable
all the reasons why are always unknown
death is my palace and hate is my throne
immortal thoughts of oneness discredited as lies
causing my mind interconnected to die
all wishes will be granted for those who wait
love and peace are only real when you contemplate
the world without the world within
the world without the world within
subjectivity and tainted skin
kingdoms of war
huts of peace
silence yourself and learn defeat
master defeat and move on to the next battle you’ll lose
i dont deserve a breath […]
Recently me and my girlfriend of 1 year and almost 8 months broke up. When we first broke up i wanted to kill myself, i couldnt think of a reason to get out of bed. I didnt move for 2 days.
Now i feel like things are somewhat getting better. I am up out of bed, and i am talking to her again. I’m regaining hope.
All i want in my life is her. She is the most beautiful girl ever to me. But without her i have fallen into a depression. I dont feel hungry or thirsty, i havent a real meal in about 5 days, […]
I can’t let go of you (I am constantly letting go; I can’t do it any more)
So I am going to hang on with all my might
With me, it’s all or nothing
It’s the complete darkness or the light
So with you, I choose the something
I choose hope over the fright
I know the fright, the night too well
I know it’s twisted pleasure
My home in which I can no longer dwell (But not for lack of trying)
It’s weight I can not measure
So choose me, love, choose me as well
hi, im 17 and my life is messing up, failing school…losing friends and i donth think ill be able to depend on my self in the future. I have been considering killing myself for a year now and have decided once i fail my school course that i will do it, people that i know are saying that is it because i have aspergers syndrome…im not really sure.
i tried to jump of a bridge but coudnt do it because i have a phobia of water which you cant see under, anyway i was just wondering how long it would take to kill myelf by starvation, […]
I know that I’m thin but I want to be thinner. I want to have thighs that don’t touch and a body as light as a feather. I run because I want to burn calories. Burn off that chocolate bar I just consumed and so much more. I want 115 pounds when I am a perfectly thin perfectly healthy 130. Im angry at myself because I hate myself. I want perfection but perfection is unreal. I want to be okay when I graduate from high school this coming year and go off to college with my boyfriend and be okay knowing that Im gonna make […]
I keep trying suicide. My post got taken down. I’m sick of the suicidal thoughts & attempts.
Things have changed in my journey, I still here and alive, new hope or at least less of a reason to be depressed or fearful in my life.
I’m so tired. I don’t want to do this any more.
It’s all so much work.
Everyone tells me to just make an effort..
I have. I’ve made friends, taken care of family,
Got a job, a house, a car. I’ve gone to parties and
Tried to get a girl. I try to pay my bills. I try to
Have a life.
But they only say, “try harder.”
I’m tired of trying.
There come a point when the energy used to
Accomplish a goal out weighs the reward.
It’s not worth it any more.
I just got some great news yesterday!
It turns out that my […]
You said we’d be forever. How could you kill me and lie to my face?
So, I just spent ages crying my eyes out. My boyfriend caused this. He lied to me. Again. I try to trust him. And he just lies, and lies again. Does he even love me? I’m beginning to doubt it. He’s been gone for maybe an hour. I don’t care anymore. Scratch that. I care too much. I can’t cut my wrists because I promised to stop. But right now. The thought is tugging at me. I want to just give in. I feel dead and drone like. Should I just go? Embrace the beauty of being lifeless and dead, no longer being lied to. […]
Friends..?
Family..?
can we really be sure that we are not alone?
can we be resured…i dont think so…
friends.. don’t want to listen to the depressing fact that i am alone with no hope of living
they try to cheer me up as if it is that easy
i.am.tired
i hate my family everyone holds on to their every word..SHE said,” oh i would never hit my children” over the phone
………..LIAR…….
how dare you i am repulsed by the fact that you dare to say such words with me meters away…its sickening
……………..so i tell you now……….i am TIRED….DO THEY THINK I LIKE FEELING THIS WAY…..they didnt even look me in the eye […]
I look at my friends and wonder how they are so strong. So many facing real
problems, issues I couldn’t imagine trying to cope with. Yet they go on and
they survive. Here I am with no real reason why just struggling to hold on. It
makes me feel weak and even more like I am letting everyone down.
I try to
work but I just can’t do it. I haven’t really worked in two weeks. It only
hurts my family more if we struggle financially, and I know that. But when I
log into work I just can’t handle dealing with customers on the […]
When I found this site I was closer to suicide than I have ever been. How close is that? I can’t really be sure.
A few hours later, shit doesn’t seem so grim.
This is the first time I have really gone out of my way to find people who feel like me. I always knew there were people who thought like I did, but there’s something comforting about seeing other people’s thoughts put on display. Amazing website here.
Ten years ago
We were both fifteen. Teenagers. Too old to be called children, and barely old enough to be called teens. Too old to be taken care of, but too young to get many freedoms. Lost, reckless and confused, much like the majority of our age group. Except for one tiny difference: we were being held in a school for emotionally unstable teens.
Neither of us thought there was anything wrong with ourselves, but apparently the rest of the world disagreed. We were both there for the same reason, which was cutting and repeated suicide attempts. Nothing some special school could fix; just a bit of […]
“The Suburbs”
In the suburbs I
I learned to drive
And you told me we’d never survive
Grab your mother’s keys we’re leavin’
You always seemed so sure
That one day we’d be fighting
In a suburban war
Your part of town against mine
I saw you standing on the opposite shore
But by the time the first bombs fell
We were already bored
We were already, already bored
Sometimes I can’t believe it
I’m movin’ past the feeling
Sometimes I can’t believe it
I’m movin’ past the feeling again
Kids wanna be so hard
But in my dreams we’re still screamin’ and runnin’ through the yard
And all of […]
my mama used to tell me: if you can’t find something to live for, you best find something to die for (2Pac)
if you can’t find reasons, a cause to live nor to die for : you simply are in deep shit .. good luck to whoever is in this situation, life becomes quite a burden
I came across this website, when googling “i just want to die, how can I find someone to kill me”
& read many post from other and realized that most are very to how I feel on the daily, and the reasons why I want just want life to end.
Please, just make make it end.