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Stories of Hope

I should be dead but I am not

by toxicluminoth 1/27/2014

written by toxicluminoth

I am lost and scared and I’m no where near fixed but I am not dead.

I still think about suicide often and I remained un-medicated until a few moments ago when I popped the first pill to happy (doxepin).

I am getting therapy. Every once in a while it will give me something useful but not often. I don’t think I’ll be sticking with it in the long run. Maybe once every few months.

I may be unable to sleep due to apnea or even my sinus being closed off because of a random act of violence back in 07′. Apparently sleep deprivation is a bad thing…

I […]

1/27/2014 2 comments

I like being alone

by hellblau 1/27/2014

written by hellblau

I like being alone, I like when I have my own.

I can think enough to talk to myself,

But not enough to forget how I felt.

He still remains on my mind,

Like I can’t take him apart.

I like being alone, cause I can talk to him,

I can hear his voice on my head, telling a verse,

but somehow I forget,

How to make him go away.

27/01/14

9:23 pm

1/27/2014 0 comment

2k14

by youwouldntrealise 1/27/2014

written by youwouldntrealise

havent been on here since last year. I’ve been to hell and back

i want people to know they can email me if they need someone to talk to or advice.

naomirogers1996@yahoo.co.uk

1/27/2014 2 comments

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by keke_ 1/27/2014

written by keke_

1/27/2014 0 comment

were do i go from here please help me

by why i dont no 1/25/2014

written by why i dont no

today i morn the loss of my good frends dan edwords i fownd his bodey this morening he was a frend and a brother to me in his note was a letter wich he had read befor me its was open (for a few weeks hed been opeaning my letters for some reson) and he put a note inside saying “do well i love you dont …” the rest was to messey or coverd in blood to read so crying aand stagaring on my feet i take it from the guy who has just given it to me and i reed the note but i […]

1/25/2014 0 comment

Why?

by hellblau 1/24/2014

written by hellblau

I’ve been so close to almost call him or text him saying that I love him, so much. That I miss him so much. I thought that being drunk would help me to do that, cause I get more sensible, thought that would help me to do it by impulse, but not even drunk I can. I’m such a coward and I’m so fucking afraid.

1/24/2014 2 comments

the girl who saved the world

by why i dont no 1/24/2014

written by why i dont no

“maby i should just let the sun engulf to world” said theÂ god of man kind filled with a pashion for lifeÂ but he did not have time for aÂ evil raceÂ to the girl siting next to him “but if youÂ give upÂ it meens that you will never over come your proplem” the god looked at the girl and smilled “this is true” he says and reterns to wach theerth tern the towns and citeys sending up a yellow light on the night side but on the other green and blue could clerely be seen the question is when is the line to scrap it all and take the […]

1/24/2014 0 comment

???kontard’z

by YESCHUkrist 1/20/2014

written by YESCHUkrist

ME OPS????fed up with refelctional frens(acts like ur therpist of sleeps ell except u to set uÂ up with someobodi compley wrong for u)/karoolivigians(wutevre it is u like coming to suemthing …)… I JUST WISH I EXISTED IN SUMBD,IS HEART….

1/20/2014 4 comments

Life wasn’t meant to be impossible

by Not4Me 1/18/2014

written by Not4Me

I am 55, but at 21 I put a gun to my head and wondered why I shouldn’t pull the trigger.

After contemplating for about 5 minutes like this I became aware of the ridiculous and uncomfortable position I was in. I realised the motivation for suicide was strong but was not coming from within me. Having removed myself from most of the negative influences in my life just to get to that point, the motivation for suicide had left me. There was nothing in me that wanted to end my life. Others, it seemed, were wishing it on me.

I resolved that if I didn’t follow […]

1/18/2014 2 comments

Christopher Mccandless aka Alexander Supertramp

by HealingInHisWings 1/18/2014

written by HealingInHisWings

Many of you guys have heard about this guy… Â There was a book and movie written about him… Â “Into the Wild”:

Christopher Johnson McCandless was an American hiker who adopted the alias Alexander Supertramp and ventured into the Alaskan wilderness in April 1992 with little food and equipment, hoping to live simply for a time in solitude.Â Wikipedia

I admire this guy for who he was and for his ideals and adventurous spirit and relate to the guy. Â If you haven’t heard of him, see the movie. Â There are some lessons to be learned about self isolation and other things.

