My philosophy in life is always want something, but dont ask for the impossible and definitely dont expect anything for free.
Life is a challenge there may be challenges around every corner but dont sit down n call it quits, find things u love and at least make an attempt to pursue them.
Let me just begin by saying that i have contemplated suicide many times in my life time, mostly during my adolescence, but just recently also. I have been observing this page for a few days, and have been reading all of your posts.
I happened to stumble upon this article while searching near death experiences, and was amazed and humbled by the words so much that i began to cry. (not from sadness, but from the pure warmth of peace) I hope this brings you peace, and if not peace, a better understanding on why you are here now, and why we all MUST suffer sometimes… […]
Towards the end when Agent Smith and Neo are battling inside the matrix and it looks like Agent Smith has won the battle, Neo stands up again to him…
Agent Smith: Why, Mr. Anderson? Why do you do it? Why get up? Why keep fighting? Do you believe you’re fighting for something? For more than your survival? Can you tell me what it is? Do you even know? Is it freedom? Or truth? Perhaps peace? Yes? No? Could it be for love? Illusions, Mr. Anderson. Vagaries of perception. The temporary constructs of a feeble human intellect trying desperately to justify an existence that is without […]
I was ready to die today. I’ve been afraid of dying by stabbing myself or my organs, due to having severe abodyemigphobia. But my house is fairly tall, I could jump, I could at least break something if I didn’t die. I’ve been wanting to commit suicide for a while now, I’m a worthless human being, who would care? I’ve even posted death threats and not one person cared. So I was slowly opening my window, thinking that I was finally going to be free, that this was the right thing to do. But I heard my mom come in, and remembered how disappointed my […]
“When you’re chewing on life’s gristle don’t grumble, give a whistle..”
“Life’s a piece of shit, when you look at it..”
Don’t. There is hope. There is much more than that. I’ve been studying it for 4 years now and I have to tell you: opiates are divinely efficient in chaging the way you feel, instantly. It’s unbelievable. If it wasn’t for them I’d be dead for sure at the age of 18 and I’m 22 now.
Opiates are very addictive, because they make you feel so good, 99% people with suicidal ideations have disrupted endogenous opioid system pathways. It’s always better to be an addict than being dead. Pharmaceutical industry is working on opioids that aren’t addictive, as well as anti-addiction drugs. NEVER LOSE HOPE […]
This is my story and i hope it gives all of you out there some hope.
I was always a good girl. I had friends not many but yea. First everything was good. I wasn’t the thinnest but I was happy with who I am. But when I came to 5th grade, all my friends were away. All of them were on another school. I thought it couldn’t be that hard to make new friends but it was. No one in my new class liked me. They called me names like fattie. Everyday I got home I went in my room and cried. I just cried, […]
I know how much the decision to commit suicide really hurts. I know how much pain it takes to be pushed to that point. About six or seven years ago I made the decision to kill myself. Six or seven. That’s how long it’s been since I’ve been pushed that far. Luckily for me the day I made that decision someone, who I know consider my guardian angel, saved my life. We are best friends, sisters in fact, to this day. I’m so glad I didn’t kill myself. It turns out I didn’t want to stop breathing, I just wanted my problems to go away.
I […]
Today I threw away my blades. It’s the best I’ve felt in years. I wanted to get better but I never thought I would. This is a huge step for me and I hope other people will be able to do this.
To all of those who remember me… Kelly or DDD or DarlingDaughterDamaged,
There is indeed hope… Â I know that sometimes it may feel like you’re at wits end, nothing is going your way, but just trust me..
I found love in this hopeless place… I know that seems stupid… But I did.
Nothing is a lost cause, I still have my bad days… It’s not as bad as it used to be.
