Heartbeats

I can feel my heart slowly beating the same slow pulse,

But my mind is breaking apart and starting to convulse,

As I try to not think about the destruction before my eyes,

Another day gone down the drain in the life that I despise,

A quiet bum bum, bum bum, goes on inside my chest,

I still have a heartbeat but it’s very faint,

Meager at the very best,

Back to my brain,

It is turning off,

Shutting down from all my pain,

The drugs, the cuts, the suicide,

My eternal cloud of rain,

I’ve been counseled and hospitalized to no avail,

Every treatment sought has failed,

Hope is scarce and failure is often,

I wish they would just put me into a coffin,

My heart, my heart, my failing will,

All beating has ceased and there is no pill,

My mind, my mind, my precious sanity,

All control has diminished in this calamity,

My heartbeats have ended,

All thoughts suspended,

What can save me,

When there’s nothing to save.