Why cant I, me, myself just find the guts to let life go. I feel so stuck and depressed. I feel lost, and uncared for. Unloved! I will not get into detail, but ive beem through so much in life, i feel there is no point in living anymore. Im am always up all times of the night. Can never get a good night sleep. Thoughts are always on my mind. Ive tried hanging myself, drinking toxic, taking pills, and jumping. I obviously have not succeed. Why, I seem to always ask myself why suicide cant be so easy like the snap of a finger. Im ready to go. I love my God for he has created me, but I am reasy to go. Im absolutly tired of crying and suffering. If anyone and i mean anyone has any painless and or fast way to leave earth. Be my guest. Thank you in advance.
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Hi NajaH, I am sorry for your obvious pain. We can’t discuss methods here though. But you can talk more if you like. Perhaps about what’s hurting most?
How did you failed all those methods? U must be a robocop.
I have some failed suicide attempts and now I feel like I may have permanent brain damage. After the last failure, I felt like there was something that wouldn’t let me die, like in this miserable life I had a purpose. I began talking to God again because of this. So maybe your failed attempts means you have a purpose and haven’t found it yet.
For the sleeping issue, a low dose of melatonin has helped me to sleep. You’ve probably been through more then most people could handle and your still here. That shows tremendous strength. I pray you can use this strength and your past experiences to do great things in the future.
When I can’t sleep I focus on the way the sheets or blankets feel. It helps along with making the temperature in my room comfortable.
As for those thoughts I admit they are hard to stop when you are in pain. I haven’t found a solution to keep me from in some small way just wanting to not be here . I think though I just want to leave the state I am in. It just bores me… for example I hate flying on an airplane but if I had a one way ticket to someplace like ireland, scotland, or Wales this instant I would be gone. Maybe even Britain…
So I guess what I am trying to say is… maybe getting out of your usual environment will at least serve to feed your will to live in some way and explore someplace new.
Im sending you a hug for what it’s worth. Ive attempted and failed countless times