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I Will Survive

I did this, you can too.

At nights I can’t stop crying, at days I can’t stop thinking.

by hellblau 9/20/2013

written by hellblau

It’s nice to love your best friend. But it’s not easy when you love love love your best friend. I mean when you fall in love. It’s hard to hide and hurts not to tell. And share. You should never ever ever tell them how you feel about that kind of love, cause you will lose your best friend and suddenly will become a stranger. Theres no such pain that can compare to love someone who doesn’t love you back. Yes you can take that risk and be brave enough to tell them. You can fail and get really fucking hurt, or in the case […]

9/20/2013 2 comments

Tell

by hellblau 9/19/2013

written by hellblau

“Somehow I’m gonna lose you, cause You’re not mine, and You’ll never be.
It hurts cause I want us to happen. I was us to be. I could bet that deep inside you, you feel the same way for me. I need a sign before is too late. I can’t tell you how much I need you, how much I love you, how much I want you. Before is too late, please be with me before I’m dead.”

9/19/2013 0 comment

The dream is over

by hellblau 9/18/2013

written by hellblau

How could I be so blind? I guess I fell in love too quickly… but I’m fine.
Imagine where you’d be now If you only knew, the one you love is the one who’s killing you.
I trusted you too much, I know now that I should have kept my eyes wide open.

I handed you a knife and my heart, and now the dream is over.

9/18/2013 0 comment

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRISTEZA!!!!

by theforgottenfew 9/18/2013

written by theforgottenfew

HEY TRISTEZA JUST WANTED TO WISH YOU A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I LOVE YOU GIRL!!! <3

9/18/2013 2 comments

Not strong anymore

by Jazintaa 9/15/2013

written by Jazintaa

Lately, i don’t know how to deal with my life, i’ve been having so many suicidal thoughts. I can’t handle it anymore, i feel like i have no one to talk to, and the people i could talk to probably wouldn’t care. No one really knows the true side of me or how i really feel. I know the consequences if i do commit suicide, i would miss my family and my nephew he wouldn’t understand, all he would know is that he would never be able to see his aunty again, i just couldn’t hurt him like that, he looks up to me.. I […]

9/15/2013 2 comments

Coincidential Sabotage

by Makenzie 9/14/2013

written by Makenzie

I have studied herbs for while now and I know many of the ones that could kill a person in minutes. There are two or three such plants growing locally where I live. The only problem is sneaking them past my parents in a small house. I have no where to hide the plants.Â I would have to get them at night. But then there’s the noisy front door and the street lights and neighbors. Sabotage by my surroundings.

9/14/2013 1 comment

Cantankerous but still kicking…

by tbd 9/13/2013

written by tbd

Hello. Â I’m new here, but I’ve been reading posts for days. Â I can empathize, truly, but try to hear me.

I can relate. As an emerging teen, I had deep times of depression. I tried to kill myself when I was 21, and came very close again when I was 30. As time went on, I just would be dismissive. “It’s just depression” I’d tell myself, “it will pass”, and I was right.

Several years ago, I found myself at an unlikely place, someone’s home where a church group met. (This is not a God endorsement.) The leader shared […]

9/13/2013 3 comments

Demons

by hellblau 9/12/2013

written by hellblau

There’s something cold and blank behind her smile
She’s standing on an overpass
In her miracle mile
“You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today
Today to run away”

A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won’t save her from herself

Her mouth was an empty cut
And she was waiting to fall
Just bleeding like a polaroid that
Lost all her dolls

9/12/2013 0 comment

I need you.

by hellblau 9/11/2013

written by hellblau

I miss you so much. You were the only person who made me feel really loved for the first time. It was a lie and just for a moment. That hurts. Still. I miss you like crazy.

9/11/2013 2 comments

The Clown can laugh again

by TheSadClown 9/11/2013

written by TheSadClown

Hey guys,

I know how all of you feel. Suicidal, alone, and depressed.

