What if I’m done trying? What if I want to stop hurting, and want to stop hurting the people I care about? What if push away my loved ones so they can have an easier time when I’m gone? What if I don’t give a fuck how many people show up to my funeral, because my permanent pain is more important than their temporary pain? What if I can’t feel connection to anyone, because I can’t feel connection to myself? What if I’d rather my daughter grow up without me, knowing her mom killed herself, because I hate that I’ve taught her self hate and […]
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My Suicide Note
I guess that I write this for others so that they know suicide can be a rational choice, not simply an emotional over reaction.
As the title says I am actually healthy, in fact surprisingly so given my age and I’m a few stone overweight. Bit like Kevin James.
My job is ideal, in that I’m constantly top of my team despite basically turning up and just doing what I do. My managers all like me, as do the staff. I was given a permanent contract early into probation, and 8 months in they hint of promotion. A decent paying and easy government job.
I have a good […]
Hi there everyone.
I am a 29 year old guy from India and thanks to the availability of N these days, I am going to die peacefully within a week from now. This will be my first and the last attempt. I’m about to order it in a day or two.
I guess a big part of the reason people can’t kill themselves is that they can’t find a suitably quick and painless method to do so. Well, I can’t give anyone a vendor name here either because of the obvious reason that law-enforcement agencies will be knocking on his door soon if I do […]
I want to kill myself. I’ve been thinking about it for a while and have carefully considered all the reasons why I shouldn’t do it. But I think I’m ready. It’s just that I don’t think things will get better– and I know that’s what every suicidal person believes, but I’ve really thought about it and I can’t see a way through this. And I don’t want to live with this constant pain anymore. I can’t do it. Yes, overall my life is great and I am able to feel happy, but none of those things matter when on the inside I’m always dying. The […]
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Hey, I’m a girl, to be perfectly honest I’ve tried everything on getting better at doing life and all I end up is putting myself into hospital and hurting people around me. Yes I want to die. And yes I wil. One day. I’ve ended up here seeking help, so who knows I wanna find someone to relate to. I can’t be the only one wanting to loose my breath in the dense capacity of the ocean or breath in the sickening toxins of carbon monoxide on a daily basis? 🙁
From head to toe everything seems wrong. Nothing seems beautiful about me. I’ve never had anyone look me in the eye and call me pretty. I’ve never turned a head walking on the street. All my friends are physically perfect and amazing people.
Why cant I, me, myself just find the guts to let life go. I feel so stuck and depressed. I feel lost, and uncared for. Unloved! I will not get into detail, but ive beem through so much in life, i feel there is no point in living anymore. Im am always up all times of the night. Can never get a good night sleep. Thoughts are always on my mind. Ive tried hanging myself, drinking toxic, taking pills, and jumping. I obviously have not succeed. Why, I seem to always ask myself why suicide cant be so easy like the snap of a finger. […]
So, there are people who constantly trying to bring themselves down by unconsciously doing stupid things that destroys their life. When they start, it’s a vicious circle that can cause a lot of damages, not only to themselves, but sometimes to the others as well. Why, will you ask. Well, one of the reasons is that in their life, someone or something might have made them feel worthless, useless, unwanted, or even hated. They might have been mentally tortured and stuff, so they end up conditionned thinking uncousciouly their the salt of the earth.
I was often beaten by my mother. And I don’t know why, […]
This is my story ,this is how my life chance and I can’t take it anymore. I was a perfect person , had a nice job ,and felt great always had my anxiety, but took my medications. Years past and I develop hernieted discs , pinched nerves on panic attacks, over my 20 years in the same job. I had treatment sygery until it was almost impossible to continue doing my job. I asked to be relocated to a light duty job. But it was denied. My mother was diagagnosed with terminal cancer. I was like crazy. I ask for some time off after 20 […]
I feel like dying today. My world has been falling apart lately, my boyfriend has been my only support and I would always go on because of him. Until now, I made a mistake and he is ignoring me. I feel so fragile, lost, empty. We’ve been talking about it and trying to solve things but from one day to the other he decided to ignore me, I feel heartbroken. I want to jump from the top of a building but I’m waiting. Maybe he’ll talk to me. If not, I’m not sure how I’m going to get through the weekend.