I know that right now might be hard for you, but it does get better.  If anything let me stand proof of that…  And admittedly..  If  it wasn’t for SP and the respective chat, wouldn’t be here. […]
I just want to share a story, my story, for anyone that might care to read it. Â It will probably be the only thing I post on this website. Â You’ll never know who I am and I will never know who you are, but perhaps we’ll meet someday, get drunk together, and you’ll tell your story and mention a story you read on this stupid website and I’ll say “hey, that was me! Â I wrote that!”. Â And we’ll laugh about it and go build a bonfire in the woods and howl at the moon, or something. Â That’s the kinda thing I like to do, anyway, […]
I have intentions to be productive for myself. I want to be helpful and do right, for myself and others. I like to impress and make people around me proud. I have a standard to live up to. My family expects my fullest respects, and endlessly utter my continuous responsibilities. My friends just expect me to be there. Usually I’m quiet, but if I’m around long enough most are bound to get a piece of my mind. After that I kind of just do what it takes to blend in. Even though I’m more than use to sticking out. The feeling is like: hope–To be […]
Hello! I’m writing this in order to get some help, and be sure that i’ve made the right decision.
I wrote this to another person on another website:Â <<<Â I feel the same as you do/did “Every day I wake up feeling terrible! I don’t want to die,i just don’t want to live like this.” and i felt it since i was your age 17/18 and then i was dreaming about killing myself but i talked to others and i was to weak to take my own life so i said that i’ll wait, that things will get better, two years have passed and i had a big […]
I’ve had this saved for some time now. Realised from the moment I thought it that one day I would use it. My family, especially my parents, have the right to know why I decided to do the unthinkable. They have no idea I’ve been researching it for months. Devious really. This is a material world and I want out.
To My dear loving family
Forgive him all for what he’s done
A departed soul he has become
His pain and suffering so much so
He had no choice but to go
Young, loving and so very proud
But in the end was beaten by deaths dark […]
” Have you ever just laid in your bed and cried? Because you think you’re ugly, because you’re not good enough for anyone. You’ve counted your flaws from head to toe, making yourself feel worse. Cried because of all the comments that people blurt out actually hurt? Cried because your family is dysfunctional and never understands you. They tell you to stop complaining . That you have it so much better than the kids in Africa, even though they don’t understand your life either. You don’t want to feel like an attention seeker, so you bottle everything up? Around friends and family, you’ve created this […]
I had a lazy day just on my laptop today, and have been watching/ reading about things that fascinate me.
The main topic that caught my eye was the theories and thoughts surrounding solipsism and realism.
Solipsism is the thought/ belief that you are the only real thing. That the people you know, the information you’ve learned about history and research going on is just information ‘created’ for you (as if you’re in the matrix kind of idea).
Realism is that things exist whether you are here or not, and realism states that your perception of reality and the things that happen are false to […]
Is your joke still funny when you see my scars?
Is your joke still funny when you see my tears?
When you see me wish for death?
when you see me in so much pain?
Is it still funny when all i think about is ways of dying?
When i wanna just kill myself?
when you know it was all your fault?
when you know that you pushed me over that line?
That it was your fault i cut out my veins?
when it was your fault i overdosed?
when you know it was your fault i put that rope over my neck?
Is your joke still funny when you see me basically dead but still […]
I can feel my heart slowly beating the same slow pulse,
But my mind is breaking apart and starting to convulse,
As I try to not think about the destruction before my eyes,
Another day gone down the drain in the life that I despise,
A quiet bum bum, bum bum, goes on inside my chest,
I still have a heartbeat but it’s very faint,
Meager at the very best,
Back to my brain,
It is turning off,
Shutting down from all my pain,
The drugs, the cuts, the suicide,
My eternal cloud of rain,
I’ve been counseled and hospitalized to no avail,
Every treatment sought has failed,
Hope is scarce and failure is often,
I wish they would just put me […]
Don’t let them win – By not giving in proves what douchenozzles the bullies and bastards are and that for all their strength and snark – they just cannot beat us
“If you think god hates you, hate him back” (modified quote from Lethal Weapon character Martin Riggs)
perseverance dawg
I want to help people understand that there is some positivity in the way they express themselves. This desire for a painless death that so many people talk about on this site is a positive sign.
You don’t really want to die and you are unconsciously grabbing onto something in your mind as a positive element that makes you want to hold on!
Remember REM: hold on!
Delaying is a great technique! “I’ll do it tomorrow.” Then, tomorrow arrives and you say, “I’ll do it tomorrow.”
Stay safe! I think you all have something to contribute to the world. Having survived a serious suicide attempt, I realise how wrong […]
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