He basically starved to death out there, supposedly […]

1/18/2014 7 comments

the continuation

by TheGlassChild 1/18/2014

written by TheGlassChild

For those who read my post yesterday, I feel the need to give you a feedback on how things went last night.

So I did talk with my friend. I was really anxious about it and unsure if she was the right person to tell everything. Some of you gave me a little strength to just try it. and I gave it a shot. I’ve always been a better writter than a talker when it comes to feelings and I thought I wouldn’t be able to express it clearly enough. But I did, and I guess that the way I told her things were ok ’cause […]

1/18/2014 7 comments

Here is help

by lma3932 1/17/2014

written by lma3932

I have been cutting the 8th grade which was 6 years ago. I have been hospitalized twice for trying to kill myself. Thanks to a friend, I haven’t cut myself since October 25th. Some other things I found helpful was “the butterfly project” and a crisis text line. The butterfly project can be found on tumblr and facebook. The crisis text line was really helpful though. The number is 741-741 (I have it saved in my phone as CrysTaL that way people who look at my contacts wont know)

1/17/2014 2 comments

Photograph

by __D__ 1/17/2014

written by __D__

I drank the last sip of wine, and set the bottle down. My medicine was failing me, my loved ones had failed me, and lastly, I had failed myself. Tonight was the night, I told myself. I had no desire to stick around any longer. I had only caused myself misery, and made everyone else’s lives complete shit. I was a heavy weight on everyone’s shoulders, a boulder, weighing down until I was dropped so suddenly to the ground. I looked at the fireplace and closed my eyes. I could hear yelling and screaming inside my head, visions of violence played out over and over […]

1/17/2014 7 comments

Still Alive

by toxicluminoth 1/16/2014

written by toxicluminoth

I was fairly successful in my attempt.I am seeking help but I am not abandoning the cool people here who have been supportive in the way that made me feel comfort.

I don’t feel any better today than I did the day I did it but I am open to seeing what the immediate future holds… and I guess that’s the point.

Might be losing my job though. I’ll find out soon.

1/16/2014 8 comments

HELLO, MY NAME IS

by HealingInHisWings 1/16/2014

written by HealingInHisWings

Chris. Â My email is cdgibson875 at Â gmail…

If anyone needs someone to talk to, anyone at all… Â I want to help.

1/16/2014 3 comments

Baby in Black

by Phae 1/16/2014

written by Phae

Here I am; haven’t been able to catch sleep all night and into the early hours of the morn. I lay in my bed staring into the dark, holding myself back from taking all this pain away. My boyfriend and parents are asleep, so I need not bother them with my emotions as of now… but I need an outlet, so, I bring you all (who are willing to listen) a (rather long) story.

Why am I really writing this, besides as an outlet? Well… let’s just say this is the reasoning behind why I will never,Â ever end my life (I hope). I hope some will […]

1/16/2014 3 comments

Hello

by keiksia 1/15/2014

written by keiksia

I found this site and I guess the idea of Â it is pretty cool. I guess I want to share my story here. Some things that I never told anyone before

1/15/2014 8 comments

Been one week cutting free

by Engeltje 1/15/2014

written by Engeltje

So last week, I’ve been cutting free, didn’t cut for a week (meanwhile I did relapsed several times since tuesday). It wasn’t my intention to stop cutting or so, but it just happened. I just didn’t cut for a week, because I didn’t had the energy for it. I was so depressed, I ate almost nothing, slept a lot, but I was really tired, and I felt so miserable, that I was too depressed to pick up that blade and go cut myself. So I didn’t for a week. Although I didn’t cut, I did scrathed myself (which looks horrible now) and I starved myself. […]

1/15/2014 2 comments

Find the man that stopped me

by iDidNotWantLife 1/15/2014

written by iDidNotWantLife

Here a little something I found today. I hope it brightens up everyone’s day.

http://metro.co.uk/2014/01/14/man-tries-searches-for-stranger-who-stopped-him-committing-suicide-in-finding-mike-campaign-4262459/

1/15/2014 2 comments

this is for you! hope it helps(:

by Honey_bee00 1/14/2014

written by Honey_bee00

well. imma try my best to help you as much as i can and i hope im able to get through to you.
So.. i used to in your shoes. its either not eating trying to kill yourself or cutting. and i did all 3. there might be more but im not aware of them really. anyways . you are most likely not wanting to live an the moment right now. and i completely understand. but tell your self everyday that you are beautiful and special and perfect in someones eyes. write your self notes in the bath room or on […]

1/14/2014 4 comments

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