I really have no idea what is wrong with me! im extremely suicidal. im lost. i cant find myself. i wrote a poem about my past. this is my first time on here. i struggle a lot. i want to share my poem.
You know how it feels when someone betrays you? The bursting anger. The heat you feel when tears are about to fall. The lump in your throat when you want to scream? I feel that. I’m petrified to move. To speak. To breathe. I only feel safe here. I’m so tired of being hurt. Of being left behind. Playing with my emotions like […]
I’m fine. Or actually I’m not. Well at least I’m here. Is it better to be here, alive and in pain, than being dead and in no pain?
I just woke up and the dreams I have are better than reality. That’s why I sleep for a long time. Sleep is my friend. I want to sleep all day. Just lie in my bed without needing to think about anything.
You’d think writing about it would make it feel a little bit better. Maybe it does for some people. Unfortunately I am not like some people.
Now you may be wondering what is causing this pain. Well it’s just that […]
This is my story to tell and the story you should know.
Janaury of 2013, I was a suicidal trans male. I suffered depression almost 3 1/2 years. It’s very long time than you all expected. I was hurt, scared, tired, lost, abandoned, and many words I should describe myself of being sad. Every day during my middle school year and the year of my 7th grade, people treated me like an animal or a beast. I was beaten up by bunch of kids especially middle and high school boys. I was known as a freak, emo freak, tranny freak, or boy freak. I couldn’t stand […]
Hi my name is robert, I am a pansexual male. By 23 I have two children, one of them only 5 months old. I thought i would share my story, if anyone might want to hear it, it might be on here.
When i was young i was constantly abused, physically, mentally. I often think it was the mental abuse that was the worst. My father worked so much to support the two children he adopted. He sold all of his motorcycles, all the things he cared about. With all that work it did not leave him much time to be a parent. He was often […]
And you cant find happyness because your stuck. Then what other way is there out? Im bipolar and have constant untrue crazy thoughts in my head that i actually believe. Its torture. Every day is like a battle. Im paraniod of the ones closest to me and honestly being alive is causing me pain. ..
I have a son and i dont want him to be affected by my mental hell. Its just not fair. He is the most gorgeous boy and i believe he deserves a shot at a good life. His dad is a pos. So im getting arrangments together in my head […]
I really have had the chance to kill myself. When he handed me the gun, he said “take this, incase anything happen to you”. Little did he know, i wanted to be the one to cause my demise. One single bullet. Loaded. Pressed against my temple once, in my mouth the other. He had no clue… He was drunk and hype that he beat up moms ex. Wanted me to like him too. As soon as he left; i was at head with god. A single bullet between us. I was too chicken shit though. I was too scared of the afterlife. The possibility of burning […]
Hey, they call me Odd. It’s nice to share my story with you.
First off, im not killing myself… Yet. I’m trying to push for another 10 months of living. I’ll be 18, in April. I’ve decided to tell my story now, just incase i jump the gun a little early.
Where do I start? This is kind of like a “my moment” type of thing. So, how can I personally catch your attention, long enough, to hear me out?
I’ll start by asking; “have you ever been sad?”
Need ideas to visit west of the Mississippi River before my time comes
Ive come to the conclusion that i will end things. I dont have a family and ive had a very rough childhood. Im only 24 but looking as my entire life falls apart. In less than 3 weeks i will no longer have a place to stay, no where to go and honestly im just very tired of everything. Things just repeat themselves i dont want to be here. I dont want anymore pain. Im going on a final trip. I will travel across the us for a little while till i run out of money. Inwhich i will go camping, grilling myself one last […]