I knew that feel for 12 years now, I weren’t alone but I thought I were, I didn’t see no friends, not my girlfriend, I thought they were fakers, they were laughing at me, I couldn’t even see that my girlfriend loves me. why would she, I’m a 24/7 depressed person who couldn’T help her at anything, who does so much, and I didn’t see how much she has done for me, it all started in the year 2000. My father left my mother and was gone, for a long time, till I saw […]

9/11/2013 1 comment

I’m Tired

by redrum99 9/11/2013

written by redrum99

hi, i am 20 years old and i’m currently studying overseas from my country. the first time i wanted to kill myself was when i was in the 4th grade (8 years old). and since then, every time i got a problem, i always thinking of suicide. i used to cut my wrist and taking sleeping pills when i was in junior high school. i have lots of problems with my family, school, and sometimes boyfriend. i just moved here 3 months ago and every night before i go to bed i always pray and ask to God what am i doing here, in this […]

9/11/2013 1 comment

Empty

by this is madness 9/10/2013

written by this is madness

I don’t know who I am any more. I don’t know where the little girl who always had an ice-cream cone in her hand went. I don’t know how somebody could possibly feel so isolated and empty inside. I don’t know how somebody can possibly hurt this bad. I don’t how I can smile and laugh all day and be hollow inside and then come home and cry my soul out. Nothing makes sense. I’m dying. I’m relapsing. I’m fading. Have you ever just sat at home with a cup of tea and sad music and slowly forgot how toÂ feel? This is madness, this is […]

9/10/2013 4 comments

Well yeah.

by sazzabrah 9/9/2013

written by sazzabrah

Hey, how are you?
I know I have probably stuffed everything up between us but I didn’t know who else to talk to. No one understands me. I feel like letting you go was probably a bad idea but I know it was for the best. I’m gunna be honest here I just don’t think you were as into it as I was, and thats okay. But I really hope we can be friends.

I have no one to talk to. And today has been really bad. I stayed home from school and I was just thinking and thinking about Sam about you about everything […]

9/9/2013 1 comment

So I have autism?

by Engeltje 9/8/2013

written by Engeltje

I’ve been diagnosed with Autism, probably Aspergers syndrome, two weeks ago. I had an evaluation meeting and they told me that I have that. I was completely in panic, because since november last year, I constantly hear: yeah, you do have autism (pdd-nos), no you don’t have autism, you maybe have autism. So, I was like: Do I have autism, yes or no? I want clearity now! But I didn’t tell them, because I had the plan to tell that at the evaluation, but before Icould say that, they already told me I DO have autism, and probably aspergers syndrome, but that doesn’t matter anymore […]

9/8/2013 2 comments

I’m awake and I’m alive and I know what I believe inside

by theforgottenfew 9/8/2013

written by theforgottenfew

This song…it’s hitting home tonight…

Skillet – Awake and Alive

9/8/2013 4 comments

Knowing a Stranger?

by theforgottenfew 9/5/2013

written by theforgottenfew

It’s strange…
When you have never met, or even spoken to a person…yet you feel like on some level you already know them.
It may be you feel that way because of things that someone tells you about them,
or it may be because in a way you know what they are going through.
You know them through someone else’s correspondence with them,
because you try to reassure the person that loves this stranger you feel you know.
You feel helpless…because you wish you could tell that person how much they are loved by someone, yet you can’t.
You feel useless because with all the […]

9/5/2013 0 comment

Fear

by hellblau 9/4/2013

written by hellblau

Sometimes it’s faded, disintegrated, for fear of growing old.
Sometimes it’s faded, assassinated, for fear of growing old.
Hang on, though I try.
It’s gone.
Can’t stop growing old.

9/4/2013 0 comment

Tristeza

by theforgottenfew 9/3/2013

written by theforgottenfew

I met a girl on here who has become a very good friend to me. She is so sweet, kind, and honest. I haven’t known her long but I feel so lucky to have made a friend like her. Things are difficult sometimes for each of us in different ways but we are able to help each other through them. I know there’s a reason she was put in my life and even though I live so far from her I feel closer to her than I have to so many people that live in my town that claim to be my friends. I struggle […]

9/3/2013 12 comments

Today was great

by sazzabrah 9/3/2013

written by sazzabrah

Today has been better, actually today has been great. I know I’m having hard times at the moment but the amount of support I’m getting is amazing. I have amazing people in my life and I thank the world so much that I have them there.

Oh plus I got Captain Hook in Peter Pan!!!!!!

Ahhh can’t contain my excitement!

Much love to everyone ! Xx

9/3/2013 0 comment

I’m the saddest I’ve been in weeks

by NotReallyHereAtAll 9/2/2013

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

but I’m not suicidal sad.

For the first time since this whole shitty wanting to die thing began, I can honestly say that right now, despite the tears that have barely dried on my face, I have no inclination to kill myself. And that’s amazing.

I am sad at the moment, but I know that I am about to tidy my room and drink my cup of tea and dye my hair and have a bath and read a book and watch some TV and go to bed and that come tomorrow I will be okay. I am sad, but I know why I am sad (stressing […]

9/2/2013 4 comments

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